150th Post

Spent most of my last few days
N the arms of a very lovely man
He spent most of his time
Nside of me

It was hot
It was expansive
It was thought provoking



Goodnesss
Being intimate with someone is trickyyy
It opens all kinds of doors
Stings all festering heart wounds
Brightens our fearful dark corners
This is beautiful
This is challenging
This is hard, easy work

It's about letting go
Opening
Giving, and giving in, to love

I'm shocked at how tricksy I'm finding all this

Hard because sometimesss my mind is racing
My ego is raging
My inner child is blasting

Gotta let the love flow

But I've let some things go
I need my time alone
To breathe, reflect, check in with myself

What a lucky challenge to have?

From T Moment I Wake Up

Sharlena
I Am Your Muse
You
Are My Muse Too

OOOMMMGGG
Tonight
I watched the most fabulous musical
Now
I like to think I see a good amount of theatre
Probably 50+ shows in London
Over the past 2.75 years
And they've ranged from
Shakespeare
Dance/Performance Art
West End
Improv
Etc
Etc
Etc
And
THIS SHOW HAD ME
WITH A HUGE SMILE ON MY FACE
FILLED WITH GLEE
GLITTER
AND
GRATITUDE
*drum rolll*
Priscilla Queen Of The (Fucking) Desert
Yes
I Know
It Was Seriously Fucking Amazing
I Wanted To Be In It
It Looked So Fucking Fuuunnn
And The Performers Were Fabulous
And The Choreography Was Hilarious
Oh
Maaannn
Loved It
Obviii

Mother Is Here
So No Sex For Me
Not Like I Haven't Tried
Fuck
Even Gave This Gorgeous Guy My Number
I'm Putting It Out There
I May Have A Couple Lovers In My Life
But I Am Open To Suggestion
I Am Taking Meetings
I Am On The Fucking Prowl
Puuurrrrrr
I Want My Bed Empty
When I Want My Bed Empty
But
I Want My Bed Full
When I Want My Fucking Bed Full
And
I Am Not Impressed
With The Fact That I Am Falling Asleep Alone Tonight
I Need To Get Laid
And I Need It Nooowww

I Don't Know What's Up W Me
I Just Feel Like I Wanna Disappear W Someone For A Week
Hole Up In T Flat
Just Stay N
And Fuck
And Chat
And Hide Away
For A Week
For A Weekend
Forever

Tonight
On the way home from the theatre
Ma and I were approached by a man
He had one of those froggy deep in the throat voices
Toni Morrison talks about them
Especially in 'Beloved'
He croaks to me:
Hey! (Through a crowd of theatre goers)
Do you know this area?
Ummmm Depends
I say
Turns out he parked his car
And now he can't find it
He seems slow to me
And I can't tell if the tears
Running out of his eyes
And over his cheeks
I can't tell if they're from fear or frustration or the wind
As we're walking
I zip up his backpack
The front pocket was open
He's looking for his car which he parked near a McDonalds
Near a KFC
Ummmm...Ok I think
I tell him where I think there are a few nearby
We're in the fucking centre of tourist London
There is a fucking McDonalds and KFuckingC every 2nd homeless person
I really hope that man found his car
And his way home
Safely
The angels are on it
: D

Covered N Cake

Sharlena Added Nipples To This One
; D
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Fuuuck
I have to sayyy
I'm really enjoying
This whole
Loverrr thing
It's, like, lovely men
in your life
in your body
Nice Sexy Thoughtful
But none of the you knowww
Day to day life thingsss
Hahaha
Like
I'm really liking having my big bed to myself right now
I'm really liking the various crushes I have
I'm really liking the waaait...sweet agonyyy

I'm missing Samurai very much
I'm wanting Samurai very much
I'm needing Samurai very muuuchhh
Soon
Soon
Soon

Gotta Try A Little Tendernesss

Sharlenaaa
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Goddesss
Was so flattered
When she said this sketch was inspired by my blog
(Lover Du Jour Spanked Me So Hard The Other Night
Left Me Black N Blue
Fucking Loved It
So Fun)
Temp Titled: Bruises Polka Dots
See Previous Entryyy


Practice What You Preach
He Said
As He Walked His Fingers Across My Knee

We Were Both On Our Backs
Him Stretched
I Had My Legs Bent
Pulled Into My Chest
My Arms Overlapping

His Fingers Walked In Time
With His Next Words
Don't Fall In Love With Me
I'll Break Your Heart

I Can't Help It



That When I Think Of You
My Chest Feels Warm & Bright
And My Lower Gut
My Second Chakra
Bounces & Tickles

That When I Think Of You
A 70's Style Home Movie Of Us & Our Future Children
Skips & Sputters Over A Stand Up Projector
We Look Like Hippies
I Look Like My Mother
The Film Soundtrack Skips With The Pictures
It's Worn & Yellowing & Blurry
It's Not Real
It's Still Lovely

That When I Think Of You
Sometimes I Feel Nothing

It's All Very Up And Down
But We
Him And I
We're Pretty Resolute
To Stay Coool
Seriously Cool
About It All

It Been Hard To Not Give In
And See Each Other Every Dayyy
As You Do
When You're Crazy About Someone
And Horny As Fuck
But We're Being Good
So Good
And Cool
The Universe Is Conspiring With Us

It's All Very Lovelyyy

The End

Waaasted

So
A theme in my sex life
And in the sex lives of my friends
Over the last 6 months
Has been themes of dominant/submissive
And goddess/whore kinds of things

So
I'm thinking
To have a hot sex life
It's pretty important for both partners
To be open to taking turns
Being dominate and submissive

So
Male Domination
Can still be very female positive
Can still be very loving
Can still be very balanced in energy
Both are equal
Even with 'dominance'
A game

So
My latest lad
Loves it when I am submissive to him
Specifically during the actual 'sex'
After my party this weekend
We fucked for almost 4 hours
And his beautiful hands were on my clit
The whole time

Swooninggg
Swooninggg
Swooninggg

My domination
His submission
Will have to wait for another day

I Can't Get No...

