So I Just Wanna...

I don't give a fuck no more
If people think I am a whore
I just wanna dance
Oh, I just wanna dance
Things are going bad for me
I am feeling sad for me
So I just wanna dance
Oh, I just wanna dance

I'm tired of laughing and I'm tired of crying,
I'm tired of failing and I'm tired of all this trying,
I wanna do some living
Cause I've done enough dying
I just wanna dance
I just wanna fucking dance

Dance, oh dance. Dance.

[Tired of laughing
And she's tired of crying
She's tired of failing
And she's tired of all this trying
She wants to do some living
Cause she's done enough dying
She just wants to dance
She just wants to fucking dance]

Dance

She just wants to fucking dance
Dance
She just wants to fucking

INTERCHANGE DANCE WITH FUCK
ON EVERY OTHER DAY OF THE WEEK
THEN PLAY THIS ON REPEAT
TILL I DIE

End of Mayyy

TWILIGHT
THE BOOK AND THE TIME OF DAY
THEY MAKE ME ROMANTIC
THEY MAKE ME NAIVE
THEY MAE ME SUGGESTIBLE
I CAN'T BE TRUSTED
AT CERTAIN TIME OF DAY
AND IN CERTAIN CIRCLES
I CRUMBLE
AND
GIVE IN
TO LOVE
TO SEX
TO ROMANCE
I EMBRACE AND RELEASE
AND I COULD FUCK ANYONE
WOULD BE BRAVE ENOUGH
AND IT'S STILL NOT ENOUGH
I STILL END UP ALONE
BURNING UNDER MY DUVET

I TRUST
I TRUST IN
I TRUST IN THE UNIVERSE
I TRUST IN THE TIMING
I TRUST IN THE DECISIONS
I TRUST IN THE JOURNEY
THERE IS NO OTHER WAY
TO MAKE SENSE OF THIS SILLY WORLD
I ATTRACT MY REFLECTION
THEREFORE
I AM PROUD, CONTENT AND TURNED ON
BY MY LFIE
BY THE MEN I AM DRAWING IN
THE MEN WHO ADORE ME
THE FEMALES WHO GRAVITATE
THE CHILDREN WHO BLOSSOM
IS ALL NOT A SIGN?
I BELIEVE IT IS ALL A SIGN
A SYMBOL
A CLUE
THE GREAT MYSTERY

MY WINDOW OPEN
THE COOL AIR
CHILLY MY NAKED CHEST AND STOMACH
I'VE HATE MY STOMACH
MY BREASTS
FOR AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER
BUT
I'VE CHANGED
THE LOVE ISN'T THERE 100%
BY I KNOW THE ACCEPTANCE IS THERE
MY TUMMY
SOMETHING SO HATED, FOR SO LONG
NOW I FIND FEMININE, SEXY AND EXPRESSIVE
I AM WOMAN
LEARNING TO ACCEPT MY BREASTS
WISH THEY WERE BIGGER
HAHAHA
THE SIZE THEY WERE
WHEN I WISHED I WAS SMALLER
GO FIGURE
I WANT THE FIGURE WITH THE RACK
I LOVE IT
MEN LOVE IT
WHY SHOULDN'T I HAVE IT?

I Just Wanna Fucking...

DEAR FRIENDS
I WRITE YOU FROM MY WINDOW SILL IN EAST LONDON
I LOVE TO SIT BETWEEN MY WINDOW AND IT'S FRAME
ALMOST LIKE A SMALL HIDEOUT
MY FAVOURITE AS A GIRL
WAS MY WALK IN CLOSETS - YES WE HAD SOME MONEY
BUT I WOULD ALWAYS LOVE TO HANG OUT THERE
WISHED I COULD SLEEP THERE
PART OF ME LOVED A VERY CONFINED SPACE
IT FORCED ME TO BE TIDY
IT FORCED ME TO BE PRESENT
IT FORCED ME TO BE WITH ME
SO
NOW
I SIT ON MY WINDOW SILL
AND WATCH ONE, OF MY MANY, FOX FRIENDS
ROAMING THE STREET
LIKE CATS SO DAINTY AND NIMBLE
HAVE ALWAYS BEEN ONE OF MY ANIMAL GUIDES IN LONDON
ESPECIALLY IN MORE POSITIVE, STEWING STAGES
THE FOXES HAVE BEEN A CONSTANT REMINDER
OF REFLECTION
OF CUNNING
OF WISDOM
FOR FIRST NATIONS - BALANCE AND HARMONY

