I was walking along the sunny canal
Feeling my goddess energy
Radiating health, sex and love
I see a man approaching me on a bike
He is what I imagine MJ would look like
If he was never famous
If he was still black and unaltered
If he was still alive
Rough But Symetrical Face
Ripped Lean Body
I can see him looking at me
But not staring or ogling
So I keep the pleasant expression fixed on my face
Breathe
And remind myself to be present
His face is almost out of my view
As he coasts past me
And I hear him
Almost under his breath
But it carries
Because he has one of those growly, dark voices
And this all happened in the matter of 3 - 5 seconds
He says 'Nice Tits'
It was such a strong sexual moment
His words hit me with such force
My breath was caught
Then...
I immediately felt the blood rush to my clit
And my lips, both sets, flush
A smile spread across my face
This is the wonder of fantasy life
The fantasies you can only have and love in your mind
The next 10 or so minutes of my walk
Were devoted to what would've happen in my sex dimension
The alternate reality I live in
Where all interaction happens through sex
He would pass me on his bike
'Nice Tits' he'd spit
Before he grabbed me by my hair
And slammed me against cold, soft steel bars
No unwanted pain in fantasy
People on bikes, on walks
Pass us casually
As his mouth devours my cunt
As his cocoa cock fucks me
As his dirty hands move from my clit to my mouth
No condom
No lube
No kissing
I would stumble home
Legs still vibrating
My thighs wet with sweat and a strangers come
Smiling
Mmmmmmmmondayyy
In the meantime
My search for a playmate continues
I'm finding men are more responsive to me
When I wear less makeup and hair
It's interesting!
Plus 'No Makeup Summer' is for me
Any unexpected reaction is a bonus
It's nice to feel like people are seeing the real 'me'
And it makes me realize how much makeup changes my face
How it changes symetry, shapes, perception
Life is moving rapidly
Gotta shake off this dusty 'me'
Nothing a little...sun
fruit
mediation
orgasm
writing
photography
flowers
...can't take care of
I'm debating sharing photos on this blog
Would be anonymous still
What do my lovely readers think?
Monday, June 29, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
You Say I'm Crazzzyyy
I AM READY
FOR THE NEXT LOVERS
BRING ON THE NEXT CHALLENGERS
TRUMPETS - DUN DUN DUN NAHHH!
SAMURAI IS STILL AROUND
HORUS IS NO LONGER ALLOWED
I NEED TANGIBLE OPTIONS
LAST NIGHT
ROCKWELL HELD ME IN HIS ARMS
AND ROCKED ME A LITTLE
IT WAS A HARD WEEK FOR BOTH OF US
A HARD DAY
HE WAS WEARING NO SHIRT
AND THE FEELING
OF A MAN HOLDING ME
A MAN TOUCHING MY SKIN
THE SMELL OF A MAN
IT MADE ME MISERABLE
AND IN LOVE
ALL AT THE SAME TIME
I AM READY
TO EMBRACE
TRULY
THAT I AM A BEAUTIFUL SEXY WOMAN
THAT BEAUTIFUL SEXY MEN
WILL WANT TO BE WITH
I GET IT
I'M INTIMIDATING
I'M SCRAPING 5' 9''
CURVYYY
BIG BLONDE HAIR
MY FACE...WELL...IT SAYS 'MODEL' ON MY BUSINESS CARD
; )
I'M OPINIONATED, INTELLIGENT, CONFIDENT AND GUTSY
I'M FUNNY, DITSY, INNOCENT AND WISE
BUT
THE MEN
AND WOMEN
I AM BRINGING IN MY LIFE
DRAWING INTO MY CIRCLES
IT'S ENCOURAGING
BUT
I DON'T WANT TO STOP NOW
I DON'T WANT TO SLOW DOWN
I AM PICKING UP SPEED
I AM MAKING IT OVER THIS HILL
I AM READY
ROCKWELL
ALEXANDER
SAMURAI (I GUESS...)