I Sit In My Kitchen
The Sun Rising
Refrigerator Humming
I'm Wearing A Butter Yellow Sheet
It Smells Like You Me And Sex
I Never Want To Take It Off
I Never Want To Wash My Body
I Never Want To Sleep Again

I've Sooo
Got It Baaaddd
He Told Me So
And He Knows Me Sooo Well

I Probably Won't See Him Again
For A Few Days
Everyone's Sooo Busy
It's That Time Of Year

I'm In A Daze Sex Love Haze

I'm N Lust W Youuu

It's Crazy
How So Many Times
You Wish And Wish And Wish
For Something To Be True
For Someone To Be Thing
For Somewhere To Be Right
That You Are So Often Used To It Not Coming True
Thank God!
Or We'd All Have Been The Same People In High School
But
Really
Wishes
And
Hopes
And
Fantasies
They Do Come True
If You Let Go Of Control
Plant Your Seeds
And Walk Away

My Heart Was Heavy
For A Little While
Over A Boyyy
But
A New Lover
Has Come Into My Life
Quite By Surprise
I'm Absolutely Thrilled In Fact
It's Something Of Dreams

The Sex Is Alreadyyy
Well
Ridiculous
Auspicious
Deliccciousss
And
A Bit Funny
And
A Bit Messy
And
A Bit Dirtyyy
It's So Good

I Haven't Decided On His Name

Happy Girl

How sweet it is
To be a muse
Whether it be for art
For lust
For love

To be watched
With eyes of love & acceptance
Openness & safety
Curiousity & respect
You reveal all the more
Real
Red
Rawness

I'm floating on a cloud of smoke and sweat
And relishing in the rewards of strength
Of flow
Of acceptance
I asked you to 'mark my words'
And it has all come true

So mark them again
Come from a place of love
And miracles will occur

I see them every where

Crazy On Youuu

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They Just Keep Getting Better & Better & Better

Here is my Christmas wishhh
I want my Samurai here
Over the holidays
We're working on it
We're working on it
We're working on it
Please Universe!
Send us a cheap flight
Send us a airline worker he can bang into oxytocin oblivion
Send us a Xmas miracle

This feels sooo right
I won't push
I won't force
I won't give up
Because it will happen some day
Can you blame me
For wanting it?
For wanting him?
For wanting us?

Sooo hornyyy todayyy
Just want a lover to knock on my door
Craving touch
Craving cock
Craving searching hands
More than anything
Craving the knowing, the discovery, the lessons
That only come through a lover
I wanna pour sweetness, sweat and spit onto someone
I wanna drink, taste and soak up their love
I wanna eat, bathe and massage in their come
I want it all
All now
All over me

See, I'm Smiling

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Love
Love
Love Herrr

Tonight I have so much flitting around my mind and heart
I don't even know where to beginnn
And I want to stay bright and light
And I'm finding that a little tricky right now

I'm seeing the weeds in my soul garden
I'm seeing them
I'm seeing the patterns
And I'm happy for it

To keep it brighhht...
10 Things I Am Thankful From Todayyy:

1) Twitter...Seriously folks. It makes me so happy. I love the frequency of updating, of news, of friend's thoughts, of things I get turned on to...it's a wonderful thing

2) Time to myself. I need it every day

3) Alexander. He is my soulmate and my brother and sometimes I don't know what I'd do without him + his blog is great: http://wonderfuladventuresofnils.blogspot.com

4) Surprise money which supports my affirmation: My income is constantly increasing from surprising and fulfilling sources

5) My Ma. The BEST

6) World Aids Day...I love our global community. It won't be long now. We can longer ignore the suffering of others, we're all connected metaphysically, and the connections and our awareness of them are getting stronger...I feel it

7) Lovely sunshine and chilly wind

8) My friend, Cleopatra...Always BBMing me at the perfect moments...Her love shines all the way across a big, deep ocean

9) My chatty body. Feel so blessed to be so connected to it, we still don't always understand each other but we're almost there and I want to honour that day in and day out

10) Beauchamp. Such a crazy cycle of emotions surrounding the story of us...I have learned so much about myself in such a short amount of time...like our time together, it has been intense, deep and revealing to reflect on it all...I stand strong in my lesson learned and my self reinforced

Perspectivvve
Hindsight
Big Picture

When it all feels too much
I allow it to flow
And take a big step baaack

They Say: It Fits

A Lil Rough Sketch
http://sharlenawood.com

SOOO EXCITED BY THIS COLLABORATION
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

I'm so happy
Sharlena is sending me initial sketches
2nd versions
3rd version plans
Being a muse
Ahhh It's the life I was meant to lead
; )

I have one 'angry' thing to get off my chest

Beauchamp
You are a coward
You are not the man I thought you were
You are not the man you want to be
When I think about you I feel sad
For you
Living your life the way you are
In fear
In judgment
In monotony/monogamy

I suppose it's not fair to expect things
I know it's not 'fair' to expect things
But
When someone has so much promise
When someone has so much in their life pointing them in one direction
When someone has so much to offer themselves and the world
It's sooo
It's sooo
It's sooo
Disappointing
Annoying
Sad
When they don't live up to who they want to be
When they don't live up to who they aspire to be
When they don't live up to who they know they are meant to be

That's it

Good
Fucking
Riddance

My mother is here
My mother is ammmazing
My mother is perfect

What more can I say?

I am blessed!

It hasn't always been easy between us
It hasn't always been understanding between us
It hasn't always been free between us
But
I believe
Early on
We recognized each other as comrades
As soulmates
As friends
In this crazzzy journey of life
And I feel blessed
And I feel honoured
And I feel privileged
To be connected to her
To be known by her
To be loved by her

She is light

And if I could grow to be half the woman she is
Well
I'd be blessed
But
I appreciate and respect our mutual support relationship
We are comrades
I lay it on the line for her
And her respect for me and my opinions
Makes me love her all the more
Makes me want to be her all the more
Makes me want to love her all the more

I am blessed
In sooo many waysss
I don't even know where to begin

Blisssssssssed

Speechlesss

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This Is One Of The 1st Erotic Photos
I Sent Samurai

Subject:
This Little Sex Piggy...

Msg:
Rode Her Magic Wand
All The Way Home

He Said It Was The Best Homemade Erotic Photo He'd Ever Seen
Thank You Very Muuuch!

I'm looking forward to the holidays
Have the flat to myself for a month
GOD DAMN
I better have a lover or 2 to enjoy by then
Whyyy not

I'm looking forward to the time alone
Preparing for the new year
Preparing for a 'dramatic year'
Preparing my best self
Whyyy not

I'm looking forward to the morning of Xmas
When I wake up alone to a crisp bright morning
Toast myself with champers & a spliff
Maybe a 'Merry Xmas' wank to ring it all in
Whyyy not

Ode To Samurai

This Woman Is A Geniusss
http://sharlenawood.com
Beyyyond Love Her

Sent The Original Photo To Samurai
Subject:
It's Too Cold...

