Love Lust & Light

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Love Lust & Light
<3
R

Oh Lordie...

I Sent A Copy Of T Dialogue Below
To Samurai
'Samurai Notes'

I Did It By Accident
But I'm Glad
Because He Replied:

Ruby loves rules being placed on her that she has to follow. Dom her with rules.

OooMmmGgg
This man
This man
This man


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So Many Things To Take N
Just Have To Breathe!
Love Lust & Light
<3
R

I Just Couldn't Stay Awayyy

Hello Loversss

Though I'm N Holiday Mode
I'm Still Inspired To Sexily Serve You
<3
A Lil Lust Poetry Between Me & My Samurai

16:36Samurai
a challenge for you
that i think will make your orgasm bigger
write this down!

16:37Ruby Sounds good!

16:37Samurai in phone notes!
force you to look into my eyes
glaring up at you from between your thighs
while i drive your clit crazy with my tongue

16:37Ruby
'samurai says' it's titled
I just shuddered in my 2nd chakra
Like intensely

16:38Samurai
all the way till you come
unless you realize you need to close your eyes to focus and come good...
then whenever you come
open your eyes and force them open while youre coming
and watch me fucking you
watch your body being fucked
my body, my eyes, face, expression
you'll come harder because you're getting an erotic kick up right at the right time.
closing your eyes deprives you of visuals
so, keep em open.
you'll be amazed at what happens and the look on your face
when you come with your eyes open is like no other
there's no other expression like it
write write!

16:41Ruby I've done it baby!


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Sooo turned on y'all!
I hope you are feeling happy and sexy today too!
Love Lust & Light
<3
R

Holidaysss

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Hello Lovers,

W A Full Heart
Brimming W Joy Dreams & Secrets
I Must Take A Little Break

Mama Has Had A Very Busy Couple Of Weeks
Hosting
Feeding Mouthes Minds & Souls
Righting Wrongs N T Crazy World

She Needs A Release

She Needs Someone To Do All T Work For Her

She Needs Space

Mama Has A Very Busy Couple Weeks Ahead
I Know When I Return
I Will B Blazing W Love
Burning W Creative Visions
Bursting W Fresh Sexy Nastiness To Share W You All

I May Update N T Meantime
But Just N Case...

Bring Love & Openness To All You Meet
Practice Safe Sober & Loving Sex
And
Dream As Deep & Wide As You Dare

See You N Sextember
Love Lust & Light
<3
R

Shinyyy

Rubyyy Got A Newww Toy
Packed W Loving Care By My Samurai

Sooo Much Fun!

I'll Review ASAP
But So Far I Love T Realistic Feel
Hard But Squishy & Fleshy At T Same Time
Some Nice Subtle Texture W Vein Like Accents
A Nice Curve & Length
A Bit Girthy So Probably Not A Beginners Toy
But Good For All Orifices
It Will B A Perfect Ass Toy
W T Scrotum Base
Cause If You're Playing W Assholes & Dildos
Don't Forget!
A Toy Can Get Sucked Right Up There
(That's Why Those Butt Plugs Normally Have Wide Bases)

Stayyy Tuned!

Love Lust & Light
<3
R

5 Year Old Rubyyy

Ruby By Beaux

My Astrologer Said
One Of My Tasks For T Wknd
Was To Search My Feelings
And Proclaim T Things I Don't Want N My Life Anymore

And One Of My Conclusions
I Don't Want To B Angry W Beaux Anymore

T Deception
T Manipulation
T Selfishness
T Coldness
T Misogyny
T Betrayal

It's Not Who He Is
It's Who He Was
During A Time Of Confusion & Cowardice & Heartache

I Open Myself To Forgiveness
But My Heart Screams:
REMEMBER WHAT HE SAID?!
REMEMBER THAT NIGHT?!
REMEMBER ________?!

Everyone Deserves Forgiveness

I Must Forgive Myself
Hug & Hold & Cuddle Myself
Remind Ruby
That We've Learned Together
We Won't Let That Happen Again

We're Awake Now

Through All T Rejection & Pain & Wondering
I've Grown To Understand What My Heart & Cunt Needs
'Wisdom Comes Alone Through Suffering' - Aeschylus
It Was Hard But It Brought Clarity

Sophia St Villier
Called Him My Training Wheels
He Was

I Fell Off T Bike
He Left Me There Crying & Bleeding & Drained
I Need T One Who'll Run To My Side
Pull Me Into His Arms
Love Me, Dust Me Off, Kiss My Tears
Then W Strong Arms Heart & Mind
Encourage Me To Get Back On T Bike

And W That Love
Ohhh My God
I'll Ride That Fucking Bicycle To T Moon & Back

Love Lust & Light
<3
R

Earthquakesss

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I Wanna B Loved By You
Just You
And Nobodyyy Else But You
I Wanna B Loved By You
Alooone
Boo Boop Be Doo

I Wanna B Fucked By You
Just You
And Nobodyyy Else But You
I Wanna B Loved By You
Alooone
Oh Eh O Oh!

<3

Sooo
Did I Mention
I'm Seeing My Samurai At T End Of This Month?
Thaaats Right Folks
If You Feel An Earthquake Around Aug 29th
That's Just My Cunt Sending Out Shock Waves Of Sensual Joyyy

He Told Me I Must Get My Ass Back NTo Shape
And I'm Not Talkin Glutes Here Folksss
This Rosebud Hasn't Had Much Love This Year
And Ohhh Shit
It's Gunna B Loved So Good
I'll Forget I Have A Pussy For Awhile
But I Have To Admit
I'm A Greeedy Lover
I Want It All
All NSide Me
All T Time

Here's T Softer Side
I'm So Excited For T Moment
When I See His Face
See My Face
I Wanna Run And Wrap Myself Around Him
Koala Style
N A Deep Kisss
And Disappear

Love Lust & Light
<3
R

Awakeninnn

Sooo

During My Session W Brandy Rosenburg
(T Psychic Medium)
She Talked A Lot About Sexual Expression
& Tantra
& Sex Education
But Not A Lot About Lovers/Partners

She Picked Out Samurai Right Away
A Male Teacher N My Life

She Described T Kind Of Man I Would Want/Need
An Anchor For My Vibrant Energy
So I Can Stay N T Spotlight & Grounded At T Same Time
N Turn I Transform & Elevate This Lover

Not Much More Than This...
We Had An Hour Booked Together
But W Shakey Skype I Lost About 10 Mins
So She Asked Me To Email
Any Other Questions I Had

Sooo

Of Course I Wanted To Know More About This Lover
Was It One Man? When? Where? Howww?!
: D
AND
GET
THIS...

