I Just Wanna Fucking...

DEAR FRIENDS
I WRITE YOU FROM MY WINDOW SILL IN EAST LONDON
I LOVE TO SIT BETWEEN MY WINDOW AND IT'S FRAME
ALMOST LIKE A SMALL HIDEOUT
MY FAVOURITE AS A GIRL
WAS MY WALK IN CLOSETS - YES WE HAD SOME MONEY
BUT I WOULD ALWAYS LOVE TO HANG OUT THERE
WISHED I COULD SLEEP THERE
PART OF ME LOVED A VERY CONFINED SPACE
IT FORCED ME TO BE TIDY
IT FORCED ME TO BE PRESENT
IT FORCED ME TO BE WITH ME
SO
NOW
I SIT ON MY WINDOW SILL
AND WATCH ONE, OF MY MANY, FOX FRIENDS
ROAMING THE STREET
LIKE CATS SO DAINTY AND NIMBLE
HAVE ALWAYS BEEN ONE OF MY ANIMAL GUIDES IN LONDON
ESPECIALLY IN MORE POSITIVE, STEWING STAGES
THE FOXES HAVE BEEN A CONSTANT REMINDER
OF REFLECTION
OF CUNNING
OF WISDOM
FOR FIRST NATIONS - BALANCE AND HARMONY

ALSO, THE MOTH
FUNNILY, SINCE I CONNECT SO STRONGLY WITH BUTTERFLIES
THE MOTH HAS CONTINUED TO BE PRESENT IN MY LIFE
THOUGH GOOGLE RESEARCH LEAVES ME TO BELIEVE
THEY ARE ONE AND THE SAME
(BUTTERFLIES AND MOTHS IN SYMBOLOGY)
HHHMMM - METAMORPHOSIS
MY SPECIALTY
MY DESIRE
MY KINK
'TWAS BEFORE I KNEW THE NATURE OF SCORPIO
COULDN'T HELP IT
BUT TO BE DRAWN TO DEATH
AND SEX
AND MYSTERY
KNOWING MY EMOTIONS WERE ALWAYS SO SEISMIC
SEE-SAWING FROM EXULTATION TO DESPERATION
THIS WAS ME
FROM BIRTH
FROM CONCEPTION
FROM CELESTIAL AGREEMENT
THIS IS WHO I WAS MEANT TO BE
THIS IS WHO I AM
THIS IS THE NATURE OF SCOPRIO
THE NEED TO FEEL BRAND NEW
THE DEATH AND REBIRTH
THE CONSTANT OF CYCLE OF THE PHOENIX

I DON'T KNOW 'WHY' I BELIEVE SO MUCH IN THE SCIENCE OF ASTROLOGY
I KNOW MY HEART SAYS 'YES'
AND I TRUST IN MY INTUITION
THE SCIENCE SPEAKS TO ME
AND I AM DOING MY BEST TO STUDY
SO I CAN BETTER EXPLAIN AND EDUCATE OTHERS

LOOK GUYS
I'D LOVE TO TALK ALL NIGHT
I COULD GO ALL NIGHT
BUT RIGHT NOW
I JUST WANNA GO TO BED
AND THINK OF SAMURAI
I'VE GOT SOME NEW SWEET ALMOND OIL
AND IT'S TIME TO TREAT MYSELF
BECAUSE I AM SUCH A TREAT

DEAR FRIENDS
I AM SO PROUD OF YOU
FOR ALL THE WORK YOU'VE DONE SO FAR
ON YOU
AND YOUR EMOTIONS
AND YOUR EGO
AND YOUR ESSENTIAL SELF
I KNOW WE STILL STRUGGLE BUT YOU HAVE GROWN SO MUCH
BEEN PATIENT AND KIND AND LOVING TO YOURSELF
YOU HAVE LOVED YOURSELF, THE WAY YOU DESERVE TO BE LOVED
AND I AM SO PROUD OF YOU
I LOVE YOU
L & L
R