Msg:
To Be Too Naked
: x

So
Last time Samurai and I had a skype date
When were signing off
He said to me...Love You
OK

So
I have to admit
I didn't say 'Love You' back
And when we hung up
I was, like, woooah!
OK

So
Time passes and I think
Wait a goddamn minute
WHY DO WE MAKE
THAT PHRASE
THAT MOMENT
THAT EXPRESSION
So heavyyy
When it should be filled with love and light
OK

So
Last night he sent me a msg:

Happy Thanksgiving Future Lover
Thankful For You
-kiss

How could I NOT love this man?
How could I NOT tell this man?
How could I NOT let myself feel this love?
OK

I love this man!
I love this man!
I love this man!

And I told him so today
No big deal:
'I love you so much it's crazy' I said
It was so freeing
To have all this love without all the romance bullshit
The forever bullshit
The possession bullshit
Ohhh Samurai
You have changed my life

Short & Sexy & Sweet

I've always wanted to post erotic photos of myself on this blog
But as I wish to remain anonymous for now
(Or annonymous *hee hee hee*)
It's been a bit tricky
Sooo
VOILA!
I think I may have found my solution...ART!

SKETCHES!
PAINTINGS!
SCRIBBLES!

Artist: Sharlena Wood

I've done a lot of nude modeling over the years
This one is probably frrrom...2006
I've started sending erotic photos to this artist friend of mine
She's fabulousss with a capital FUCKING fabulous
http://sharlenawood.com
And I know she'll capture me in a flattering sexy and witty way

Sooo looking forward to sharing them with you
And meeting new artists who would be happy to do the same

Today was hard for me
Hard to stay in the light
Hard to stay positive
Hard to focus on the good

I have Alexander & Miss St Villier to keep me on track
I have many outlets
I have more blessings than I can count

But sometimes the dark side creeps in
over
through
And I need a release

It doesn't help that I haven't been able to masturbate
Since this whole Beauchamp business
It really rocked me
And I've found being the bigger person exhausting
rewarding
confusing

So tonight
Is my date night with me
And with that...

Good night!

Workin 9 - 5

Wow
Wow
Wow

In The Last 24 Hours
3
Yes
Yes
Yes
3 Virgos Have Come Into My Life
1 Brand New
2 Happy Surprises

When I Say 'Come Into My Life'
I Mean, Into My Life
And, Also, Back Into My Life
As 2 Are 'Old' Virgos...
They Have Entered My Reality
That's A Better Way Of Saying It

I See It
I Feel It
I Know It

Christopher Witecki Predicted
My Next Lover Would Be A Virgo

Now
Yes
I Have Samurai - Libra
I Had Beauchamp - Libra
But Neither One Is REALLY In My Life
Neither Is My Loverrr
Samurai Is Across The Ocean
Beauchamp Is Projecting Across That Same Ocean

Obviouslyyy
I'm Open To Whatever/Whoever/Whenever
But The Reading So Far Has Been Uncanny
And Sooo Valuable

I'm So Happyyy
Cause I've Heard & Read That Virgos Are Very Kinky
HALLELUJAH!
HALLELUJAH!
HALLELUJAHHH!

(I'm Related To Hallelujah Handel You Know
By Wayyy Of Scullery Maid
Go Fucking Figure
But It's Still In The Genes My Friendsss)

Anywhooo
Thrilled
Intrigued
Turned On

Shake-yyy Knees

Pic Is Not Me
Sorta Miss Big Tits
Not Reallyyy

Sent A Very Hot
If I Do Say So Myself
Photo Of Myself To Samurai

I Am Totally Naked
Standing On A Hotel Room Bed
(Weekend Getaway)
My Camera Is Aimed Into The Mirror
Capturing Sexy Naked Me
But Also Me As The Photographer
A Good Balance Of Energy

I Always Write A Little Poem
Sort Of
My Subject Line Starts The Poem
Then Usually Dot Dot Dot's
And With The Naughty Photo
The Rest Of The Poem

Now Sometimes It's Only A Few Words In Each
Other Times I Storm A Sexual Hurricane
The Racier The Photo
The Less I'll Put...Ususally

For This Photo It Read
To: Samurai
Subject: Hotel Rooms...
(Inside The Message
Above Mentioned Photo Attached)

Make Me Feel Naughtyyy
: x

Which They Do

To Which He Replied
Something Ridiculously Hot
Which I'd Love To Share
But Can't
Unless I Get His Permission
Before I've Finished This Entry

Gotta Show Respect Motha Fuckaaa

I've Asked Him In The Filthiest Way Possible
So I'm Sure He'll Say Yesss

But Bed Beckons
I'll Share Another Dayyy
Love & Light

Horny As Hell...What Else Is New?

Being Brief
Exhausted
Up Early To Get A Hand Up My Vagina
Ohhh
The Joys Of Being A Womaaannn

Weekend Away
Away From 'It All'
Away From The Day-To-Dayyy
Away From The Same

Fell A Little In Heart
With This Dude
At A Burlesque Show
His GF Had The Most Amazing Huge Natural Tits Everrr
She Wore Trousers, Suspenders And Pasties
He Wore Trousers, A Suit Jacket And Heart-Shaped, Black Sequin Nipple Tassles

I Wasss Swooning

He Was A Similar Type To Beauchamp
Not Remarkable, Esthetically
In Fact, Not 'Hot' At All
But With The Confidence, Openness & Dance Moves
That Turns That Whole Awkward Package Into A Delicious Treat
That Gets Me Goinggg
That Piques My Interest Like Nothing Else

I'd Rather Date/Fuck/Love
A Plain/Quirky Looking Guy With Sexy Swagger
Than A Sexy God With Nothing On The Brain
But Who Wouldn't?

I Also Hearted On The Husband Of The Fire Breather
He Was Covered In Tattoos & Piercings
He Kissed Me Right Next To My Mouth
His Full Lips Just Overlapping Mine
His Heavily Tattooed, Pierced, Burnt Wife Inches Away

This Is How I Imagine You
He Said
Receiving Kisses 90% Of The Day...

I Was Giggling Like A School Girl
Like A Horny Teenager
Like A Fake Virgin On Her Mormon Wedding Night
I Hoped She Would Like Me Too
I'd Love To Be Invited Into THAT Sex Circus

I, Too, Imagine Myself
Receiving Non-Stop Kisses All Day
I Waaant It
I Waaant It Bad
I Waaant It Now

The Time Is Drawing Nearer
My 2nd Chakra Is Bouncing
I Physically Feel It Pulsing
As Opposed To Only Sensing A Spiritual Intention
It's Sending My Sexiest Nastiest Rawest Sex Wishes Into The World
A Small Shudder
Between My Belly Button And My Mound
My Sex Chakra Sonar
It's Strong Willed
It's Precise
It's Urgent

So
Much
Fun
So
Much
Fucking
So
Much
Freakiness

Sssiiighhh

Exhale
Huge sigh of relief
The internet gods have smiled upon us
I am connected once again

Mmm It feels sooo good

What a difference a few hours make
What a difference a little play makes
What a difference a little love can bring

I am so blessed I don't even know where to begin

Thank you
Thank you
Thank you

Wise Up

SssOooBbb
I am nothing without the interrrneeet

Not true
...
Half true
...
Some true
...