ALSO, THE MOTH
FUNNILY, SINCE I CONNECT SO STRONGLY WITH BUTTERFLIES
THE MOTH HAS CONTINUED TO BE PRESENT IN MY LIFE
THOUGH GOOGLE RESEARCH LEAVES ME TO BELIEVE
THEY ARE ONE AND THE SAME
(BUTTERFLIES AND MOTHS IN SYMBOLOGY)
HHHMMM - METAMORPHOSIS
MY SPECIALTY
MY DESIRE
MY KINK
'TWAS BEFORE I KNEW THE NATURE OF SCORPIO
COULDN'T HELP IT
BUT TO BE DRAWN TO DEATH
AND SEX
AND MYSTERY
KNOWING MY EMOTIONS WERE ALWAYS SO SEISMIC
SEE-SAWING FROM EXULTATION TO DESPERATION
THIS WAS ME
FROM BIRTH
FROM CONCEPTION
FROM CELESTIAL AGREEMENT
THIS IS WHO I WAS MEANT TO BE
THIS IS WHO I AM
THIS IS THE NATURE OF SCOPRIO
THE NEED TO FEEL BRAND NEW
THE DEATH AND REBIRTH
THE CONSTANT OF CYCLE OF THE PHOENIX

I DON'T KNOW 'WHY' I BELIEVE SO MUCH IN THE SCIENCE OF ASTROLOGY
I KNOW MY HEART SAYS 'YES'
AND I TRUST IN MY INTUITION
THE SCIENCE SPEAKS TO ME
AND I AM DOING MY BEST TO STUDY
SO I CAN BETTER EXPLAIN AND EDUCATE OTHERS

LOOK GUYS
I'D LOVE TO TALK ALL NIGHT
I COULD GO ALL NIGHT
BUT RIGHT NOW
I JUST WANNA GO TO BED
AND THINK OF SAMURAI
I'VE GOT SOME NEW SWEET ALMOND OIL
AND IT'S TIME TO TREAT MYSELF
BECAUSE I AM SUCH A TREAT

DEAR FRIENDS
I AM SO PROUD OF YOU
FOR ALL THE WORK YOU'VE DONE SO FAR
ON YOU
AND YOUR EMOTIONS
AND YOUR EGO
AND YOUR ESSENTIAL SELF
I KNOW WE STILL STRUGGLE BUT YOU HAVE GROWN SO MUCH
BEEN PATIENT AND KIND AND LOVING TO YOURSELF
YOU HAVE LOVED YOURSELF, THE WAY YOU DESERVE TO BE LOVED
AND I AM SO PROUD OF YOU
I LOVE YOU
L & L
R