It's ONE Lover
Lives N NYC
Dark Hair
5 - 7 Yrs Older
(Samurai Samurai Samuraaaiii
Hahaha I Knowww There's Lots O Men Out There)
BUT
She Said My Intimacy Journey
(My Words, Not Hers)
Is Learning How To B
N A Committed Monogamous Relationship

I Know
I Know
I Knowww

Life Is Funny
& Sexy
& Kind

I'm Just Still Absorbing

Luckily
Ruby Never Has To Stay A One-Man-Woman
She Can & Wants & Will
Fuck A Cornucopia Of Male & Female Lovers

Lucky Bitchhh

Love Lust & Light
<3
R

Along Came Bill

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Had T Most Incredible Reading
W Psychic Medium, Brandy Rosenburg
T First Things She Spoke About For Me:
Sex
Native American Energy
Ummm!
Joyyy!
She Introduced Me To My Spirit Guide
Wild Bill
I Started Cryin
He's There She Said
Lassoing You N
Reigning You N

She Said I Will Heal People
W My Sexuality & Sexual Expression
Empower Men & Women
I Cried Again

She Said T Blog Is Here To Stay
That I Must Perform More More More
Get N That Spotlighhht!
Tearsss

I Have To Admit
I Feel Fear
But I Must Continue To Educate Myself
Refine Myself
Expand Myself
So I Can Always Support My Work

I Must Look At This Blog
At My Performing
At My Erotica
And See It As Service
As A Liberation For T Audience

I Must Continue You To Push Myself
Connect W Myself
Connect W My Guides
Connect W T Collective
And Serve W Joy Love & Strength
N My Feminine Power

(Plus
I Gotta Stop Fucking Idiots
Who Don't Deserve T Ruby Experience
But We Knew That Already
Hole N Bucket = Pluggged
Fin)

I Feel Calm Knowin Bill Is Here
Grounded
Protected
Supported
I Am So Lucky

Love Lust & Light
<3
R

To Help Us Survive...

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It's Been Said
That I'm A Heartbreaker
Because I Follow My Heart
And Sometimes That Takes Me Away From You
But You Don't Want To Love A Half Me
It's Not Pretty Or Shiny Or Still
It's Angry And Ego And Withdrawn

Beaux Helped Me See My Withdrawal Pattern
After He Removed T Love & Affection
I Removed My Passion & My Creativity
We Still Fucked
But We Weren't There

I've Learned
That When T Sex Gets Boring
I Gotta Ramp It Up Or Get Going
When I Get Clingy & Indecisive & Fake Comes
I Gotta Examine Fast And/Or Get Going
No More Wheels Spinnin N T Mud

Yes This May All Seem Obvious
But I Don't Find Change All That Easy Sometimes
Though I Love & Crave T Phoenix Destruction & Rebirth
I Can B Stubborn & Fearful Too

Someone you have to let in,
Someone whose feelings you spare,
Someone who, like it or not,
Will want you to share
A little, a lot
...Happy 80th Birthday Sondheim

I Will Never Fake An Orgasm Again
T Weird Push And Pull Of Attachment That Happens
Is A Mind Fuck And A Heart Fuck
It's Just So Not Worth It
And You Boost T Ego Of Man Who Hasn't Earned His Boost
And Diminished Yourself & Your Energy N Process

It's Ok Friends
Most Women Do It
Lots O Guys Do It
Just Don't Do It Again!

Love Lust & Light
<3
R

Boo Boop Be Doo

Sooo
Big Newsss!!!
Ruby will be making her first public appearance sometime this year

WHERE?!
N T UK premiere production of 'Naked Girls Reading'
Check HERE for all you need to know about the show

WHEN!?
Show Date TBC...

WHY?!
Because T Hackney City Council of London
Is requiring we get a 'sexual encounter license' to perform
T same license a strip club or 'gentleman's club' requires

WHAT?!
I knowww
It's absolutely ridiculous!
What is this? 1921?
There have been productions in the USA & Canada with no sexual encounter type license required

HOW?! (Are You Gunna Fix This?)
Well we're working on it
May have to cave and buy the 3000 QUID LICENSE
Or we're looking into alternative venues without censorship

Keep watching this space for more deeets

Love & Light
<3
R

Squeeeze

T 2nd Sketch N Our Series
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Sorta Callin It T Red Light Series At T Mo
Kinda Thinkin It Needs More Japanese Flavour
She Has Sent Me 5 Or 6 So Far
And They R Incredible!
So So So Hot

I'm Going To Submit A Sketch N This Series
Plus A Story For Filament Magazine
Check Out 'T Thinking Woman's Crumpet'
I Suggest Every Lady Pick Up A Copy
I Have To Admit For T Majority
T Male Models Aren't My Personal Taste
But I Appreciate T Perspective
And I Enjoy T Articlesss
And My Samurai Had A Little Feature Recently
Sooo Proud!

I'm Going To Have To Take A Few Days Off
My Ma Is N Town

I've Been Feelin So Romantic Today
Craving Touch Over T Fuck
Just Kisses & Oil Massages & Whispers
Sighhh

Though I Did Have A Wicked Little Fantasy On T Bus
Just A Gutsy 3Some W Samurai & T Man I'm Manifestin
But I Really Had Them Working Like Bros
A Team
High 5's After Big Comes
Swapping Hot Talk To Get Me Keyed Up
Ooo Isn't It Fun When We All Get Along

Love & Light
<3
R

T Geisha

Woke Up W A Pounding Headache
Happy Hangover
After Toy Story 3 Breakdown Martinis
At Hospital Club N Covent Garden
Oooo
Mama Loooves Expensive Shit
Yes She Does

ALSO
Woke Up To 4 Incredible Sketches
Art By T Goddess, Sharlena
Hereafter N Blogging Known As: Jophiel
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jophiel
I Immediately Set Up My Office N T Sun
To Start Writing & Dreaming

I Did A Little Shoot Last Week
And Oh Friends! I Wanted To Post T Photos Immediately
They're Sooo Hot
And I Love My Body So Much
I Decided To Take Photos W A Lil Story N Mind
And This Shoot Was For My Samurai

I Set T Stage With Raw Silk Black Backdrop
A Short Jet Noir Bob
Makeup Minimal W A Pulsing Red Mouth
Painted My Perfect Nipples W T Same Lipstick Tube
And Though I Experimented W Various Thongs, Bras, Etc
I Always End Up Nude
It's My Favourite Costume!

I Wanted T Story Of A Samurai
Returning From Battle
Ravenous For His Geisha Lover
But Strong Enough To Delay His Satisfaction
There's Nothing I Love/Crave More
Than A Man Who Can Resist Me

I Imagined W Each Frame Our Encounter
My Lover Across From Me, Out Of Reach
Demanding N A Low Strong Voice I Touch Myself
While Poor Ruby Is Standing, Bound At T Wrists
Vulnerable & Almost Ashamed
Burning To Bind Him & Honour My Returning Hero

Oooo It Was A Fun Nighhht
More On That Soon

P.S. Coming Whilst Standing Is HARD People!

Sooo
I've Gotta Tell Youuu
I've Got A Crusssh
But Whyyy Are All T Cocks I Want N Other Countriesss?!
WHERE Is My Private Jet Damnit!
I Can't Name Him
Cause I'm Not Sure Yet...
But Ohhh Myyy God
I'd Walk To His Bed From Here If He Asked Me
I Trust That T Universe Provides
Mark My Words

<3
Love & Light
R

Opener Draft 1

God Blesss www.sharlenawood.com

Once Upon A Time
There Was A Pretty Little Slut Named Rubyyy

Ruby Lived In A Big House
With Big Windows And Many Rooms

Each Room Was Very Different
Some With Leather, Some With Lace

Each With It's Own Dress Up Box
To Help Ruby Change Her Shape

<3
Love & Light
R

Projectsss

I've had a little idea
For an erotic storyboook

"Once upon a time
There was a pretty little slut..."