Needing this blog
My mental and spiritual sanctuary
To straighten my thoughts
To open my heart
To write sexy sexy sexy erotica
Something for everyone people!

Right now
My heart is saying:
BRAVO!
My head is saying:
Ouch
My soul is saying:
Soon

My ego howeverrr
She is a bit angry today
I'm still working to stay in the light
It's not easy when you're tired
I'm still working to stay the bigger person
It's not easy when you feel used
I'm still working to open wide
It's not easy when you're afraid

After a deep sleep
I'll be back again
Wide open and blazing my heart to the world
Today I need time to cuddle and hold myself
Today I need space
Today I need a little miracle

Picturing a 5 year old me
It's hard to be mean to her
We're all 5 year olds inside
That makes life easier

When Will My Reflection Show

How to describe today...
Joyous
Aggressive
Spaced-the-fuck-out

Phenomenal tarot reading with Alexander
I am well
I am loved
I am fine

I'm feeling like...
The calm before the storm
But I'm facing the storm
The world
The love
As a whole person now
Not complete
Just whole
Just grounded
Just loving

Most everyone around me
Is fucking love crazzzy
Like actually crazy
I feel like I'm meeting people from another planet
It makes me uncomfortable
It makes me curious
It makes me question myself

I don't know if I believe in love
That 'movie' love
Well I know it's around
But I don't know if it's for me
And I wonder if that makes a lonely life for me

Because I'm 'unattainable'
HE said it
Not me
'You had me, you have me' I said
But I'm unattainable because I don't want to settle
Settle
OR
Settle down

Maybe I'm starting to worry and wonder
Have a chosen a lonely life for myself?
Cause I thought I'd chosen a SEXY LOVE FILLED LIFE for myself

Here's my thing
I've loooved
I've poured my love into another
I've opened myself in every way
But I've never received that level back
I've never experienced the two way street
I've grown skeptical
Everyone I'm seeing around me
Who is 'in love'
That crazy singing opera in French while people are boarding planes
Is miserable
Is watching the love crumble around them
Is holding on for dear life

Are they holding on to an illusion?
Or do they just know something I don't?
Maybe the agony is just too sweet

I get it
I know it
I feel it

But...
I'm still not sold
I'm still not sure
I'm still not a believer

Wouldn't It Be Niiice

Wowww
This is my life

Beauchamp told me he was falling in love with me
Uh ohhh I thought
That night it was over

Feels over before it began
But it was intense and enveloping and expansive
Cause
That's my life

Beauchamp was a surprise
Not my type on the exterior
Though he was tall and healthy and has warm eyes
But he was lots of things I look for
In heart and mind and soul

Feeling a bit angry right now
But 4 on the 1 - 10 scale of angry
And a bit used
But that's the ego talking

Beauchamp has a lovely saying
Only sleep with people you want to be
Flattered
Stealing that

Feeling a bit silly
For not listening to my head
But when the heart says YES
I guess you should go for it

Beauchamp will be back
But I don't know if I'll let him in
Not in the same way
We shall see

Feeling happy now
Cause I've written this all down
Wondering what the next gentleman will be like
What he will taste and smell and sound like

Out with the old and in with the new
It's all happening so fast
But I wouldn't have it any other way

OooHhhHhh

Oh
The Agony
Of Love And Lust And Whatnot

I Feel Immune
Almost
I Feel It
But See It
For The Bigger Picture
I Don't Fret

Don't Fret My Love
You Will B Mine
I Know You Will
You Will Know It
Soon

Weeks From Now
I Will Look On This And Laugh

Everything Old Is New Again

VII Of Cupsss

Such A Big Radiant Full Moon
Hope You've Crossed Your 'T's'
And Fucked Your Wives

Get It Together
Before The Universe
MAKES You Get It Together

Happy Nooovember!

Gossshhh
I am so happy to be back
I heart this blog
Big timmme

I'll be brief
As it's late
And I'm drunk on fall air and friends and fantastic Sunday dinner

I see myself in London
In the changing of the city, the season and the peoples
I don't separate myself from that
I see it as a greater pattern of myself, my life and my perception
I adore London
I adore the city
I adore the dirty, chic, chaos of it all
And I embrace
I think that is why I have flourished and continue to flourish

There's a middle ground
Between letting yourself go and holding yourself back

There's a middle ground
Between the man of your dreams and the men which you deplore

There's a middle ground
Between knowing yourself and discovering yourself

It is a city of history
Of the greatest creative minds
Of fashion and food and sights and sex and fun and anger and acceptance and hatred
I felt/experienced/known all these sides
And I love this city all the more

It is a temperamental city
Arthritic and fabulous
Youthful and dangerous
Complicated and easy-peasy-lemon-squeezey

It is a macrocosm of your life
You hate the people? You must hate that in yourself
You hate the traffic? What peace do you lack
You hate the weather? What countless gifts/opportunities are you overlooking

Bring it all back to you
And be honest with yourself
You're the one you have to answer to
Don't pretend like it's the rest of us
Come back to us
When you've taken a minute
To get over yourself

Missing Beauchamp
But thankful for time apart
After a hot and heavy time
It's nice to reflect
And if you're him: repair
As I sent him off to NYC with a bruised&swollen lip, a cracked rip, several bite marks and a few hickeys
.........
What can I say?
I'm making up for lost time
The flood gates have opened
And he should count himself luckyyy
; )

Good night dear readers
Come back to me soon
It's sooo niiice to be baaack

Hope You Marked My Wordsss...