SO MANY MORE CUTE GUYS
ON BUSES, IN SHOPS, MY NEIGHBOURHOOD
I HAVE TO BE HONEST
THOUGH I MAY SOUND LIKE A SNOB
I DON'T SEE MANY MEN
ON A DAILY BASIS
THAT I AM MOTIVATED TO TALK TO
BASED, SOLELY, ON HOW THEY LOOK
THERE
I SAID IT
I CARE WHAT PEOPLE LOOK LIKE
I CARE WHAT I LOOK LIKE
I LOOK GOOD
AND I AM WORKING ON LOOKING BETTER
I WANT SOMEONE WHO IS PUTTING IN THE SAME EFFORTS
CAUSE I DESERVE SOMEONE AS HOT AS ME DAMN IT
BUT
GOOD NEWS!
I HAAAVE BEEN SEEING MORE BOYS LATELY
IN FACT
QUITE A FEW BOYS
WHERE HAVE THEY BEEN HIDING?
AS IF I DIDN'T KNOW
THE ANGELS ARE LAUGHING
'TOLD YOU SO' THEY SAY
I AM FEELING UNBALANCED
YET I AM FEELING SO SURE
AS A PRESENT, FOR SOME FUTURE LOVERS
I HAVE BEEN TAKING SOME MORE..
HHHMMM
SHALL WE SAY...RACY PHOTOS OF MYSELF
TBH
I WOULD SAY
MOST ARE VERGING OR ARE EROTICA
WHAT BETTER GIFT FOR A LOVER?
THAN A PHOTO OF YOU
ABOUT TO COME?
OR
MASTURBATING THINKING ABOUT THEM?
OR
YOUR NAKED WRITHING BODY?
SERIOUSLY
PLEASE TELL ME A HOTTER GESTURE
I DARE YOU
I HAVE TO ADMIT
I SENT SOME VERRRYYY SEXY PHOTOS OF MYSELF THIS WEEK
AND SOMETIMES I WAS A LITTLE DISAPPOINTED
I SUPPOSE IT COMES WITH THE TERRITORY
I TALK ABOUT ALL THIS
LIKE IT'S NO BIG DEAL
BUT
I GET NERVOUS
AND I AM CONSTANTLY PLUGGING HOLES
IN THE SELF ESTEEM BUCKET
AS MY READERS KNOW
HAHAHA
SO I FEEL VULNERABLE
WHEN I SEND OUT MY PHOTOS
AND I JUST NEED TO KNOW THAT I LOVE THEM
THAT I AM TURNED ON BY MY OWN PHOTOS
AND ANYONE WITH THE KIND OF TASTE AND MIND AND SOUL
THAT I WANT IN MY LIFE
WILL RESPOND TO THEM IN A WAY THAT SATISFIES ME
I'M LOVING MORE PHOTOGRAPHY IN MY LIFE
IT MAKES ME A HAPPY GIRL
FOR THE NEXT LOVERS
BRING ON THE NEXT CHALLENGERS
TRUMPETS - DUN DUN DUN NAHHH!
SAMURAI IS STILL AROUND
HORUS IS NO LONGER ALLOWED
I NEED TANGIBLE OPTIONS
LAST NIGHT
ROCKWELL HELD ME IN HIS ARMS
AND ROCKED ME A LITTLE
IT WAS A HARD WEEK FOR BOTH OF US
A HARD DAY
HE WAS WEARING NO SHIRT
AND THE FEELING
OF A MAN HOLDING ME
A MAN TOUCHING MY SKIN
THE SMELL OF A MAN
IT MADE ME MISERABLE
AND IN LOVE
ALL AT THE SAME TIME
I AM READY
TO EMBRACE
TRULY
THAT I AM A BEAUTIFUL SEXY WOMAN
THAT BEAUTIFUL SEXY MEN
WILL WANT TO BE WITH
I GET IT
I'M INTIMIDATING
I'M SCRAPING 5' 9''
CURVYYY
BIG BLONDE HAIR
MY FACE...WELL...IT SAYS 'MODEL' ON MY BUSINESS CARD
; )
I'M OPINIONATED, INTELLIGENT, CONFIDENT AND GUTSY
I'M FUNNY, DITSY, INNOCENT AND WISE
BUT
THE MEN
AND WOMEN
I AM BRINGING IN MY LIFE
DRAWING INTO MY CIRCLES
IT'S ENCOURAGING
BUT
I DON'T WANT TO STOP NOW
I DON'T WANT TO SLOW DOWN
I AM PICKING UP SPEED
I AM MAKING IT OVER THIS HILL
I AM READY
ROCKWELL
ALEXANDER
SAMURAI (I GUESS...)