Tales of erotic joyyy
W beautiful sketches/paintings to go with

Treatsss

I got a newww toy
I am very happyyy

Remember Dirty Harry My Hitachi?!
He died
It was very sad
We'd just fallen in love and everything...
For those who are confused about what I'm talking about...




Ohhh! Life goes on
It took me awhile but I have my new friend
He's very different from Harry
Rougher tougher and uninhibited by a power cord


What should I name him?...
Prince?

Presence

I'm Aliiive
Sooo Alive

Deeep Breathsss

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Guesss What?!

I'm Craving A Time
Of Oneness W Self

I'm Thinking 10 Day Meditation Retreat W Absolute Silence...

I'm More Measured N My Speaking
When I'm Sober
I'm Expanding My Vocabulary
I'm Falling N Love W Books Again

I've Gotta Get Outta My Head Now
And Into My Bodyyy
<3

Ghost Of Art Class Past

Sketch By Pete Emslie
Accomplished Animator/Artist
Friend From My College Life Drawing Daysss

I'm tryin to lighten up
I need liftin up

Warmer weather
Brings us all to green and open spaces
Flesh in the open air
Hearts pounding through thin skin
Mighty sun, stronger now
We are children as we spit and tumble and dip
Staying out past our bedtimes
Heavy heads and hearts off to bed

My time of anonymity is coming to an end

I Don't Know Nothing About Birthin No...

Lifted
Inspired
Ignited
Once More

I Come Alive N Love
I Come Alive N Come
I Love Alive B Come
It's True

It's All Part Of T Creative/Creation

I Am Creating Once More

Breaking Bad

Last nite
My friends were having a clap off
To see who could clap the loudest
It actually turned me on so much
I had to leave the rooom
<3
I neeed it baaad

Wide Opennn

Sharlena
sharlenawood.com

I feel empowered
I feel liberated
I feel adored

I Am

Things are changing so fast my friends
Such deep changes
Becoming the lover I crave
Falling in love with myself again
Discovering all my sides

I Am

We're all learning to let go
Of fear of judgment of worry
My strength comes through with love
I am strong when I'm expressing
Joyous when wide open

I Am

Almost

Almost
There...

Artists Way

Sooo Happy
Have Begun Writing Again
Doing My All N T Futuristic Orgy Storyyy
It's Gunna B A Long One
And A Hot Onnne

To Wet Your Whistle:

I blushed and looked away but my eyes were immediately drawn to the thick bulge in his pants. I felt blood rush to my clit. We both had hard-ons now. I could tell this would be different than fucking the David I knew.

Full Blooom

Who Wouldn't Want A Lover
Who Writes Lust Notes This This...

Omggg babyyy

It was agony to leave you on chat today

Your hot talk got me instantly wet and keyed up for you

Wanted to run to the loo and take a pic of my face twisting in hard quiet orgasm

Imagining you and me

Me

Pressed against the cold metal wall

Dress just over my freshly tanned ass and tummy

3 fingers doing those quiet circles

You

Hand over my mouth

Fucking deep and strong into my gushing cunt

Mouth full with your favourite tit

Where do you want to come baby?

Because i'd just love to get on my knees and suck you dry

: x

God I waaaant it and you so hard

Meow

Claws Out
I Wanna Tear Off My Skin
Chunks Of Flesh Out Of My Legs
Clumps Of Ringlets From My Head

THAT
Is How Horny I Am Right Now

I Feel Like Tommy
See Me
Feel Me
Touch Me
Heal Me

Tired Happy

Being
An Actress
A Model
A Singer
A Teacher
A Bartender
A Soulmate
A Daughter
A Sister
A Kindred Spirit
A Friend
A Future Lover
Can Make It Hard To Also B
A Super Sexy Bloggerrr
Apologies
I Miss U
I Promise

Huge Ego Flare T Other Day
W Samurai
I'm Not Actually Sure If I Should Tell Him
Well
That's A Lie
I Want To, He'll B Happy To Discuss It
I Will Tell Him
Anywayyy
Being New To Polyamorous Living
I've Been Happy To Find Myself
Comfortable W His Many Lovers
They Are Not Me
But
When I Read His Blog T Other Day
He Talked About Another Lover Far Away
Who He Hasn't Fucked Yet...
Ummm...
Wait A Minute!
My Inner Child Wailed!
I AM THE LOVER FAR AWAY
I AM THE ONE YOU WANT
I AM THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND SEXUAL WOMAN EVER!!!
GGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRAKGPONWAGINSDNDWFALKN
And Then I Burst Into T Hulk

This Honestly Lasted All Of A Few Minutes

I Trust Love & Accept Samurai
And I Value Myself
My Value Is Not Wrapped Up N Him
And He Gives Me Lots Of Attention
Though I Always Want More Hahaha
He Loves That About Me
And I Love Him For Loving That About Me
Ohhh Sighhh

But
Samurai
It's Gunna Get Pretty Crowded N My Lil Black Book Soon
Oooo Folks
T Men
T Men
T Men
Who R Coming Into My Life!
THANK GOD! For This New Bar Job
I Work My Tits Off
But Along T Wayyy
I'm Meeting T Most Beautiful Interesting & Sexy Men
And Flirting Up A Fucking Stooorm
No Ringers Yet
But I Have My Eye On One Gentleman
Oooo Folks
This Man
This Man
This Man
Russsian & Riiich
THANK GOD! He's A Regular
I Want Him Regular
He's Charming & Polite & Clever
And I Make Him Laugh While I Pull His Old Rosie
(That's A Cider You Disgusting People)
But
OMG Do I Wanna Pull His Old Rosie
He Looks Like He Could B Mean If He Wanted To
And I Mean N A Very Hot Hot Hot Nice Wayyy

I'm Tired Of Being T Man N T Bedroom
Everyone Sees Me As This Sexual Aggressive Feline
Which I Am
But Everyone Fucking Knows
Cats Want Love & Attention & Touch
I Believe I've Never Revealed Myself 100% Sexually
Let Myself Really Play
Because
I Have Yet To Fuck Someone As Nasty As I
Or Brave Enough To B
Or Open Enough To Accept Nasty Lil Me
Why Would I Waste My Best Wank Bank Material
Best Come Churning Moves On B List Lovers?
I Still Showed Them A Good Time Friends
Don't Worryyy
I Just Didn't Want To Break Them
Or Their Dicks





How Bad Ass Is This Sketch?
It's So Age Of Aquarius I Could Cry
<3
Love You Shar
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Prayer

I offer myself
To the gods of love
To the goddesses of lust & death
Open me
Fill me with all there is to know
Feel every vibrating cell
Resonate with love song
Alive in love
I choose to live in love

Isn't It Romantic

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An Angel N My Life
We All Need 1 or 2 Of Those
I Am Indeed Blessed To Know Her
<3

Almost every night
When I get ready for bed
I imagine a lover waiting for me
While I do all manner of strip teasing

Cute
Tired
Hard

I hold in my heart the intention
Of feeling open and loved and desired
I do this lil ritual to manifest and live
The sexy life I want

Be the change you want to see in the world
Be the change you want to see in your world

I am jacking up the sensuality & the romance
Because slowly but surely
I'm accepting this is something I cannot escape...
I believe in love

I may be terrified of love sometimes
The boy & girl kind at least
But I'm learning so much and can't wait
To meet my various lovers

Everything is happening so fast
My time with Beaux taught me so much
About what I want, who I want, what I need
I'm getting closer to understanding that part of me

I've gone a long time denying my inner self
When it come to the old l-o-v-e
I'm getting better at that, getting closer
I feel him, me, us filled with joy

It's inevitable

Pull Hard

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Like Spring
I Wanna Gush
Breasts Heavy
Milk Me
I've Got So Much Love To Give

I Want To Discover Someone
Inch By Inch
I'm Tired Of Rushing In
Fools Rush...