Hello Friends
I have the internet and I am BACK!
Yesss
Sooo happyyy

For those who didn't read my last post
I have to say...read it, cause I'm a mother fucking psychic
Hahaha
On the eve/early morning of the 2nd day of my 25th
I happened to fall into the loving and passionate arms of my gentleman du jour
His name is: Beauchamp
And I am in heart with him
In mega heart

We spent the last 5 days exploring each others past
And bodies
And hearts
And I'm feeling a love like I've never known before

My time of celibacy is overrr
Well overrr
And I'm making up for time spent alone

But OMG
Am I happy
Am I so happy that I took that time alone
I know myself
I know my past
I know my path
And it's already set me out to meeting an equal

Beauchamp is...
The kindest
The gentlest
The warmest
The eroticest
The generousest
Man I've ever had the pleasure to adore
And it is a pleasure to adore him
An absolute pleasure

I'm tired
And half wasted
And missing him in my bed
So I will be brief

But all I can say friends:
Is follow your heart, when it's head that rules you
Is follow your fears, when it's heart that rules you
It is so not worth doing anything half
It is so not worth doing anything for him/her and not you
It is so not worth doing any of your lying to you or me anymore

Grow into yourself
Be brave and honour yourself
Allow you to be revealed to yourself
: x
More soon
I've missed you sooo

OCTOBER UPDATE

Have just gone through a crazy month
Of moving
Of transition
Of de/incisions

I remain without internet
*sniff sniff sniff*
Apologies dear friends!
I'll be back to you ASAP

I feel like I will want to be writing
Reflecting on all the new love, lovers and loveliness in my life
And I can tell you
Mark my words
Things are going to be getting sexy
Very soon
Perhaps I'll be too hopped up on oxytocin to tell the tale
I'll make time for you and for me

That's the deal
That's how it will all work
That's all she wrote

Oh...
And...
I turn 25 in 3 days
3
Get ready for a riot

This Is A Gift

Camped out at Rockwell's
Is that the right grammar?
If it is the house belonging to Rockwell
Is It Rockwells
Or
Is It Rockwell's
Sad that I don't know that
But I'm not ashamed to admit that
How else can you learn

Have decided to start
Expanding my vocabulary
My knowledge of culture
My exposure to literature
By starting to read some 'classics'
Have started with The Picture Of Dorian Gray
By Oscar Wilde
I am enjoying immensely
But require a dictionary on my Blackberry
Or a pocket one...
Or to not read on the tube
Whatever
I'm enjoying it
Mr Wilde is witty, observant and brutally honest
I would have loved to be the hag
To his fag

Alexander hanging laundry in his designer underwear
'It's going to be really hard not to fuck you, if you get any hotter...I'm just warning you'
It's true
Being around a half naked toned gorgeous kind man
When all you want is cock quads and sweat
Is challenging
Though in reality
If his face went any where near my cunt
I wouldn't be able to stop laughing
Don't get me wrong
He's gorgeous...As I've said
But
He's actually the opposite of my type
I can't get over it
He's so not not not my type
Thank gggoooddd

I am trusting the process of life
I am trusting my great manifestation work
I am trusting my love for myself
I won't even mention the current 'worries'
For they are not even on my radar
I move with ease through the transition of life
I am so thankful to experience a new community
All is well in my world

The Sun, The Moon

Since my reading with Christopher Witecki
I am reminded
Over and over and over
By the people I meet
By the stories I hear
By the actions of others
That this is my life
My one life
In this body
With this set of experiences
And I must live this life for me

Too many people answering to others
Too many people sacrificing their heartsong for others
Too many people getting lost in other peoples egos
I see it
As a little nudge
As a little eternal string around my finger
As a little reminder to me
To live my life for me my way
And to remind others to do the same

I finally feel ready
To swoon again
To open again
To share again
To be kissed and cuddled and adored again
I want so many flowers
I want long talks before long fucks
I want to memorize someone's face, back and hands
I am surrounded by gorgeous, lovely & sexy men
Alexander
Rockwell
Samurai
Horus (sometimes hahaha)
Etc Etc Etc
I meet new ones everyday
And I recognize new ones already in my life everyday

I adore m-e-n

And I have a little crush
On a little lady
Though I can be quite a vain creature
Tell me I'm beautiful and I just might fall in love with you
She impressed me
She was sharp & witty & kind
I adore w-o-m-e-n too

So many options
So much time
So much love

B & B (Blissed & Blessed)

Surrounded by blessings
Surrounded by joys
Surrounded by friends
Surrounded by creativity
Surrounded by abundance
Surrounded by love & light

And
Surrounded by soft warm linens and bedding
Blessed
Beyond
Beyond Blessed

Wonderful Womb

So fucking ready
For things to get moving
Seriouslyyy

Last night
To have been a fly on the wall
For the most ridiculous sight
Me
Sobbing
Because my vibrator takes AAA's
And I bought AA
Sobbing
Because I could not come
And all I needed was for that thing to last 30 more seconds
Sobbing
Because I'm sick and tired of masturbating
And I need to be touched all over by some beautiful hands

I would be happy to masturbate only forever
If there was some lovely next to me
Whispering dirty hot little nothings
And tracing a finger along my trembling self

I know it's coming
I know they're coming
I know I'll be coming
BUT
I
FUCKING
WANT
IT
NNNOOOWWW

I want everything now now now

I have so much frustration directed towards Samurai
I don't think he knows
Or he's ignoring it like a gentleman
Because he's not the cause
He's just there
But I'm frustrated because I feel unwanted
I'm starting to feel like another one on the list
I know this is silly
I know this is not true
I knnnooowww
I'm 1000's of miles away
I'm just bored
I'm needing new blood/cock

Nervous
Going to the Dr tomorrow
To get a needle in my vag
Cervix dilated
IUD put in place
Totally worth the lack of additional hormones swimming around in my body
From pills or patches or rings
But it doesn't mean I'm not nervous
It'll be over so fast
By tomorrow night I'll forget

Time to focus
To visualize a very peaceful vulva
A gentle, kind and precise Dr
Happy, healthy & responsive womb

Marry Me John

Quickly
Quickly
Quickly
Because I must rest

Today
I am recognizing patterns
I'm embracing the devil card
I need to get busy
FAST

I rarely remember my whole dream
Just snippets of each one
Intense and cryptic

Last night I fucked this ripped, tattooed gay man
The position
I believe
Is actually physically impossible
...Wait
Maybe he was in my ass
Ohhh!
EUREKA!
HA
If that's the case
I don't know that it was safe to be having anal
This rough and crazy
Him
Back against the wall
Legs bent to just above a 90 degree angle
I was perched on him
Feet on his muscly quads
Mmmm Muscly quads make me weak in the knees
Where was I?
Anyway
We were fucking like it was going out of style
He had tattoos
I don't remember the room
I don't remember his face
I don't remember really seeing myself
Just how hard it was
And raw
And masculine

Fuck
Gotta sleep
Bring on the dreams!

