The dust has settled
And my mind has cleared
I am feeling this new Virgo wind
And it's exciting
The fall the fall the fall
The colours, the smells
My birthday
Thanksgiving
Hallowe'en
New warm and rich
Scents, foods and clothes
I feel like I've bounced back
Been shaken up
Awaken and rejuvenated
I've been reminded
I am a spit fire girl
I am the officer of the zodiac
I am
My natal reading was a cutting
Of cords to my past and my ego
I care what people think too much
I no longer need that judgment
That second guessing
That doubt
Though I'm not ready to reveal my anonymous self
I will be
Someday
And it will more glorious and sexy than I can imagine
In the meantime
I'm not taking bullshit
I'm not walking on eggshells because my energy bristles you
I'm not toning myself down
I have
I have done this
Systematically over the last 10 - 15 years
So gradually I hardly noticed
So much of myself pushed down deep
'People will feel uncomfortable around you
Because you are a laser beam for bullshit
And if people aren't honest or living to their potential
You will know it, they will know it and they will know you know it
And they will be uncomfortable
But this frees you to only be surround by those of purest love and light'
Paraphrasing
From my reading
This I have always felt
The uncomfortableness of people in my presence
And I have blamed
And shamed
And punished myself for it
So freeing to see it in a different light
Now I know
It's a beacon
To draw the right people in
And to repel those who aren't ready
SO MANY THINGS FROM THIS READING
I'll be talking about it for weeks
For now
I must sleep
Rest this happy body, mind and heart