Manipulating Wooomaaan

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Nobody, No No Nobodyyy

SO MANY THINGS
I WANT TO SAY
WHEN I HEAR RIDICULOUS THINGS
COME OUT OF THE MOUTHS
OF PEOPLE I LOVE
..............
OF PEOPLE I LOVE
I HAVE A KINDRED SPIRIT WITH THE GAYS
MY MANY FAB FAGGOTS
WHO CONCLUDE:
'RUBY, YOU ARE A GAY MAN'
.............
YOU ARE A GAY MAN
AND THEREFORE I DON'T PRETEND TO KNOW
OR UNDERSTAND ALL THE PRESSURES YOU FACE
BUT I UNDERSTAND SELF LOATHING
AND I UNDERSTAND THE DISCIPLINE AND WORK INVOLVED
IN CHANGING THOUGHT PATTERNS AND PERSONAL BELIEFS
NOBODY SAID IT WAS EASY
................
NOBODY SAID IT WAS EASY
BEING A WOMAN
OR A MAN
OR STRAIGHT
OR GAY
OR BI
OR HUMAN
BUT I CAN TRULY FEEL PURE JOY
WHILE SCRUBBING A DIRTY DISH
TODAY
A BOWL USED LAST NIGHT
I BAKED A PUDDING FROM SCRATCH
IN A LARGE MIXING BOWL
AND AS I SCRUBBED OVER THE CAKED ON CHOCOLATE
AND HARDENED SCRAPINGS
I FELT CONTENT
I FELT FULL OF LOVE
................
I FELT FULL OF LOVE
WHEN I WAS 14
AND HE WAS 21
HIS FATHER, CONVICTED OF EMBEZZLEMENT AND MURDER
MADE HIM A WARY AND GUARDED MAN
HE DIDN'T KNOW I WAS SO YOUNG
I DIDN'T KNOW IT WOULD MATTER
I LOVED HIM
MY FIRST 'LOVE'
TALL
DARK
EMOTIONAL BUT PRIVATE
QUITE BUT CONFIDENT
AND ALMOST MYSTERIOUS
ALL THINGS I GRAVITATED TOWARDS
THEN AND STILL
I CAN'T DENY MY 'TYPE'
MY MEDITATION CLASS TODAY WAS RUINED
CAUSE SOME CLARK KENT-ESQUE DUDE
DECIDED TO DROP IN
I KEPT SNEAKING PEAKS OF:
HIS SEXY HANDS
HIS BROAD, TANNED SHOULDERS
HIS OLIVE-Y, BUTTERY SKIN
YOU CAN'T HELP BUT IMAGINE
THE MOST PERFECT COCK ATTACHED TO SUCH A BODY
SERIOUSLY
SERIOUSLY
SERIOUSLY
IT TOOK ALL MY ENERGY
NOT TO STARE AT HIM THE WHOLE OF THE CLASS

TODAY WAS ANOTHER
TRULY BLESSED DAY IN MY LIFE
THANK YOU AGAIN
FOR ANOTHER
AND ANOTHER
AND ANOTHER
...........

Naked Monday Blog

OHHH DEAR
I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER TYPING UP
THE PREVIOUS BLOG
OYE
'TWAS A HEAVY SATURDAY NIGHT
A VERY INTERESTING FRI - MON

SHIT NEWS FIRST
ANDREW IS A FUCKING MORON
HE CROSSED A VERY IMPORTANT LINE
AND
CONTINUES TO DO THINGS WHICH ARE
WELL
MANIPULATIVE AND PREDATORY
I DON'T LIKE
I'M NOT GOING TO STAND IT
I REALIZE OUR FRIENDSHIP
HAS COME TO AN END
WELL
NOT THE WHOLE THING
BUT HE WILL NO LONGER BE
IN MY INNER CIRCLE
SO
WELL
C'EST LA VIE

ANDREW ONCE SAID:
I TELL YA GUYS
WHEN A GUY TAKE HOME A GIRL
WHEN HE'S DRUNK OR WHATEVER
AND FUCKS HER (PRONOUNCED 'UH')
AS SOON AS HE COMES HE THINKS:
I SHOULDN'T HAVE SLEPT WITH HER
WHILE
HE'S
STILL
INSIDE
HER
WOW
WOW
WOW
AND HE WAS WILLING AND BEGGING
FOR ME TO BE HIS CUM BUCKET THAT NIGHT
WELL
FUCKING GUESS WHAT SWEETHEART?!?!
I AM NOT YOUR FUCKING JACK OFF RECEPTACLE
I AM DISAPPOINTED
AND
I FUCKING HHHAAATTTEEE BEING DISAPPOINTED
IT'S THE WORST OF ALL LOWER ENERGY EMOTIONS
SO
I AM LETTING HIM GO
THANK YOU FOR ALL THE WONDERFUL TIME WE SPENT TOGETHER
I KNOW WE'LL STILL SEE EACH OTHER
AND IT'LL BE GREAT TO SEE YOU
TAKE CARE

THE TOTALLY-AMAZING-SEXY-TIME-OF-MY-LIFE-GREAT NEWS
HAHAHA
DATE ON FRIDAY WITH SAMURAI WAS...
IN A WORD...
THOUGHT-PROVOKING

THOUGHT #1:
WOW! I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD COME THAT MANY TIMES IN A ROW!