SO MANY MORE CUTE GUYS
ON BUSES, IN SHOPS, MY NEIGHBOURHOOD
I HAVE TO BE HONEST
THOUGH I MAY SOUND LIKE A SNOB
I DON'T SEE MANY MEN
ON A DAILY BASIS
THAT I AM MOTIVATED TO TALK TO
BASED, SOLELY, ON HOW THEY LOOK
THERE
I SAID IT
I CARE WHAT PEOPLE LOOK LIKE
I CARE WHAT I LOOK LIKE
I LOOK GOOD
AND I AM WORKING ON LOOKING BETTER
I WANT SOMEONE WHO IS PUTTING IN THE SAME EFFORTS
CAUSE I DESERVE SOMEONE AS HOT AS ME DAMN IT
BUT
GOOD NEWS!
I HAAAVE BEEN SEEING MORE BOYS LATELY
IN FACT
QUITE A FEW BOYS
WHERE HAVE THEY BEEN HIDING?
AS IF I DIDN'T KNOW
THE ANGELS ARE LAUGHING
'TOLD YOU SO' THEY SAY
I AM FEELING UNBALANCED
YET I AM FEELING SO SURE
AS A PRESENT, FOR SOME FUTURE LOVERS
I HAVE BEEN TAKING SOME MORE..
HHHMMM
SHALL WE SAY...RACY PHOTOS OF MYSELF
TBH
I WOULD SAY
MOST ARE VERGING OR ARE EROTICA
WHAT BETTER GIFT FOR A LOVER?
THAN A PHOTO OF YOU
ABOUT TO COME?
OR
MASTURBATING THINKING ABOUT THEM?
OR
YOUR NAKED WRITHING BODY?
SERIOUSLY
PLEASE TELL ME A HOTTER GESTURE
I DARE YOU
I HAVE TO ADMIT
I SENT SOME VERRRYYY SEXY PHOTOS OF MYSELF THIS WEEK
AND SOMETIMES I WAS A LITTLE DISAPPOINTED
I SUPPOSE IT COMES WITH THE TERRITORY
I TALK ABOUT ALL THIS
LIKE IT'S NO BIG DEAL
BUT
I GET NERVOUS
AND I AM CONSTANTLY PLUGGING HOLES
IN THE SELF ESTEEM BUCKET
AS MY READERS KNOW
HAHAHA
SO I FEEL VULNERABLE
WHEN I SEND OUT MY PHOTOS
AND I JUST NEED TO KNOW THAT I LOVE THEM
THAT I AM TURNED ON BY MY OWN PHOTOS
AND ANYONE WITH THE KIND OF TASTE AND MIND AND SOUL
THAT I WANT IN MY LIFE
WILL RESPOND TO THEM IN A WAY THAT SATISFIES ME
I'M LOVING MORE PHOTOGRAPHY IN MY LIFE
IT MAKES ME A HAPPY GIRL
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Seemed To Have A Mentalist Sort Of Aura
CAN'T STAY LONG
LISTENING TO A TERRENCE MCKENNA LECTURE
'UNDERSTANDING AND IMAGINATION IN THE LIGHT OF NATURE'
HEAVY
HEAVY
HEAVY
MAY REQUIRE A 2ND LISTEN
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FXBSJDyeh64&feature=channel_page
THIS FENG SHUI PROJECT
IS ALREADY CHANGING MY LIFE
I AM FEELING STRONG
BRING ON A SEXY, HOT, COLOURFUL, CULTURAL, GLASS HOUSE, SMOKEY, CHAMPAGNE POPPING, RAW FUCKING, LIGHT BURSTING SUMMER
LISTENING TO A TERRENCE MCKENNA LECTURE
'UNDERSTANDING AND IMAGINATION IN THE LIGHT OF NATURE'
HEAVY
HEAVY
HEAVY
MAY REQUIRE A 2ND LISTEN