I'm Changing Somehow
I'm Craving Romance
Suspense
Anticipation
Normally
I Go Right For T Pants

It's Good To Take Your Time

Alexander Says
He Hears My Words Changing
My Thoughts, My Wants, My Dreams
I've Noticed Too

How Much Long Must I Wait?
My Body Is Aching For Love

I'm N T Mood For...

So
I'm Learning How To B Romantic
I Think I Learn Best By Doing
So
Universe, Send Me A Man Who Can Teach Me
About Romance And T Sensual Delights
So
I Can Learn A Little More
About T Woman I Want To B

I Want This...

From Nerve.com
Dating Confessions

"I still can't believe she will take her clothes off for me. I never, ever tire of that. It always makes me feel like some undersexed teenager even after all these years together."

I want this
Maybe not the 'years' part
But
T awe
T lust
T gratitude

Samurai has taught me
That requiring worship of a man
Is not too much to ask
Especially not someone with my 'rack'
Hahaha
He is a blesssing and I adore him

Misssing

Flesh

Main Entry:	flesh
Part of Speech:	noun
Definition:	body tissue, skin
Synonyms:	beef, brawn, cells, corpuscles, fat, fatness, flesh and blood, food, meat, muscle, plasm, plasma, protoplasm, sinews, thews, weight

Main Entry:	flesh
Part of Speech:	noun
Definition:	humankind
Synonyms:	animality, carnality, homo sapiens, human nature, human race, humanity, living creatures, mortality, people, physical nature, physicality, race, sensuality, stock, world

Takin It Easyyy

Tonight Over Tarot
I Was Hit With A Wave Of Falling In Love
Again
I Felt My Chest Radiating
My Eyes Filled W Tears
I Felt My Lips Shaking
As I Explained To Alexander
That I Feel Someone Coming
Into My Life
From My Past Life
We Are Unfinished
And He Is A Great Lover Of Mine

I'm Working On Myself
To B T Feminine Equal
To T Man I Desire
I Don't Have Far To Go
But I'll B Bringin Strong Powerful Men N
I Need To B Able To Stay Balanced
Grounded
Connected
With Myself, My Wants, My Dreams
I Sometimes Lose Sight Of Those Things
When Boys R Involved
I'm Working On It
I Love And Accept Myself

Thanksss

I Just Wanted To Say

He Showed Me How To Love My Tummy
By Lusting Over & Loving It
Genuinely & Happily & Unabashedly

You Made Me Love My Ass

Rewriting

I Haven't Been Posting
Because
Everything Is Changing So Fast
T Minute I Express/Write/Dance
A Thought Or Feeling
It Changes Or T Game Changes

I'm Feeling So Proud Of Myself

Don't Worryyy

I'm Very Good And Strong And Open

It's An Emotional Process
I'm An Emotional Person
So I'm Emotional Right Now

I'm Working On Being Brave

Working On My Own Guide To Life

My Own Religion

On Being T Woman I Want To Be

Chris Said:
T Berlin Wall Of Becca Starts To Come Down
(As Of My 25th Birthday)
And It Really Has

Exciting Timesss
Tremendous Timesss
Sexy Timesss

Frankly My Dearrr

What are you thinking of right now?
Thinking nothing, trying to relax my tummy

What makes you laugh?
Loving Teasing

What makes you cry?
Teasing

What do you consider to be the greatest invention?
The IUD

Do you have a mentor or inspirational figure who has guided or influenced you?
Manyyy

Where do you feel most at home?
In A Healthy Body

Where are you right now?
My Amazzzing Bed

What is your proudest achievement in work?
Moving People

What is your proudest achievement in life?

Who I Am Today

What do you most dislike about contemporary culture?
Disconnection W N T Earth & T Body (One And T Same)

What do you most like about the age we live in?
This Is T Dawning Of T Aggge Of Aquarius...

At what points do life and work intersect?
I Feel Like Mine Work Together...They Take Turns To Teach Me But They're Always Intertwined

What’s the best advice you’ve been given?
Instant Forgiveness...Read 'You Can Heal Your Life'...Fly As High As You Can

What is the biggest risk you’ve ever taken?
Moving To London...Next! (It's Coming, I Feel It Stirring N My Heart, T Next Adventure Is Moving Swiftly My Way, Bringing Warm Windsss)

Recommend a book or poem that has changed your perspective on life.
You Can Heal Your Life...A New Earth...Eleven Minutes...

What is your earliest childhood memory?
Bouncing on my springy horse on St Andrew St

What’s the most important relationship in your life?
My inner child

What’s the most romantic action you’ve taken?
...I can't answer this...maybe I'm not romantic!

What’s the most spiritual action you’ve taken?
1st level reiki attunement

If you could wish for one change in the world what would it be?
Equality

If you could add one question to the readers what would it be?
You get to/must fuck me...I have to do everything you ask...and will with pleasure
What do you ask me to do?

Dove

Let's Take A Minute
And Pause
And That Pause Can B Filled
W Everything
I've Been Thinking About
To Do W You
Over T Last Couple Weeks
...
Good!
Now That's Done W!
Whew!
It's Been So Hard
Because I'm Getting To T Stage Of This Issue
Where Everything's Pretty Wrapped Up
T Charm Has Worn Off
I Can B Honest About My Part N Things
But
I Feel Like I'll Still Think On Him
Him As A Symbol OR Archetype OR Energy
Not Him As 'He'
Until
T Next Lovely One Comes Along

That's T Way It Goes I Think
Even After T Dust Has Settled
There Is A Stillness Which Hangs N T Air
T Pause Between T N And Out Breathe
T Moment Of Rushing Deafness
Before Hitting T Glass Top Of A Muskoka Lake
T High Of T Seconds Before A First Kisss
There Is This Space
Which We All Must Make Room For
And Recognize N T Natural Cycles Of Our Life
So
We Can Make This Fuckin Crazy Life
A Bit Easier

Sighhh
And That's My Lil Rant
And I'm Content
How Can I Not B?
Look At THIS Portrait!
www.sharlenawood.com
What An Incredible Woman She Is
And
A Constant Inspiration For Me
N Art & Expression
N Positivity & Spirituality
N Navigation & Love
<3

Watched Jim Morrison Biopic
W Val Kilmer
What A Fuckin Dream Boat
And What A Crazy Film
And What A Hardcore Life

I Guess You Don't Have That Much Left
When U Live That Hardcore
I've Not Been At Jim Morrison Levels
But I've Been Burnin T Candle At Both Ends
Since I Turned 25
And It's Time To Scale Back A Bit

T Candy Makes People Mean
I Don't Feel Mean
But Sometimes I Feel Thin, Like Piano Wire
And Somehow Focus Shifts
From T In To T Out
It's A Glam Drug Because It's Superficial
Because It's Inflating
Because It's Keyyyed Up
And I Don't Want A Part N It Anymore
I Don't Want To Support Wars
I Don't Want To Support Fear
Boundary
Set
Very Happpy!