THOUGHT #2
I NEED TO START WRITING THIS SHIT DOWN. BECAUSE I NEED TO FIND ME A LONDON KNIGHT AND SCHOOL HIM ON THE WAYS OF SEX, ALL THANKS TO MY FUTURE LOVER

THOUGHT #3
WHAT THE FUCK DOES IN LOVE MEAN? DOES THE SAMURAI EVER REALLY FALL IN LOVE? PERHAPS ONE PARTICULAR GEISHA HE PINES FOR...

THOUGHT #4
THANK YOU UNIVERSE. FOR BRINGING MY FUTURE LOVER TO ME. I PROMISE TO CONTINUE TEACHING OTHERS AND LOVING MYSELF BECAUSE REWARDS LIKE THIS MAKE MY LIFE ON THIS EARTH FEEL LIKE A DREAM

SO
YEAH
THE SESSION WAS THOUGHT-PROVOKING
AND
JUBILANT
AND
FREEING
AND
RIDICULOUSLY HOT
I HAVEN'T STOPPED SMILING

LIVING THE DREAM MY FRRRIENDS
: x

Oyyye

Unbelievable
Speechless
And
Not For A Great Reason

Samurai
Has comforted me agaaain

Andrew
Has confounded me agaaain

Goodnight Old World
I, too, want to sleep till the end of daysss
: x

Lets Play A Love Game, Love Game

Date with Samurai tomorrow
Beyond excited
House to myself
Should be wonderfulll
What to wear?
What to wear?
What to wear?
Partyyy on Saturday
My costume is evolvinggg

Kisses until next weeek...

Taking the Lonnnggg Wayyy

Dear Me
Congratulations on a longish and successful day!
I say 'longish' because, compared to many in the world, I'm sure my day was very average
(I live a quite relaxed, easy going, only small amounts of boring time commitments (work, mostly))

SO THIS WENT DOWN TONIGHT
I WAS WORKING A LITTLE GIG
THERE WAS A GUY THERE NAMED: (FOR YOU) ROB LOWE
ROB LOWE IS A TALL, LEAN, AUSTRALIAN WITH CRAZY HAIR
LIKE HE JUST STUCK HIS FINGER IN AN ELECTRICAL SOCKET
BUT CUTE AND SURFER-Y
NOT MY TYPICAL TYPE BUT I'LL FUCK ANYTHING ONCE
ANYWHO
AS SOON AS I MET HIM
I COULD TELL HE WAS 'ATTRACTED' TO ME
ENERGETICALLY
I KNEW HE WANTED ME
AND I THOUGHT ABOUT HIM
FROM TIME TO TIME
(AS I DO
DAILY
WEIGHING POTENTIAL LOVERS
IN LONDONTOWN)
HE HAS A FACE I WANT TO LOOK AT OVER AND OVER
CAUSE I CAN NEVER QUITE HOLD IT IN MY MIND
AND
IT'S WHEN YOU'RE REALLY LOOKING INTO A FACE LIKE THAT
THAT YOU REALLY STARE WHILE YOU'RE SPEAKING
AND
YOUR EYES MEET
AND REALLY LOCK
AND YOU REALIZE THIS PERSON IN GORGEOUS AND WONDERFUL
AND YOU WANT THEM
HE HAS THAT FACE
BUT
I DIDN'T REALIZE TILL TONIGHT
I'VE MET HIM 3 TIMES THESE WERE HIS ENERGETIC MESSAGES:
1: WHEN I KNEW HE WANTED ME
HAHAHA
2: I FELT HE WAS RESISTING LIKING ME - GF?
3: TONIGHT
I WAS ON STAGE DOING MY LITTLE THING
AND
HE WAS TAKING PICTURES OF THE EVENT
I DIDN'T REALIZE HE WAS DOING THIS
UNTIL I WAS ONSTAGE
HE WAS WEARING A BRIGHT GREEN SHIRT
AT ONE POINT
I FLIRTED WITH HIM A BIT
THROUGH THE CAMERA LENS
HE -DEFINITELY- ACKNOWLEDGED THIS
WITH A SMILE AND A VERY CUTE STUNNED EXPRESSION
THEN
AS THE SHOW GOES ON
I'M FEELING SOME HATE FROM THE AUSSIE LADIES
WHO WORK WITH ROB LOWE
'NAAAHHH' I TELL MY GUT
YOU'RE JUST BEING SELF CONSCIOUS AND SILLY
OR WAS I?
LATER I CATCH ROB LOWE'S EYE
AS I'M SHIPPING MOET CHAMPAGNE IN ONE OF THE DESIGNERS' OUTFITS
SCHMOOZING, MINGLING, SELLING
A VERY 'MRS ROBINSON' VIBE
WITH AN ALMOST SHEAR LEOPARD TOP
AND JUST A NUDE BRA UNDERNEATH
A LITTLE TOO MUCH HAIR AND MAKE UP
(FROM THE SHOW)
I CATCH HIS EYE AND HE LOOKS AT ME ALMOST SAD
THEN THIS VERY SLIGHT, PALE, DARK HAIRED, CLEVER LOOKING YOUNG WOMAN
PLACES A HEAVY HAND ON HER MAN'S SHOULDER
AND
LOCKS EYES WITH ME:
'HE IS MINE BITCH'
HER EYES SAY TO MINE
I STARE RIGHT BACK AND SMILE
BECAUSE I HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG
I DID NOT KNOW
IF YOU FELT ANYTHING BETWEEN US
THAT'S NOT MY PROBLEM
THAT WAS ENERGETIC
AND SOMETIMES YOU CAN'T HELP THAT
CHEMISTRY IS CHEMISTRY RIGHT?!
ANYWAY
THERE WEREN'T PISTOLS AT DAWN
BUT I THINK BOTH US LADIES STAYED FIRM
MAYBE NEXT TIME THEY FUCK
THEY'LL BOTH THINK OF ME
: x
SOMETHING TELLS ME
THIS ISN'T THE LAST OF ROB LOWE
WHATEVER
THE 'SOMETHING' ISN'T ALWAYS RIGHT