Doggg Daysss Are Overrr

Not sure I agree with the man
But I understand the sentiment
Seems to be typical of my day in and day out lately

Just as I felt things slipping from my hands
I learn to let all things go
And some things stay
And some things go
The right things stay
And the not-so-right things go

I'm falling asleep

All I know
Is
That everything and everyone
Comes into your life
For a reason
And it's important to understand, on a heart level
What those things mean
Though it may be hard
Though I may not understand
Though I may not want things to go or come in
Every time I make that connection
And I understand that little more about myself
The more I love me and this world
The more I think it loving and divine
The more I know it's all intelligent and kind

No one said it was easy
But it's worth it
And I am thrilled
Day after day after day

Don't Go Changin'

I'm trying to hold on
To something that's slipping from my fingers
There will be others
There will be others
There will be others
Bigger
Stronger
More Attentive Lovers

He is not not attentive
He is somewhere else
He is busy
What can you ask of someone you hardly know?

Choose me
Choose me
Choose me

I don't even know if I want him anymore
(Obviously, I do)
But I don't burn for him any more
I don't long as deeply
And I don't see him in the street

It feels a bit sad
When your feelings change
The letting go
It's deep and it starts the tears
Even when you know there's no reason to shed any

And I'm bored
And I'm beginning to see the cracks
And I'm here and he's not

Plain and simple
And yet the tears are ready to spring into action

I am comforted
Knowing
That I'm making space for many gods
I am the goddess
Clearing out my heaven
For 1 or 5 or 10 lucky ones

As a child
I made friends with tree stumps
There were 3
But I only remember 2
Well, I only remember the names of 2
Olivia and Gerard
Gerard because my dad had a very fat co-worker
And this stump was very large
Olivia because I thought it was the most beautiful name
And this stump got lots of sunshine and was petite
I wish I could remember
All the things I told them

Hiding Awayyy From Uranus

Ms Westwood



Oooyyyeee
It has been such a challenging week
Thus far
I'm trying to make tonight
Not so challenging
By hiding away
With faggots & fags & gin
Plus chocolate & grass & grease

So angry with Alex
Because I'm angry at myself
I wanted to ask him to stay
I wanted him to know to stay
And I wasn't brave enough
To ask him to stay
To ask anyone
Cause I don't know how to do that
I don't know how to say
Stay here
I need you
I'm learning
But I''m not sure how to say it
Without years of judgment piling in my head

Am I making myself clear?

I am so horny right now
But so unwilling to budge
Off my perfect one
And why should I budge?

So many cute guys in my life
But most gay
Another portion of boys in my life
Not yet to scratch
Or i'd be fucking them, rather than typing
These need a little self esteem boost
Or a self discipline boost
Or a self love boost
One and the same, really
But I'm not willing to really invest in any one boy at the moment
I'm working on my own boost
Then
There is that final percentage
The guys I see, here and there, who make my heart & head race
Or in the same group
The future lovers already in my life
I'm learning
I'm preparing
I'm almost there
Almost

But the thirst is growing stronger
And the lines between now and then
Are blurring
I walk down one of the busiest streets in the world
And my body walks
While my mind body is filled with come over and over
And I am haunted
And I am entranced
My physicality is crossing over
And I moan out loud sometimes
Sometimes I do
And I go unnoticed
These are the times that I am happy to go unnoticed
One of the few times

I am ready to be treated like a queen
As Chris has told me
I need to be treated
I agree and I'm ready
More than ready
Not sure how to expect
I guess
I better not expect it
Or anyone
Or anything
Just trust

0 Degrees Virgo

The dust has settled
And my mind has cleared
I am feeling this new Virgo wind
And it's exciting

The fall the fall the fall
The colours, the smells
My birthday
Thanksgiving
Hallowe'en
New warm and rich
Scents, foods and clothes

I feel like I've bounced back
Been shaken up
Awaken and rejuvenated
I've been reminded
I am a spit fire girl
I am the officer of the zodiac
I am

My natal reading was a cutting
Of cords to my past and my ego
I care what people think too much
I no longer need that judgment
That second guessing
That doubt
Though I'm not ready to reveal my anonymous self
I will be
Someday
And it will more glorious and sexy than I can imagine

In the meantime
I'm not taking bullshit
I'm not walking on eggshells because my energy bristles you
I'm not toning myself down
I have
I have done this
Systematically over the last 10 - 15 years
So gradually I hardly noticed
So much of myself pushed down deep

'People will feel uncomfortable around you
Because you are a laser beam for bullshit
And if people aren't honest or living to their potential
You will know it, they will know it and they will know you know it
And they will be uncomfortable
But this frees you to only be surround by those of purest love and light'
Paraphrasing
From my reading

This I have always felt
The uncomfortableness of people in my presence
And I have blamed
And shamed
And punished myself for it
So freeing to see it in a different light
Now I know
It's a beacon
To draw the right people in
And to repel those who aren't ready

SO MANY THINGS FROM THIS READING
I'll be talking about it for weeks

For now
I must sleep
Rest this happy body, mind and heart

My 112th Entry

Feeling a bit titter totter-y right now
Happy
Sad
Elated
Miserable

Had an amazing natal reading with Christopher Witecki
Of www.soulgarden.tv
Highly recommend it ya'll

It was last week
A week as of last night
Last night when I got some unsettling news
Samurai
Sent me a beautiful love letter
With the intention of letting me down gently
Because he may soon be taking on a primary partner
Who isn't ready for sharing
Unless she's partaking
Fair enough
I'm not angry
I'm not hurt
I'm not jealous
I'm not confused

I am just letting go

He was going to be my first
My Samurai

But he has been another first
Proof
Hard beautiful evidence
That the type of male
I dreamt of
I prayed for
I deserve
Does live on this earth
In this lifetime
And I want to meet them all

It's not over
It's not final
It's possible
And I don't want to kid myself

And mark my words
Our sexual tsunami is happening
Eventually, in this lifetime
Now, in another time and space

Friday July 24th

I have not stopped
Since last Thursday
A weekend in the country
Has kicked off a week of partying
Not that I'm complaining

The weekend was fab
The pills were weak
I'll try them again
Diff vibe
Diff pills
Diff time
But I mostly had the effect of: vivid memories

Strong early sexual memories mostly
Things that I needed to remember and let go
It was a very interesting experience
The weekend was cathartic
The weather was moody and fabulous
The boys are the best

So this week it's been booze, weed and some coke
Mostly booze
But walking up and down and all around Ltown
Has helped me balance the many calories
The week isn't over
I have a little party on tomorrow evening too
Should be fun

I'll be back soon
To open my tired mind and thumping heart
: x

Interlude

I'll be brief
Just because
Because I've been up late
Partying
Night after night after night

More on the weekend in the country
More on the pills
More on the journey
Soon
Soon
Soon
Tomorrow
: x

Life has been grand
As she always is
Sweet, kind, demonstrative and understanding
Tomorrow
....