Another Boundary I Have Set For Myself
I Can Only Fuck Guys W Big Dicks
Or I Would Allow Guys W Average Dicks
Who Alreadyyy Own Large & Lovely Dildos
Cause It's What I Need
And That's Totally Fine
I Have To Comfortable W That
(Plus I Need Musclesss
I'm Too Fit & Hot To Not Get Tossed Around)
Boundary
Set
Sooo Happyyy

Mmmm
Dreaming Of My Perfect Next Lover Date
I Dream Of Mutual Masturbation
N Straight Backed Chairs
Sitting Across From Each Other
Out Of Reaching Distance
Almost (As Possible) Fully Clothed
Nipple Peeking There
Lots Of Leg Here
But Cunt & Cock Fully Exposed
Dress Over Belly
Trousers Stretching Over Knees
Front On
Face To Face
Fucking Ourselves
I Feel Like
If A Man Can Do That W Me
And B Very Happy
And Satisfied
Though Obviously Patiently Waitin & Lustin To Pounce
This Is A Man For Me
This Is A Mind For Me
This Is A Moment I Craaave
I've Got To Learn How To Have That Energy Myself First
Gotta B T Change I Wanna B
Gotta B T Man I Wanna Bring N

Be Prepared

I Went Out Today
And Stocked Up On 2 Kinds Of Batteries
I Popped NTo Sh! While Shoppin W Beaux
Got My Fav Lube, Maximus
& Some Non Latex, Skyn, Condoms

I Am Manifesting A Lover Here
And I Am Serious
So I Gotta Treat Myself
T Way I Wanna B Treated

Daaate Niiighhht
Me
Myself
And
I

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I've been thinking a lot about blindfolds lately
It is one of my most favourite thingsss
<3

15:36 Samurai

kk, going to eat breakfast, baby-sex-kitten

15:37 Ruby

:) Lovely Catch Up

15:37 Samurai

yes yes

15:37 Ruby

/lick from head to toe

15:38 Samurai

ill imagine you drinking the come as it spurts out of the end of my dickhead

as i make breakfast

into your beautiful face

15:38 Ruby

Oh jesus christ

Sooo hot

15:38 Samurai

you have no idea

how much i cant wait to see my penis in your superbeauty face

your eyes looking up at me

more later...

SUCH
A Good Mondayyy

Lil Help

I have a problem
And I'm not sure how to solve it

But every time I've tried to write it here
I've drafted 3 or 4 perspectives
I erased it
Because the answer is so obvious
I feel silly and busted for low self esteem
By expressing it

I just need to focus on the kind people in my life

It really is a sucky feeling
To be disappointed in someone
I shouldn't expect someone to be something
But when someone hurts or disrespects or reduces you
It's hard not to be disappointed

There are so many wonderful people in my life
There are so many wonderful parts of me

I need a change in perspective
Hello daylight savings
Hello sun
Hello summer
Goodbye winter
Goodbye cold
Goodbye Saturn

Rooocket

I
Am
Done

Sooo
Sooo
Sooo
Dooone

It Has To Come To T End
T Insanity
T Same Choices
T Same Conclusions
Just A Different
Time
Place
Man
So Obvious Now

So?

Yes
It's True
I Still Dance Around My Kitchen Once & Awhile
Imagining Scenarios Where You Sweep Me N Your Arms
Always Some Big Public Dramatic Event

But
It's Just For Fun
I Don't Actually Want That From You
I'm Not Kidding Myself
I Know You're Not...It
I Just Like You And It's Spring

And
I Won't Love You For Years
I Probably Won't Like You For Months
Couldn't You Just Give Me Your Now?
Soonish...

So
Is It Too Much To Ask
For You To Kiss Me Dramatically
During An Improvised Duet Dance Routine
In Front Of All My Friends And 100's Of People

Cause
I'd Like Some Fun
And God Knows You Need It
And Naked Sweaty Fun Is T Most Fun
Hurry Before T Lust-For-You Chemicals Wear Off

Out Like A Lion

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How Fierce Is This
It's How Fierce I Feel
I'm Proud
I'm Energized
I'm Present

Oh Spring!
All Winds And Blossoms And Revelations

That Long Moody Cold Winter
Makes You All T More Inspiring
I Want To Gush Like Youuu

Her Majestyyy

Ohhh Sharlena Wood
What A Creative Force Of Nature!
I'm Constantly Inspired By Her
And Always Flattered
T Next N T Candlelight Series
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I'm Feeling Fabulous
I Just Have To Sayyy

Whew!
T Last Couple Months
Since Novemberrr
Have Been Long & Challenging & Motivating
I Feel Like I've Faced So Many Ugly Parts
Of My Past
Of Myself
Of My Peoples
I've Very Much Felt T Need To Hide A Bit
Retreat Into My Scorpio Den
Since T Cold End Of Jan
But I Feel Like It's Been A Healthy Retreat
With It's Unhealthy Moments
I've Been Reflecting A Lot
Searching Myself
Lots Of Yoga
Lots Of Dreaming
Lots Of Green

Spring Is Here
Spring Is Here
Spring Is Here
Breeeatheee

I'm Realizing Some Of My Dreams For This Life
Not Realizing As N Actualization
Well Bit-By-Bit, That's True!
But Realizing What My True Heart Dreams Are
And What Makes Me (And My Inner Child) Happy

Some Things I've Learned...

Yoga Is Very Important To Me
I Love It And Want To Do It Everyday
And I Would Love To Attend A Yoga Retreat This Year

If I Want To Be A Supermodel
I Better Start Wearing Heels More
Oh
And I'm Gunna Be A Supermodel

A Smile
Even When You Don't Feel Like It
Makes Others Feel Great

It's Not In My Nature
To Deny Love
To Others
But I Deny It To Myself
Too Often
I Am Getting Much Betterrr...

What Is Most Fun For Me & My Inner Child?
Sex, Sexy Things, Sexuality, Flirting, Talking About Sex, Using My Sex
Sex Sex Sex
Seriouslyyy
Not Like N A Fiend Way
More That I Love T Constant Swirl & Buzz Of Creative & Sexual Energy
It Brings Everything To Life
N A Technicolour, Mythical, Humorous Way
And
Let Me Tell You
When I Am Denied Or Feel Like I Am Being Denied Sex
Temper Tantrum!
As Christopher Witecki Would Say

I'm Workin On My 'Wank Bank'
LOL
As Sophia St Villier Calls It
I'm Workin On It
I Wanna Have Some Good Ideas
For My Next Lover
I'm Curious About T Next Level
Of Intimacy And Boundary

Dear Universe,
Please Take Your Time W T Next One
I Deserve To B Treated Like A Queen
By A Renaissance Hero
And N T Meantime, I Have A Kingdom To Run
<3

I Keep Getting This Intense Feeling
Like I'm Falling N Love
N Another Time N This Life
And It Feels So Close
Have I Told You This Before?
It Hits Me Once Or Twice A Week
Alexander Is Feeling T Same

See Me Feel Me Touch Me

It's such a pleasure to touch your skin
To touch your skin
It's such a pleasure to touch your heart
To touch your heart
I can hardly wait

I couldn't bare it, to live for fear
Of undressing you
You're in my world all the time
All the time

I'll wait 'til you arrive
To make it to the grave
And I couldn't have done
Anything else

A gentle love
A gentle heart
(2x)

All things that cause you trouble cause pain

It's such a pleasure to touch your skin
To touch your skin
It's such a pleasure to touch your heart
I can hardly wait

And I'm waiting to hear you now
To make it to the grave
And I couldn't have done
Anything else
I couldn't have done
Anything else

...



