Happy VDayyy

It's not that I've been avoiding my blog
It's just
Every time I've sat down to write
I've felt like there's so much
Where to begin?
And that I didn't want to put anything down
As it's all changing so fast!

But now
It's 3:08 AM
And I'm hoppped up on sugar and whiskey
And I'm gunna write something damn it!

Today was fucking weird
I spent most of it with Beaux
Just friends
But there was so much beneath the surface
I felt off balance
Things, I guess, I wanted, need, to discuss
Before the whole 'friend' thing can happen properly

But here's the thing about him
He's kinda 'new' for me
Him as a person...
Hmmm How to make this make sense...

I've never met someone with his temperament before
It kinda baffles me
My normal way of working, just doesn't work
And I'm thinking, it's my way of working, being, that needs to change
Cause...
Beaux was not the one who stormed out of lunch today
Downing a digestif
And ending up teary and confused on Brick Lane
That was moi!

That's it for now
I neeed to rest
<3