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FXBSJDyeh64&feature=channel_page
THIS FENG SHUI PROJECT
IS ALREADY CHANGING MY LIFE
I AM FEELING STRONG
BRING ON A SEXY, HOT, COLOURFUL, CULTURAL, GLASS HOUSE, SMOKEY, CHAMPAGNE POPPING, RAW FUCKING, LIGHT BURSTING SUMMER
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Happy 101st Anniversary Baby
2 DAYS SPENT
BUZZING ON CHAMPAGNE, ESPRESSO AND GRASS
TAKING IN
SOAKING IN
DREAMING IN
A GLORIOUS HOUSE IN N. LONDON
A CONSTANT FLOW OF CHAMPAGNE
OF THC
OF LAUGHTER
THE KITCHEN BUSTLING WITH COOKING
WITH FLASHBULBS
WITH BALLROOM DANCING
THE LOUNGE SMELLING OF LEATHER
OF SMOKE
OF DREAMS
ROLF IS A SOULMATE
ROLF IS A FRIENDSHIP FROM THE STARS
ROLF IS A DREAMBOAT
2 DAYS SPENT BASKING
THE ONE THING MISSING?
A LITTLE BIT OF ASS WOULDN'T HURT A GIRL
IN FACT
THIS GIRL IS HURTIN, FOR A LITTLE HURTIN
TODAY
ANOTHER INDULGENT EVENING WITH ROLF
GIN, GRASS AND GREASE
FUELED OUR FENG SHUI
MY LIFE IS BEING TRANSFORMED
SIMPLY BECAUSE I MOVE A BOOK SHELF
IT'S TRUE
I CAN FEEL IT
PLUS
I RECEIVED A LITTLE MESSAGE THE OTHER DAY
I WILL BE MOVING
SOONER THAN I THINK, PERHAPS
AND
IT WILL BE A VERY EXCITING AND HAPPY MOVE
JOY JOY JOY
: )
2 DAYS SPENT SEALED AWAY WITH 3 HALF NAKED CUTIES
ABSORBING THE TESTOSTERONE
MY MIND WAS RAMPANT
(BUT WHAT ELSE IS NEW?)
I WANT TO FUCK ALL OVER THIS HOUSE
SO MANY SURFACES
SO MANY ANGLES
SO MANY LIGHTING OPTIONS
HAHAHA
THE POSSIBILITIES FOR EROTIC ESCAPADES
IS ENDLESS MY FRIENDS
TO FUCK ON A STAINLESS STEEL COUNTER TOP
UNDERNEATH AN ENORMOUS OPEN SKYLIGHT
WITH A LARGE PLASMA TV FILMING/PROJECTING YOU OVER CCTV
SO
YOU FUCK
ON THIS COUNTER
UNDER THE STARS
AND
CAN WATCH YOURSELF
FUCK
ON THIS COUNTER
UNDER THE STARS
ABSOLUTE FUCKING GENIUS
EVERY SINGLE SHOWER/BATH
HAS A TV
YUP
SO YOU CAN WATCH PORN
WHILE YOU FUCK IN THE SHOWER
OR
WATCH THE PEOPLE FUCKING ON THE COUNTER
UNDER THE STARS
FUCK
WHILE YOU FUCK IN THE SHOWER
SERIOUSLY
ENDLESS EROTIC ESCAPADES
BUZZING ON CHAMPAGNE, ESPRESSO AND GRASS
TAKING IN
SOAKING IN
DREAMING IN
A GLORIOUS HOUSE IN N. LONDON
A CONSTANT FLOW OF CHAMPAGNE
OF THC
OF LAUGHTER
THE KITCHEN BUSTLING WITH COOKING
WITH FLASHBULBS
WITH BALLROOM DANCING
THE LOUNGE SMELLING OF LEATHER
OF SMOKE
OF DREAMS
ROLF IS A SOULMATE
ROLF IS A FRIENDSHIP FROM THE STARS
ROLF IS A DREAMBOAT
2 DAYS SPENT BASKING
THE ONE THING MISSING?