Exactly How I Feel Right Now
...

I Just Can't Shake It Guys
I Can't Shake Him
He Got Inside
And I Feel Him N My Bones
Breathing Deeply
Rolling My Head N Slow Circles
I Release It
I Don't Hope Or Wait
You're Already Here

Addicted

I'm
N
Looove
I'm
N
Looove
I'm
N
Love
W
A
Strict
Machiiine
<3

Post #169

Sent T Original Photo To Samurai
Subject:
I Just Want You...
Msg:
To Worship Me
Is That So Much To Ask?

To Which He Replied:
Not At All...And Wrote Me A Delicious Note
I'm Very Lucky Girl

And I'm A Veryyy Lucky Girl
Because Of T Lovely And Talented: Sharlena
www.sharlenawood.com
I Feel So Blessed
And Moved To B As Free & Sexual & Beautiful
As I Can B
No Judgment, Just Art
Big Love

So I Feel Like A Fog Has Been Lifted
I Didn't Have A Rain Cloud Following Me
I Felt As If I Was Wearing A Shroud
A Shield Of My Own Construction
But I Know Myself
And I Know These Times Pass
And They Do So, Faster Every Time

I Feel Like I Had A Lot Of Processing To Do
Beaux Was T First Man I Had Been Intimate W
N Almost 2 Years!
I Didn't Take N My History
I Wasn't Gentle With Myself Or Him Sometimes
I'm Learning
He Triggered A Lot Of My Ego Traps
Big Painful Vulnerable Ones
It's Been Incredibly Expansive & Enlightening
To See Each Little Weed Pop Up
And I Did Not Expect It
It Was Supposed To Just B A Fuck
It's Never Just A Fuck
I Always Fall A Little Bit N Love

I'm Ready Again
To Fall A Little Bit N Love
And Take A Running Tumble Down A Mountain Of Lust
I Want Muscles
I Want Come
I Want To B Shocked & Nervous & Wild

Life Lesssons

I'm learning to take my time

Surf & Turf

Betwiched


Bothered


Bewildered

3 Subtle Versions
T Latest From T Lovely Sharlena
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A Great Blog For Artists Of All Kinds
She's So Dedicted
To Her Craft & Her Positivity & Her Dream
So Inspiring

I'm feeling so sexy latelyyy
I'm itching for summer love & sun

I'll be brief
Because I want time with myself
I love and want and neeed my time

Had a big couple of cries on Monday
Tired body + PMS + Worrying Mind = Breakdown
I'm getting better at letting myself cry
Believe or not
I'm not always cool with my feminine side
Har Har Har
I'm a Scorpio
A Crustacean
Hard shell
Big hot stinger
Soft & squishy inside

I'm thinking about starting another blog
A non anonymous one
To replace my FB
I love FB but I want something more creative
More of a journal
Some photo blogs
I've got lots of ideas simmering
To Be Continued...

I Can Feel Summer Blooming N My Bones

You'd have me do unethical things to your body, wet cunt and almond oiled
hot ass and clit, wouldn't you?

It Has Taken Me Daysss To Answer This Naughty Question
Still Haven't
I'm Thinking Of Writing Him A Story
Like This One I Wrote
Think I May Have Shared Before
Inspired By Samurai:

Fuck Me Now Future Lover
My Body Cannot Wait Anymore
To Feel Your Full Lips
Suck, Suck, Sucking My Clit
Myyy Little Hard On
Fucking Your Gorgeous Face

I'll Want You Inside My Bottom
My Whole Ass and Sacrum Aching For The Feel
Of Your Strong Freight-Train-Cock And Hips
Bouncing Off My Ass, Hips And Thighs

You Strum Your Slick Oiled Cock
Between My Shapely Cheeks, With One Marble Hand
As You Grab A Fistful Of My Chocolate Hair
Pulling And Arching My Flexible Body To Yours

'Fuck Me...Oh My God, Please'

You Kiss My Silky Back...'Okay Angel'

I Feel Your Hot Cock Lips Kiss My Rosebud
Before I Swallow Up Your Curved, Perfect Dick
No Sound Escapes My Lips
As I Squeeze And Twist My Full Rack
And My Charged, Raspberry & Rose Centers

And You'll Brush My Hand Away From My Humming Clit
As You Pump My Wet Quivering Asshole
I Wonder What Sounds I'll Make?
As Orgasm Rocks Through My Bucking Bottom

I Want To Feel Your Hot Come
Stringing and Spraying
Over My Still Vibrating Ass and Hips
To Smell You Through The Sweat And Breath
As You Rub And Slap Your Manly Scent Into My Skin

I Want You Inside Me Again
This Time It's My Tight Pussy
Aching And Dripping For You

On My Back, My Whole Hand Gripping My Sex
Kneading And Rolling
As My Still Bouncing Hips Gyrate, Dance
Squeezing My Eager Cunt And My Exhausted Ass

I Am Alone In The Middle Of My Bed
My Other Hand Exploring My Mouth
I Feel Your Strong Hands Grip Below My Knees
Before You Drag Me Toward Your Crystal Covered Glans

I Love To Watch My Swollen Cunt
Opening And Sucking My Lovers Dick
My Own Little Hardcore Porn

I Push Myself Onto My Hands
As I Spread My Legs Wide For You
I Can Smell My Creamy Sex, I Know You Can Too
I Slip 2 Fingers Inside My Flowing Pussy
1 For Me And 1 For You...

My Glistening Finger Dips Into Your Mouth
And I Watch You Relish My Juices
As I Suck On My Own Dripping Digit

I Bite Down Hard, When I Feel Your Teeth
Close Around One Of My Hard, Hot Nipples
My Fingers Slide Back Into My Soaking Hole
To Paint My Other Aching Pink Nip

I Grip Your Hair and Groan
As You Swallow My Whole, Full Breast
I Feel My Thighs Widen Even Further
I Breathe Deeply, Our Combined Scents Filling The Air

I Wrap My Legs Around Your Waist
Pulling You Into My Soft, Sexy Body
My Hungry Cunt Soaking Your Balls
Your Cock, Bouncing Along My Tummy
A Crystal Trail Of Pre-Come..
....