If You Seek Amyyy

ALL
I
WANT...
IS
TO
FUCK

We Did What We Had To Do...

OHHH MYYY GOOOD
ANOTHER DATE SET WITH SAMURAI
FRIDAYYY
A GOOD NIGHT FOR A CYBER FUCK
SHOULD SAMURAI TELL ME A STORY...
WHAT SHOULD BE ON THE MENU THIS TIME?
THE NIMBUS?
DOUBLE PEN?
BOTH?
HhhMmm I'D BEST HAVE A THINK
AND WHAT TO WEAR?
LAST TIME...
A LITTLE BLUE DRESS
WITH A CONVENIENT ZIPPER
IN THE FRONT
I LOVE MY BREASTS
THEY ARE AMAZING
SERIOUSLY
HAHAHA
AND
IT WAS A PLEASURE TO SHOW THEM OFF
THEY LOVE ATTENTION
FUNNY THAT I LOVE NAMING THINGS
BUT HAVEN'T NAMED ANY OF MY 'LADY BITS'
(LOVE THAT EXPRESSION
THANKS BRITISH PEOPLES)
HhhMmm
WANTING A SAMURAI IN LONDONTOWN
HORUS IS OFFICIALLY A FUCK FACE
DOESN'T MEAN I WON'T SEE HIM AGAIN
BUT
HE IS NOT GETTING A PIECE OF THIS
THAT'S FOR DAMN SURE
I'LL LET HIM HAVE HIS GIGGLY LUNCHES
WATCH
ME TWIRL MY HAIR
HIM GET THE BILL
IS THAT WRONG?
DON'T GET ME WRONG!
HE'S A FUCK FACE BUT HE'S ALSO FUN
I DO ENJOY HANGING OUT WITH HIM
GENERALLY
AND NOW THAT I KNOW
HE'S A FUCK FACE
LUNCHES, ETC WILL BE LESS PRESSURE

NITE NITE NITE WORLD
BRUNCH AND CHOCOLATIER TIME WITH ROLF
TOMORROW
PERFECT WORLD
PERFECT WORLD
PERFECT WORLD

Start Spreadinggg...