A LITTLE BIT OF ASS WOULDN'T HURT A GIRL
IN FACT
THIS GIRL IS HURTIN, FOR A LITTLE HURTIN
TODAY
ANOTHER INDULGENT EVENING WITH ROLF
GIN, GRASS AND GREASE
FUELED OUR FENG SHUI
MY LIFE IS BEING TRANSFORMED
SIMPLY BECAUSE I MOVE A BOOK SHELF
IT'S TRUE
I CAN FEEL IT
PLUS
I RECEIVED A LITTLE MESSAGE THE OTHER DAY
I WILL BE MOVING
SOONER THAN I THINK, PERHAPS
AND
IT WILL BE A VERY EXCITING AND HAPPY MOVE
JOY JOY JOY
: )
2 DAYS SPENT SEALED AWAY WITH 3 HALF NAKED CUTIES
ABSORBING THE TESTOSTERONE
MY MIND WAS RAMPANT
(BUT WHAT ELSE IS NEW?)
I WANT TO FUCK ALL OVER THIS HOUSE
SO MANY SURFACES
SO MANY ANGLES
SO MANY LIGHTING OPTIONS
HAHAHA
THE POSSIBILITIES FOR EROTIC ESCAPADES
IS ENDLESS MY FRIENDS
TO FUCK ON A STAINLESS STEEL COUNTER TOP
UNDERNEATH AN ENORMOUS OPEN SKYLIGHT
WITH A LARGE PLASMA TV FILMING/PROJECTING YOU OVER CCTV
SO
YOU FUCK
ON THIS COUNTER
UNDER THE STARS
AND
CAN WATCH YOURSELF
FUCK
ON THIS COUNTER
UNDER THE STARS
ABSOLUTE FUCKING GENIUS
EVERY SINGLE SHOWER/BATH
HAS A TV
YUP
SO YOU CAN WATCH PORN
WHILE YOU FUCK IN THE SHOWER
OR
WATCH THE PEOPLE FUCKING ON THE COUNTER
UNDER THE STARS
FUCK
WHILE YOU FUCK IN THE SHOWER
SERIOUSLY
ENDLESS EROTIC ESCAPADES
Monday, June 15, 2009
On Going Erotica Tale... 3/? Parts
PART 1:
Fuck Me Now Future Lover
My Body Cannot Wait Anymore
To Feel Your Full Lips
Suck, Suck, Sucking My Clit
Myyy Little Hard On
Fucking Your Gorgeous Face
I'll Want You Inside My Bottom
My Whole Ass and Sacrum Aching For The Feel
Of Your Strong Freight-Train-Cock And Hips
Bouncing Off My Ass, Hips And Thighs
You Strum Your Slick Oiled Cock
Between My Shapely Cheeks, With One Marble Hand
As You Grab A Fistful Of My Champagne Hair
Pulling And Arching My Flexible Body To Yours
'Fuck Me...Oh My God, Please'
You Kiss My Silky Back...'Okay Angel'
I Feel Your Hot Cock Lips Kiss My Rosebud
Before I Swallow Up Your Curved, Perfect Dick
No Sound Escapes My Lips
As I Squeeze And Twist My Full Rack
And My Charged, Raspberry & Rose Centers
And You'll Brush My Hand Away From My Humming Clit
As You Pump My Wet Quivering Asshole
I Wonder What Sounds I'll Make?
As Orgasm Rocks Through My Bucking Bottom
I Want To Feel Your Hot Come
Stringing and Spraying
Over My Still Vibrating Ass and Hips
To Smell You Through The Sweat And Breath
As You Rub And Slap Your Manly Scent Into My Skin
HE/THEY TOLD ME HE/THEY WERE HARD
PART 2:
Mmm Good Baby
Because I Want You Inside Me Again
This Time It's My Virgin Pussy
Aching And Dripping For You
On My Back, My Whole Hand Gripping My Sex
Kneading And Rolling
As My Still Bouncing Hips Gyrate, Dance
Squeezing My Eager Cunt And My Exhausted Ass
I Am Alone In The Middle Of Your Bed
My Other Hand Exploring My Mouth
I Feel Your Strong Hands Grip Below My Knees
Before You Drag Me Toward Your Crystal Covered Glans
I Love To Watch My Swollen Cunt
Opening And Sucking My Lovers Dick
My Own Little Hardcore Porn
So, I Push Myself Onto My Hands
As I Spread My Legs Wide For You
I Can Smell My Creamy Sex, I Know You Can Too
I Slip 2 Fingers Inside My Flowing Pussy
1 For Me And 1 For You...
PART 2 WAS VERY WELL RECEIVED BY ALL
PART 3:
My Glistening Finger Dips Into Your Mouth
And I Watch You Relish My Juices
As I Suck On My Own Dripping Digit
I Bite Down Hard, When I Feel Your Teeth
Close Around One Of My Hard, Hot Nipples
My Fingers Slide Back Into My Soaking Quim
To Paint My Other Aching Pink Nip
I Grip Your Hair and Groan
As You Swallow My Whole, Full Breast
I Feel My Thighs Widen Even Further
I Breathe Deeply, Our Combined Scents Filling The Air
I Wrap My Legs Around Your Waist
Pulling You Into My Soft, Sexy Body
My Hungry Cunt Soaking Your Balls
Your Cock, Bouncing Along My Tummy
A Crystal Trail Of Pre-Come...
PART 3
SHORT BUT SWEET
Thoughts?!
Fuck Me Now Future Lover
My Body Cannot Wait Anymore
To Feel Your Full Lips
Suck, Suck, Sucking My Clit
Myyy Little Hard On
Fucking Your Gorgeous Face
I'll Want You Inside My Bottom
My Whole Ass and Sacrum Aching For The Feel
Of Your Strong Freight-Train-Cock And Hips
Bouncing Off My Ass, Hips And Thighs
You Strum Your Slick Oiled Cock
Between My Shapely Cheeks, With One Marble Hand
As You Grab A Fistful Of My Champagne Hair
Pulling And Arching My Flexible Body To Yours
'Fuck Me...Oh My God, Please'
You Kiss My Silky Back...'Okay Angel'
I Feel Your Hot Cock Lips Kiss My Rosebud
Before I Swallow Up Your Curved, Perfect Dick
No Sound Escapes My Lips
As I Squeeze And Twist My Full Rack
And My Charged, Raspberry & Rose Centers
And You'll Brush My Hand Away From My Humming Clit
As You Pump My Wet Quivering Asshole
I Wonder What Sounds I'll Make?
As Orgasm Rocks Through My Bucking Bottom
I Want To Feel Your Hot Come
Stringing and Spraying
Over My Still Vibrating Ass and Hips
To Smell You Through The Sweat And Breath
As You Rub And Slap Your Manly Scent Into My Skin
HE/THEY TOLD ME HE/THEY WERE HARD
PART 2:
Mmm Good Baby
Because I Want You Inside Me Again
This Time It's My Virgin Pussy
Aching And Dripping For You
On My Back, My Whole Hand Gripping My Sex
Kneading And Rolling
As My Still Bouncing Hips Gyrate, Dance
Squeezing My Eager Cunt And My Exhausted Ass
I Am Alone In The Middle Of Your Bed
My Other Hand Exploring My Mouth
I Feel Your Strong Hands Grip Below My Knees
Before You Drag Me Toward Your Crystal Covered Glans
I Love To Watch My Swollen Cunt
Opening And Sucking My Lovers Dick
My Own Little Hardcore Porn
So, I Push Myself Onto My Hands
As I Spread My Legs Wide For You
I Can Smell My Creamy Sex, I Know You Can Too
I Slip 2 Fingers Inside My Flowing Pussy
1 For Me And 1 For You...
PART 2 WAS VERY WELL RECEIVED BY ALL
PART 3:
My Glistening Finger Dips Into Your Mouth
And I Watch You Relish My Juices
As I Suck On My Own Dripping Digit
I Bite Down Hard, When I Feel Your Teeth
Close Around One Of My Hard, Hot Nipples
My Fingers Slide Back Into My Soaking Quim
To Paint My Other Aching Pink Nip
I Grip Your Hair and Groan
As You Swallow My Whole, Full Breast
I Feel My Thighs Widen Even Further
I Breathe Deeply, Our Combined Scents Filling The Air
I Wrap My Legs Around Your Waist
Pulling You Into My Soft, Sexy Body
My Hungry Cunt Soaking Your Balls
Your Cock, Bouncing Along My Tummy
A Crystal Trail Of Pre-Come...