A Weekend In The Country

Has it really been a week?!
I have been processing
Yet again
Is anyone else feeling this a bit
It's like...the normal cycles I observe and honour in my life
I think of it as walking a circular pattern
Times of high and low, etc
So
This is normal and I embrace this
But time has sped up so much
Literally
Cycles and changes that would normally take months
Take weeks or a week
I feel like every week I'm having days of: I am seriously a gorgeous sexy intelligent woman and I got gooood things comin' to me
And then in the same week I'll have feelings of: I will never be successful in my career and men are so disappointing.
I'm feeling very Scorpio with all this bi-polar emotional energy
Don't get me wrong
I am well, my friends
But I work towards a life where thoughts of deprecation and doubt
No longer come
And, if and when they do, they pass through me with ease

I must ask Samurai the name of the dark beads he was wearing during our last e-fuck
They were for anxiety
Almost like a vaccine for the anxiety virus
Which seeps, creeps, floats through our Western lives
We are accustomed but stressed!

Speaking of vaccines
I am saying for the record
This swine flu thing is ridiculous
We are not buying into the fear
We are not buying into the authority
We are not buying into the vaccine

Here is an expose on swine flu: http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2009/07/16/Major-Expose-on-Swine-Flu-by-60-Minutes.aspx

Recommended by: Samurai
Get the vaccine if you want
But all I'm saying is...
Do your research...Don't let fear control your decisions

Had a great night out with Alexander
George's Dragon
Cocomo
Zigfried Von Underbelly
I'm getting out there
I'm putting myself out there
I am safe

I am spending the next few days in the country
Lahhh Deee Dahhh
A few days away with Alexander and Rockwell
We may do pills
I will discuss

Closer

Finally found an evening to myself
To watch Mike Nicholas' CLOSER
Wow
Wow
Wow
I must read the play
I must see the play
I must be in that play
Films like that
Scripts, performances, direction like that
Are so inspirational
Honest
Raw
Touching
Terrifying
Make me miss acting
I miss acting
I would like to do a show
I'm ready to do a show

Back to CLOSER
Such a sexy cast too
Charged
Fucking Julia Roberts
O-M-G
I looove her
Clive Owen, please fuck me
Jude Law, join us, my ass is yours
Natalie Portman, you can read us erotica

July Looove

Mmm Hello Blog
I've missed you
But
I've been on a bit of a journey
And I've come back to you
I feel changeddd

Don't get me wrong
I'm still a sex crazed chronic
But I've worked out a balance
With more sun, fruit, veg, sweat and honesty
Sooo
No CAPS lock today

And time to get back to the bloggg
More regularly
Got some great new erotica brewing in this here mind
Share soon!
: x

I Think I'm In Love With My Radio...

I was walking along the sunny canal
Feeling my goddess energy
Radiating health, sex and love

I see a man approaching me on a bike
He is what I imagine MJ would look like
If he was never famous
If he was still black and unaltered
If he was still alive
Rough But Symetrical Face
Ripped Lean Body

I can see him looking at me
But not staring or ogling
So I keep the pleasant expression fixed on my face
Breathe
And remind myself to be present

His face is almost out of my view
As he coasts past me
And I hear him
Almost under his breath
But it carries
Because he has one of those growly, dark voices

And this all happened in the matter of 3 - 5 seconds

He says 'Nice Tits'
It was such a strong sexual moment
His words hit me with such force
My breath was caught

Then...
I immediately felt the blood rush to my clit
And my lips, both sets, flush
A smile spread across my face

This is the wonder of fantasy life
The fantasies you can only have and love in your mind

The next 10 or so minutes of my walk
Were devoted to what would've happen in my sex dimension
The alternate reality I live in
Where all interaction happens through sex

He would pass me on his bike
'Nice Tits' he'd spit
Before he grabbed me by my hair
And slammed me against cold, soft steel bars
No unwanted pain in fantasy

People on bikes, on walks
Pass us casually
As his mouth devours my cunt
As his cocoa cock fucks me
As his dirty hands move from my clit to my mouth

No condom
No lube
No kissing

I would stumble home
Legs still vibrating
My thighs wet with sweat and a strangers come
Smiling

Mmmmmmmmondayyy

In the meantime
My search for a playmate continues
I'm finding men are more responsive to me
When I wear less makeup and hair
It's interesting!

Plus 'No Makeup Summer' is for me
Any unexpected reaction is a bonus
It's nice to feel like people are seeing the real 'me'
And it makes me realize how much makeup changes my face
How it changes symetry, shapes, perception

Life is moving rapidly
Gotta shake off this dusty 'me'
Nothing a little...sun
fruit
mediation
orgasm
writing
photography
flowers
...can't take care of

I'm debating sharing photos on this blog
Would be anonymous still
What do my lovely readers think?

You Say I'm Crazzzyyy

I AM READY
FOR THE NEXT LOVERS
BRING ON THE NEXT CHALLENGERS
TRUMPETS - DUN DUN DUN NAHHH!

SAMURAI IS STILL AROUND
HORUS IS NO LONGER ALLOWED
I NEED TANGIBLE OPTIONS
LAST NIGHT
ROCKWELL HELD ME IN HIS ARMS
AND ROCKED ME A LITTLE
IT WAS A HARD WEEK FOR BOTH OF US
A HARD DAY
HE WAS WEARING NO SHIRT
AND THE FEELING
OF A MAN HOLDING ME
A MAN TOUCHING MY SKIN
THE SMELL OF A MAN
IT MADE ME MISERABLE
AND IN LOVE
ALL AT THE SAME TIME

I AM READY
TO EMBRACE
TRULY
THAT I AM A BEAUTIFUL SEXY WOMAN
THAT BEAUTIFUL SEXY MEN
WILL WANT TO BE WITH
I GET IT
I'M INTIMIDATING
I'M SCRAPING 5' 9''
CURVYYY
BIG BLONDE HAIR
MY FACE...WELL...IT SAYS 'MODEL' ON MY BUSINESS CARD
; )
I'M OPINIONATED, INTELLIGENT, CONFIDENT AND GUTSY
I'M FUNNY, DITSY, INNOCENT AND WISE
BUT
THE MEN
AND WOMEN
I AM BRINGING IN MY LIFE
DRAWING INTO MY CIRCLES
IT'S ENCOURAGING
BUT
I DON'T WANT TO STOP NOW
I DON'T WANT TO SLOW DOWN
I AM PICKING UP SPEED
I AM MAKING IT OVER THIS HILL
I AM READY

