Friday July 24th

I have not stopped
Since last Thursday
A weekend in the country
Has kicked off a week of partying
Not that I'm complaining

The weekend was fab
The pills were weak
I'll try them again
Diff vibe
Diff pills
Diff time
But I mostly had the effect of: vivid memories

Strong early sexual memories mostly
Things that I needed to remember and let go
It was a very interesting experience
The weekend was cathartic
The weather was moody and fabulous
The boys are the best

So this week it's been booze, weed and some coke
Mostly booze
But walking up and down and all around Ltown
Has helped me balance the many calories
The week isn't over
I have a little party on tomorrow evening too
Should be fun

I'll be back soon
To open my tired mind and thumping heart
: x

Interlude

I'll be brief
Just because
Because I've been up late
Partying
Night after night after night

More on the weekend in the country
More on the pills
More on the journey
Soon
Soon
Soon
Tomorrow
: x

Life has been grand
As she always is
Sweet, kind, demonstrative and understanding
Tomorrow
....

A Weekend In The Country

Has it really been a week?!
I have been processing
Yet again
Is anyone else feeling this a bit
It's like...the normal cycles I observe and honour in my life
I think of it as walking a circular pattern
Times of high and low, etc
So
This is normal and I embrace this
But time has sped up so much
Literally
Cycles and changes that would normally take months
Take weeks or a week
I feel like every week I'm having days of: I am seriously a gorgeous sexy intelligent woman and I got gooood things comin' to me
And then in the same week I'll have feelings of: I will never be successful in my career and men are so disappointing.
I'm feeling very Scorpio with all this bi-polar emotional energy
Don't get me wrong
I am well, my friends
But I work towards a life where thoughts of deprecation and doubt
No longer come
And, if and when they do, they pass through me with ease

I must ask Samurai the name of the dark beads he was wearing during our last e-fuck
They were for anxiety
Almost like a vaccine for the anxiety virus
Which seeps, creeps, floats through our Western lives
We are accustomed but stressed!

Speaking of vaccines
I am saying for the record
This swine flu thing is ridiculous
We are not buying into the fear
We are not buying into the authority
We are not buying into the vaccine

Here is an expose on swine flu: http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2009/07/16/Major-Expose-on-Swine-Flu-by-60-Minutes.aspx

Recommended by: Samurai
Get the vaccine if you want
But all I'm saying is...
Do your research...Don't let fear control your decisions

Had a great night out with Alexander
George's Dragon
Cocomo
Zigfried Von Underbelly
I'm getting out there
I'm putting myself out there
I am safe

I am spending the next few days in the country
Lahhh Deee Dahhh
A few days away with Alexander and Rockwell
We may do pills
I will discuss

Closer

Finally found an evening to myself
To watch Mike Nicholas' CLOSER
Wow
Wow
Wow
I must read the play
I must see the play
I must be in that play
Films like that
Scripts, performances, direction like that
Are so inspirational
Honest
Raw
Touching
Terrifying
Make me miss acting
I miss acting
I would like to do a show
I'm ready to do a show

Back to CLOSER
Such a sexy cast too
Charged
Fucking Julia Roberts
O-M-G
I looove her
Clive Owen, please fuck me
Jude Law, join us, my ass is yours
Natalie Portman, you can read us erotica

July Looove

Mmm Hello Blog
I've missed you
But
I've been on a bit of a journey
And I've come back to you
I feel changeddd

Don't get me wrong
I'm still a sex crazed chronic
But I've worked out a balance
With more sun, fruit, veg, sweat and honesty
Sooo
No CAPS lock today

And time to get back to the bloggg
More regularly
Got some great new erotica brewing in this here mind
Share soon!
: x