But This Took Me Daysss
Better Get Started
Fuuuck
Wanna Post A Pic Sooo Bad Right Now
It's Mega Hot!
But I Send It To Shar
We Will Have It Captured N Fine Art

Sent A Pic To Samurai Too
He Always Says T Nicest Things
Speaking Of Which
Back To Answering T Above Question
I've Got Erotica Work To Do

Possibilities...
Leather Bondage Whips, T Usual 'Unethical'
Or
Hitachi Torture Sounds Pretty Intense & Essential To Wicked Fun
Or
Something More Psychological

Had This Mad Fantasy Going On T Other Night
My Partner From T Future
Came Back N Time To Me
Him N His 50's, Silver Fucking Sex Fox
W My 2 Late Teen/Early 20's Sons
Yaddi Yaddi Yadda
They All Fucked Me
I'll DEFINITELY Be Writing That Story
N It's Entirety Soon

Fassscination

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The Joyful Artist, Indeed!
A Bright & Honest Light N My Life
Lovin T Blind Fold Series
But
Then Again
I Looove A Blind Fold

So
I'm Baaack
And I'm Feeling Good
Yesterday Was A Slightly Crazyyy Day
And It Was Also Very Fascinating

I Used To Get Sooo Worked Up About Things
Sooo Caught Up N Emotion That I Didn't Know What To Do W Myself
And Yesterday Was T First Time
N A Long Time
That I've Felt This Way
What Was Fascinating?
Was N T Midst Of The Emotion There Was A Voice Saying...
Should U Really Be Getting This Upset?
You Have Your Health & A Home & So Many Blessings!
Even When I Tried My HARDEST To Feel Serious About My Bad Mood
I Couldn't!
It Was Wonderful
So T Mood Was There And I Knew It Would Pass

So Nice To Have My Self Awareness Cutting Through Like That
I've Never Experienced That During A Tantrum
Usually T Awareness Comes After & I Give My Head A Shake & Move On

I'm Also Aware I've Been A Bit Reckless Lately
With My Feelings, My Thoughts & My State Of Being
And I Believe When It Comes To T Spiritual
It's Intertwined So Seamlessly W T Physical Body
Sooo
You Wanna Change Shit?
Well You Can Start W T Affirmations & T Loving Thoughts
Or You Can Start W T Healthy Eating & T Fresh Air
Chicken Or T Egg Really
I've Realized My Strength Of Heart & Mind Were Suffering
Because I Was Abusing Myself W Sloth & Substances & Sexlessness

I Haven't Come N Weeks
And It's Bothering Me
Not For Lack Of Trying!
But I'm Thinking Once I've Reconnected To My Body
Found My Stillness & Space Again
T Orgasms Will Follow Right Behind

I Wonder About Lovers...
Where Is My Virgo?
My Kinky Gentleman
After All This BS W Beaux
I'm So Happy I've Not Met Someone
I've Learned So Much About My Needs & Wants & Needs Works
N Such A Short Amount Of Time
I'm Not Sure If I'm Readyyy
But I Wanna B
And I Wanna B Touched
And I Wanna B Brave
And I Wanna B Dizzyyy

And I Wonder About 2012...
What Will Happen Between Now & Then
And Then After
I Want To Be Ready For That Too
For My 'Personal Apocalypse'
(Says My Astrologer, Christopher Witecki)
For Everyone Else's Crazy Times
I Wanna B Strong
I Wanna B Balanced
I Wanna B Fair
I Believe I Am These Things
But I Believe We'll All B Challenged As We Never Have
I'm Fucking Up For It

And I Wonder About My Mother...
I Worry About Her
I Want Her To B Happy
Though I'm Sure She's A Fuckload More Grounded Than Me
I Wonder If She'll Ever Know Love & Sex Like She Deserves
I Don't Know A Tonne About T Sex Part
Some Tense Discussion Here & There
Ma And I R Night & Day When It Comes To All That Jazz
But T Men
Even My Own Father
Such Disappointments! How Did THEY Win HER?
She's Not Perfect But She's A Total Package

And I Wonder About Art...
What Am I Meant To Create?
Will I Always B T Muse Or One Day Will I Master?
I Adore Being A Muse & Respect Artists So Much
I Take My Role Very Seriouslyyy
And I Want To Learn More So I Can Be Better
Beaux Told Me My Body Is A Renaissance Style
A La 'Leda & T Swan'
Flatterrred
So Excited For My Next Chance To Model Live
I Love To Watch Work Come Together Before My Eyesss
Peek Over Sketchbooks N My Poses

Goshhh
I Really Am Blessed
<3

Happy VDayyy

It's not that I've been avoiding my blog
It's just
Every time I've sat down to write
I've felt like there's so much
Where to begin?
And that I didn't want to put anything down
As it's all changing so fast!

But now
It's 3:08 AM
And I'm hoppped up on sugar and whiskey
And I'm gunna write something damn it!

Today was fucking weird
I spent most of it with Beaux
Just friends
But there was so much beneath the surface
I felt off balance
Things, I guess, I wanted, need, to discuss
Before the whole 'friend' thing can happen properly

But here's the thing about him
He's kinda 'new' for me
Him as a person...
Hmmm How to make this make sense...

I've never met someone with his temperament before
It kinda baffles me
My normal way of working, just doesn't work
And I'm thinking, it's my way of working, being, that needs to change
Cause...
Beaux was not the one who stormed out of lunch today
Downing a digestif
And ending up teary and confused on Brick Lane
That was moi!

That's it for now
I neeed to rest
<3

Feelin Soft

Grrr
I've Been Sorta Grumpy
Sorta Pensive
And Very Horny Over T Last 2 Weeks
Things On My Mind
Family Stuff x 2
Money Money Money
What Do I Want To Do W My Life?
What's My Purpose?
Beaux
My Hair
Sex
Sex
Sex
Mostly
I Feel Like T Reason I Was Sexed Up
Was...I Was Processing A Lot Of Emotion
And I Was Craving Communication & Intimacy & Release
Not T Kind Of Convos You Have W Your Best Girls Or Gays
And T Masturbation Was Just Not Happening
Not Happening
Sometimes You Just Want To B Held
Sometimes You Just Want To B Fucked
Seriously Y'All
I'm So Ready For A New Lover
Like
Come Onnn Universe
Cooome Onnn

I Surrender

I Just Need To Keep Breathing

It Will Pass



Seriouslyyy
Who Could Say 'No' To This Face?
She Flatters Me So
Sees My Sweet Side!
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Morninggg Muse(ings)

Woke Up To 2 Versions Of This Sketch
And A Beautiful Email From Miss Sharlena
Absolutely Adore!
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Had a lil fete at Soho House last night
Hence the champagne soaked previous entry

Two people said to me:
Something has changed in you

It was wonderful to hear from others
As I've felt it too
You've read it!
My blog went from CAPS lock rants
Horny and frustrated and searching
To a stream of my souls consciousness
Still horny and sometimes frustrated
Searching but with an anchor
Inside myself

I reread yesterdays blog and thought to myself
Okay Angel
You know you've been here before
What will be different this time?