GOD BLESS THE NIGHT
THE NIGHTS OF SMOKE, CHAT AND LIFE
THE NIGHTS OF FLIRTING, A FULL MOON AND JOY

WHEN SLEEPY EYELIDS
ONLY COME ONCE YOU'RE NESTLED
IN YOUR NIGHT BUS SEAT

STAR TREK LAST NIGHT
SO MANY SEXY OPTIONS
SERIOUSLY
WATCHING SPOCK AND UHURA MAKING OUT
WHO WOULDN'T WANT TO WATCH THEIR PORN?

I'M WORKING MY WAY UP TO THIS TOY
MOSTLY MENTALLY

Rolf to Friend

Hey Dude
I can't make it
I'm going to be honest here
They say: honesty is the best policy, you know
I got high and bought Imax 'Star Trek' tickets
: )

Bought a Home, And Bought It Right...

EVERY TIME I GET AN EMAIL FROM HIM
MY ASS HURTS

Morning Pages

THE NEED FOR THE DANCE
OF THE NAKED SELF
AND REFLECTION
IS OF PRICELESS VALUE
SERIOUSLY
ADD IT TO YOUR DAILY ROUTINE
MAYBE FOR MEN
IT COULD BE MORE ABOUT FLEXING MUSCLES
NOT THAT YOU HAVE TO HAVE MUSCLES BOYS
BUT
I'M JUST SAYING
ANYWAY
THE DANCE
IS KEY TO WHO I AM
MAINTAINING WHO I AM
AS IS THIS BLOG
THERE ARE PARTS OF MY PERSONALITY
MY EXPERIENCE
THAT NEED TO BE WORKED ON
WE'VE ALL GOT THEM
AND
PARTS THAT NEED TO BE EXPRESSED
WE'VE ALL GOT THOSE TOO
FOR ME THE SEXY NAKED DANCING
MAKES ME PROUD
MAKES ME GLOW
BECAUSE I KNOW SELF HATRED
I WAS IN AN ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP
WITH MYSELF
BUT
THAT WAS A LESSON IN ENERGIES
AND NOW I'M WORKING ON IT
I ALSO NEED TO DO THINGS LIKE JOURNAL WORK
BLOGGING
CHATTING WITH FRIENDS
BECAUSE I LIKE TO PICK THINGS APART
SEE HOW THEY TICK
HOW THEY WORK
HOW THEY COME
I WANT TO UNDERSTAND THE EXPERIENCE OF OTHERS
..................
I NEED TO TWEAK MY THINKING JUST A LITTLE MORE
I'M ALMOST THERE
BUT
THE EGO LURKS
AND SHE IS FEISTY AND CUNNING
IMAGINE ALL THAT ENERGY PUT TO GOOD!
................
JOY
JOY
JOY
I HAVE MY COSTUME FOR MAY 16TH
THE PARTY:
DRESS AS A SONG TITLE OR LYRIC
MINE IS A SECRET
FOR NOW
BUT I AM BEYOND EXCITED
THAT'S ANOTHER PART OF ME
I FUCKING LOVE DRESSING UP
AND COSTUMES
AND CHARACTERS
AND PLAYING
SERIOUSLY
MORE OF THAT IN MY LIFE
IT MAKES ME BLISSFULLY HAPPY
: x

I wanna be a part of it...

WATCHING 'ELECTION' AND DYING

HOROSCOPE PREDICTED THIS WEEKEND
BREAKDOWN AND BREAKTHROUGH
WWW.SOULGARDEN.TV

I, DEFINITELY, HAVE FELT THIS
I ADORE SAMURAI
BUT I CAN'T GET TOO ATTACHED
MUST STAY FOCUSED
FEEL LIKE I'VE ALREADY LEARNED
EXPANDED
GROWN SO MUCH

I DON'T KNOW MANY LIBRAS
THE PRINCIPLE OF DISCIPLINE
NOT UNHEARD OF IN MY LIFE
BUT
ALSO NOT VERY COMMON
HE HAS THIS IN ABUNDANCE

I AM SCORPIO
I WANT WHAT I WANT WHEN I WANT IT
AND I WANT IT ALL
AND I WANT IT NOW
HAHAHA
OR AT LEAST THAT'S THE WAY I FEEL LATELY