ROCKWELL
ALEXANDER
SAMURAI (I GUESS...)
SO MANY MORE CUTE GUYS
ON BUSES, IN SHOPS, MY NEIGHBOURHOOD
I HAVE TO BE HONEST
THOUGH I MAY SOUND LIKE A SNOB
I DON'T SEE MANY MEN
ON A DAILY BASIS
THAT I AM MOTIVATED TO TALK TO
BASED, SOLELY, ON HOW THEY LOOK
THERE
I SAID IT
I CARE WHAT PEOPLE LOOK LIKE
I CARE WHAT I LOOK LIKE
I LOOK GOOD
AND I AM WORKING ON LOOKING BETTER
I WANT SOMEONE WHO IS PUTTING IN THE SAME EFFORTS
CAUSE I DESERVE SOMEONE AS HOT AS ME DAMN IT
BUT
GOOD NEWS!
I HAAAVE BEEN SEEING MORE BOYS LATELY
IN FACT
QUITE A FEW BOYS
WHERE HAVE THEY BEEN HIDING?
AS IF I DIDN'T KNOW

THE ANGELS ARE LAUGHING
'TOLD YOU SO' THEY SAY

I AM FEELING UNBALANCED
YET I AM FEELING SO SURE

AS A PRESENT, FOR SOME FUTURE LOVERS
I HAVE BEEN TAKING SOME MORE..
HHHMMM
SHALL WE SAY...RACY PHOTOS OF MYSELF
TBH
I WOULD SAY
MOST ARE VERGING OR ARE EROTICA
WHAT BETTER GIFT FOR A LOVER?
THAN A PHOTO OF YOU
ABOUT TO COME?
OR
MASTURBATING THINKING ABOUT THEM?
OR
YOUR NAKED WRITHING BODY?
SERIOUSLY
PLEASE TELL ME A HOTTER GESTURE
I DARE YOU

I HAVE TO ADMIT
I SENT SOME VERRRYYY SEXY PHOTOS OF MYSELF THIS WEEK
AND SOMETIMES I WAS A LITTLE DISAPPOINTED
I SUPPOSE IT COMES WITH THE TERRITORY
I TALK ABOUT ALL THIS
LIKE IT'S NO BIG DEAL
BUT
I GET NERVOUS
AND I AM CONSTANTLY PLUGGING HOLES
IN THE SELF ESTEEM BUCKET
AS MY READERS KNOW
HAHAHA
SO I FEEL VULNERABLE
WHEN I SEND OUT MY PHOTOS
AND I JUST NEED TO KNOW THAT I LOVE THEM
THAT I AM TURNED ON BY MY OWN PHOTOS
AND ANYONE WITH THE KIND OF TASTE AND MIND AND SOUL
THAT I WANT IN MY LIFE
WILL RESPOND TO THEM IN A WAY THAT SATISFIES ME

I'M LOVING MORE PHOTOGRAPHY IN MY LIFE
IT MAKES ME A HAPPY GIRL

Seemed To Have A Mentalist Sort Of Aura

CAN'T STAY LONG
LISTENING TO A TERRENCE MCKENNA LECTURE
'UNDERSTANDING AND IMAGINATION IN THE LIGHT OF NATURE'

HEAVY
HEAVY
HEAVY
MAY REQUIRE A 2ND LISTEN
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FXBSJDyeh64&feature=channel_page


THIS FENG SHUI PROJECT
IS ALREADY CHANGING MY LIFE
I AM FEELING STRONG
BRING ON A SEXY, HOT, COLOURFUL, CULTURAL, GLASS HOUSE, SMOKEY, CHAMPAGNE POPPING, RAW FUCKING, LIGHT BURSTING SUMMER

Happy 101st Anniversary Baby

2 DAYS SPENT
BUZZING ON CHAMPAGNE, ESPRESSO AND GRASS
TAKING IN
SOAKING IN
DREAMING IN
A GLORIOUS HOUSE IN N. LONDON

A CONSTANT FLOW OF CHAMPAGNE
OF THC
OF LAUGHTER
THE KITCHEN BUSTLING WITH COOKING
WITH FLASHBULBS
WITH BALLROOM DANCING
THE LOUNGE SMELLING OF LEATHER
OF SMOKE
OF DREAMS

ROLF IS A SOULMATE
ROLF IS A FRIENDSHIP FROM THE STARS
ROLF IS A DREAMBOAT

2 DAYS SPENT BASKING
THE ONE THING MISSING?
A LITTLE BIT OF ASS WOULDN'T HURT A GIRL
IN FACT
THIS GIRL IS HURTIN, FOR A LITTLE HURTIN

TODAY
ANOTHER INDULGENT EVENING WITH ROLF
GIN, GRASS AND GREASE
FUELED OUR FENG SHUI
MY LIFE IS BEING TRANSFORMED
SIMPLY BECAUSE I MOVE A BOOK SHELF
IT'S TRUE
I CAN FEEL IT
PLUS
I RECEIVED A LITTLE MESSAGE THE OTHER DAY
I WILL BE MOVING
SOONER THAN I THINK, PERHAPS
AND
IT WILL BE A VERY EXCITING AND HAPPY MOVE
JOY JOY JOY
: )

2 DAYS SPENT SEALED AWAY WITH 3 HALF NAKED CUTIES
ABSORBING THE TESTOSTERONE
MY MIND WAS RAMPANT
(BUT WHAT ELSE IS NEW?)
I WANT TO FUCK ALL OVER THIS HOUSE
SO MANY SURFACES
SO MANY ANGLES
SO MANY LIGHTING OPTIONS
HAHAHA
THE POSSIBILITIES FOR EROTIC ESCAPADES
IS ENDLESS MY FRIENDS
TO FUCK ON A STAINLESS STEEL COUNTER TOP
UNDERNEATH AN ENORMOUS OPEN SKYLIGHT
WITH A LARGE PLASMA TV FILMING/PROJECTING YOU OVER CCTV
SO
YOU FUCK
ON THIS COUNTER
UNDER THE STARS
AND
CAN WATCH YOURSELF
FUCK
ON THIS COUNTER
UNDER THE STARS
ABSOLUTE FUCKING GENIUS

EVERY SINGLE SHOWER/BATH
HAS A TV
YUP
SO YOU CAN WATCH PORN
WHILE YOU FUCK IN THE SHOWER
OR
WATCH THE PEOPLE FUCKING ON THE COUNTER
UNDER THE STARS
FUCK
WHILE YOU FUCK IN THE SHOWER

SERIOUSLY
ENDLESS EROTIC ESCAPADES