And I think that's key
In our cyclical lives
To take each pass at the 'good' and the 'bad'
Without judgment or too much worry or negativity
To challenge yourself to do things different this time

Although part of me worries about letting go of people I love
To expand and grow in myself and to allow them to do the same
I have to trust that it's what's best for all of us
That we can grow together too or grow back together another time

This song lyrics keeps playing over and over and over
"Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else' game"

And that's at the core of my change
It's my game
It's my life
It's my dream

MmmMmmMmm

I am drunk on champagne & youth
I am indestructible, and angry...when I am destructible
I am scared

You know how some fish grow as big as their bowl
I feel I've grown as big as my bowl
And I'm scared because I worry that some things/people/places
Aren't big enough for my bowl anymore

I'm probably just worrrying
Sometimes I worry, bad habit
This feels like a state of being I remember
I can't quite pinpoint it
Things are changing rapidly, and I'm trying
To make heart sense of it all
To stay neutral and let things happen
To fill myself with love
I can't help but feel like I've known it all before
Like this is a phase/cycle/state I've known
And it scares me because
Well
I let people go
I can, easily
And that's not as easy for others
As it is for me
But it's my nature
Yes or No
Black or White
Soft or Hard
I don't much like the in between

Ohhh I'm blathering on
While I should be enjoying the champagne bubbles in my brain

Everything is fine
The world is crumbling and rebuilding
The people I meet are wonderful and horrible
The love is obvious and illusive

It's about what company/state/consciousness I keep
I guess that's what's worrying
Sometimes

I feel like I want time alone
But the truth is
I only want time with a lover
I want time where I don't have to speak
I don't have to explain
I just want to move and act like my heart wants
I just want to feel and know another without words
I'm so sick of talking and analyzing and knowing
I just want to be
With someone
I just want to be there

I sent the original photo to Samurai
Bow N Presence
I demanded
Or something like that
My first proper experimentation as a dom
Ooo Lah Lahhh

Thank you Sharlena
For capturing me
N a powerful, sensual & feminine moment
<3
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Keyyyed Up...Freed Up

So
Here's T Deal

I have achieved some fabulous career success already in 2010
To the point where I now know:
I will be debt free as of the end of the year
I will be working only as a performer, as an artist
I will be fine

Yes
I knew this anyway
I believed it
And I'm so pleased to finally see it manifest
And in such a fun, joyful and gentle way
And now...

Now that the worry side of my brain is quiet
And I listen and mediate and respect that side
I feel I have the freedom to do whatever I want
I'll continue working as a performer
I'll continue with my fabulous pals & partying & my experimenting
I'll continue with the boys & the booze & the biz
I want a little more
I want more excitement
I'm high on life and I want another hit

I want a whirlwind international romance
Filled with champagne & sights & sex
I want to know men
Who equal me in love, spirituality & sensuality
Who challenge me on my judgments, my efforts & my perspective
Who surprise & delight & inspire me

This, I feel, should not be so hard
Because I meet absolutely fabulous
Sexy
Enlightening men
On a very regular basis
It's only a matter of time before the next big one comes along
And I feel the moment fast approaching
Almost like a cinematic slow-motion fall
My character is dropping without flailing
As if she swan dived
I'm just about to hit the ground
It's been years since I began falling

Soon

Sharlena is welcoming in Spring!
With bold & brave pink
Adore her & it
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Strike A Pose

Sketch By: Sharlena Wood
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This Lovely Lady Has Sent Me A Package
A Sketch N T Mail
Of Meee
Our Very First Collaboration!
Veryyy Excited

I Will Hang It Proudly N My Boudoir
Perhaps Over My Bed
N My Success Corner
'Success' Meaning How You Wish To Be Seen/Known N T World
I Would Love To B Known For Being A
Sensual
Beautiful
Artistic Creature
C'est Perfect!

I got my 1st tattoo todayyy
Just a little thing
3 white dots
In a vertical line
On my left wrrrist
3 is something I try to surround myself with
As much as possible
And a number I find comfort in

Birth, Life, Death

It's constant, it's cyclical, it's organic

The sketch above was one of a pair
I sent to Samurai
Around the time of my first pussy portrait
For him or anybody!
I sent him this headshot
With a cuntshot

Subject:
One Of These Things...

Msg:
Is A Lot Like The Other!
:x

It was this pairing that first made me dream of an exhibition
'Letters To Lovers' or something
All my erotic photos accompanied with the little notes
And the hot thankful replies
For all to see and enjoy and get turned on by
Perhaps the curator would fly Samurai over here
Have us meet for the first time
In front of an opening night crowd of voyeurs
I would jump him
I would run, jump, wrap my legs around him
I would not let go until utter sexual exhaustion forced me to

A girl can dreammm
: x

Big Looove

This Is A Fast Favourite
I Keep Coming Back To It
Can't Stop Coming Back To It

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Mmmmmm
Have Been Getting Buzzy Hits All Week
Sexy Moments
Keeping Me Permanently Turned On

French Dude On My Latest Job
We Eye Fuck Each Other
Coyly & Outright During Our Sessions

Lunch W Beaux
Lust City
His Eyes Flicked Towards My Lap
My Black Denimed Legs Tightly Crossed
Hand Pressed Against My Clit
I Didn't Even Notice
I Jumped
I Recognized The Look On His Face
We Laughed Over Each Others Horniness

Many Cute Gentlemen On The Tube

Samurai
And His Sex Coated Brain
And Emails
Been Looking At Old Onesss
Puuurrrrrr

Newww Loverrr
Coming Soon
Mark My Words
: x

Sooo N Love W U Am I

Sharlenaaa
Goddesss!

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Love Her

And
So
N
Luuust
W
Samuraiii
OMGGG
My clit is almost buzzing off my body

He sends me little notes
Lil hot fucking nothings
He's sweet like that
Sometimes I get a sentence
Sometimes I get a story

Today I got:

Can't Wait To Smell And Taste The Cunt Of One Of The Most Beautiful Sexual Women Ever

I feel like my pussy is growing teeth
And I want to eat him up
I need to get my fucking wet ass to NYC
I need this man
I need to know him
I need thisss

Black Velvet

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I sent Shar 5 emails tonight
3 or 4 photos each
Featuring me in various accessories
Black thigh high stockings
Long midnight gloves
Noir blind fold

I can't wait to see what wonderment she spins out!

I sent along a few photos to my Samurai
2 emails

The first
Subject:
A Girl Likes To...

Msg:
...Dress Up Sometimes
: x
(Side note: I'm not a mega fan of dressing up etc
I'd rather focus on sex skills and advanced play than fabric
But 'sometimes')

Attached were 3 photos of me
In my sexy finery

His reply: You look sooo good with dark hose, gloves and hair.
I want my cock slurping in and out of your slippery-soaked strong cunt while I stare at your beauty

I looove him
Such a fucking macho man
Sooo refreshing

The second
Subject: Please Babyyy...

Msg:
Fuck Me
Fuck Me
Fuck Me
: x

3 more photos attached

His reply: I wanna watch those sexy breasts heave and shake while I pump your slick open ass

I actually snarled when I received that

I want to destroy him with my sex

I told him I want to tear him apart and put him back together again
And I fucking do
Sooo much

2010
It's our year babyyy
Speaking of which
Cause now I'm all sharey
And lovey over Samurai
Sent me a super sweet NYE message

Subject:
Happy New Year from your FL
(Future Lover...Love It!)

Msg:
We will fuck and come all over and inside each other this year baby.
Want you
/kiss at midnight

And
He WAS my midnight kiss
And
I wouldn't have had it any other way
And
I could go on for days and days about my Samurai

How do I lust thee?
Let me count the ways...