I NEED TO GROW UP A BIT
ABOUT RELATIONSHIPS
IN ALL AREAS OF MY LIFE

TO HAVE THE LIFESTYLE AND SEXSYTYLE I WANT
I NEED TO LET PARTNERS GO
I'M NOT GOING TO RAMBLE BUT HERE'S THE SHORT:

THERE ARE THINGS I WANT TO EXPERIENCE IN LIFE
SEXUALLY
ROMANTICALLY
SPIRITUALLY
THAT I SIMPLY CANNOT EXPERIENCE
IF I DO NOT RELEASE MY EGO
BUT
IT'S WORTH IT
IT'LL BRING ME MORE JOY
DISCIPLINE WILL RELEASE ME
ALLOW ME TO GAIN SKILLS AND EMOTIONAL RANGE

SO THIS MORNING
BACK TO FLOWDREAMING
BACK TO YOGA
BACK TO MEDITATION
BACK TO ME

SAMURAI LOVED THE STORY I WROTE FOR HIM
SAID IT WAS THE BEST LONG PIECE EVER WRITTEN FOR HIM
MEGA FLATTERED
WE TALKED THROUGH IT ON OUR DATE
IT WAS VERY ENCOURAGING

TODAY DURING FLOWDREAMING
I DREAMED ABOUT THE HOLY TRINITY FOR ME
THE FARMHOUSE IN PARIS FOR WRITING AND REFLECTION
AN APARTMENT IN NYC FOR SAMURAI/LOVERS AND PARTIES
HOUSE IN LONDON FOR WORK, FASHION AND LOVERS
IT WOULD ALL BE SO EASY
AND
FULL OF LOVE
WOULDN'T IT BE NICE?

I HURT MY WRIST
POSSIBLY TOO MUCH MASTURBATION
'RABBIT WRIST'
SHOULD BE ON WARNING ON THE BOX!
COULD I SUE?

IT'S ALL AROUND THE CORNER MY FRIENDS
I CAN FEEL IT ALL BUILDING

One Journey For You, But It's Worth It...

WOW
WOW
WOW
FIRST DATE WITH SAMURAI 2NITE
WAS EXCITED AND SCARED
HE SENT ME THIS EMAIL ABOUT OUR DATE:

"Options:

1. chatting and talk

2. you listen and I talk. Hotness.

3. You listen and I talk while I watch you do something to make my cock hard and wet while on camera.

A lady needs a menu sometimes, no?"

I OPTED
FOR ALL THREE
START AT THE TOP OF THE LIST
AND
WORK OUR WAY DOWN...
IN THE END
THE CHAT WAS ALL ON CAMERA
CAUSE I'M A BIT GREEDY LIKE THAT

IT WAS A WONDERFUL 5 HOURS
I MET THE SWEET AND LOVELY, BETTY DODSON
AND THE SEXY AND CHARMING, CARLIN ROSS
(IF ONLY ON CAMERA)
WWW.DODSONANDROSS.COM
AND
I WAS A BIT TONGUE TIED, A BIT STAR STRUCK
HAHAHA AFTER ALL
BETTY IS A LEGEND AND A TRAILBLAZER

SAMURAI WAS EVERYTHING AND MORE
A KIND FACE WITH AN INTENSE GAZE
A FUCKING MMMMMMMMMMMMMM GREAT BOD
AND
WELL
AN ABSOLUTELY PERFECT COCK
WHICH I WATCHED CUM
ALL OVER HIS KEYBOARD
YUM YUM YUM

AS I CAME
HARD
FOR THE 3RD TIME TONIGHT
DURING OUR SKYPE DATE...
(ONCE THE ORGASM HAZE CLEARED)
ALL I COULD THINK WAS:
I LOVE MY LIFE
I LOVE MY LIFE
I LOVE MY LIFE
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

MORE ON THAT ANOTHER TIME
EXHAUSTED
SAMURAI MAY PEN A NEW BLOG IN MY HONOUR
WILL SHARE
CAN'T WAAAIIIIT
NITE NITE NITE PERFECT WORLD