PART 3
SHORT BUT SWEET
Thoughts?!
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Every Now And Then, I...
BREAKTHROUGH
AFTER MY 'BRAVE' PHONE CALL
MARSHALL REACHED OUT
WE HAD A HEALING CONVERSATION
I COULD FEEL HIM OPEN TO ME AGAIN
IT WAS WONDERFUL
SO BLESSED
SO MUCH GOING THROUGH MY MIND
WILL TAKE TOMORROW TO REFLECT
UNDERSTANDING
SO MUCH MORE
THE DIFFERENCES BETWEEN MEN AND WOMEN
MASCULINE AND FEMININE ENERGIES
ETC ETC ETC
PEOPLE ARE COMING INTO MY LIFE
THEY ARE TEACHING ME
REMINDING ME
INSPIRING ME
IT'S SO NICE TO SEND OUT REQUESTS
AND TO SEE YOUR PRAYERS ANSWERED
ALMOST INSTANTLY
I AM OPEN TO YOU WORLD
..........
100 Things You Might Not Know About Me...
Answer these questions then tag 10 people to do the same and post it as 100 Things About Me.
1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
My Knee, Was Doing Some Fancy Footwork Down A Flight Of Stairs...Recurring pattern in my life
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Manifestation images, fabrics and white paint
3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
Sometimes, Sometimes, Yes - Sometimes
4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
Ummm I'm kinda in between right now...I have a pattern of choosing 1 or 2 artists and then listening to them and only them, nonstop for 2 - 4 weeks (depends how great they are)...The choices tend to be the kind of music I need to help me manifest certain future moments OR help me to heal
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
2:30 pm approx
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
Touch
7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
Touch
8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
My cunt
9. WHEN YOUR SISTER MAKES COOKIES WHAT DO YOU CALL THEM?
HUH? I don't understand this
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
No. I had my first kiss in a closet. It was great
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Yes. I have to admit, sometimes my imagination rules the moment
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
'Make' me...I have a problem with that wording TBH
No one can make me feel anyway
But I cried yesterday
And am proud of myself for feeling and embracing the emotion
But not letting it rule my evening
13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
The world of Margret Atwoods 'Handmaids Tale'
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Dark hair, dark eyes preferred but I wouldn't snub a gorgeous blonde or ginger
I love longer hair on men
I love to have something to grip on to
As my little hard on fucks their eager face
Sorryyyy - Warning! Super horny, as usual
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?
What?
Marriage
Ummm Alternate Reality
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
I want to be a skilled coffee drinker - I wanna make dem fancy coffees
17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Jalapenos - I love spice spice spice
2nd fav - Goats cheese
18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Cock
19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME?
OYE! I can't decide...
20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
Excuse me?
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED?
An erotic story starring myself and my lover
22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
A fewww in fact!
23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
I prefer, hypermobile
24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Nooo
25. WHO IS YOUR FAV FEMALE/MALE CELEBRITY?
Edie Falco is fucking killer in Nurse Jackie on HBO - I love her right now
26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
*sniff* nooo
27. WHAT KIND IS IT?
Way to rub it in...
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
Sure! Why miss out on the chance for a great time and probably some pretty intense, wild abandon sex
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED.
24
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes
32. FAVORITE QUOTE?
I love and accept myself - Louise L Hay
33. FAVORITE PLACE?
Someones Arms
34. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN OUTSIDE OF THE US?
Yesss...Not spent much time at all in the USA
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Flooding
36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
Always
37. FIRST JOB?
Babysitting
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Gosssh I rarely channel my inner Bart Simpson
39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE?
Many many many
40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Dinner over with Rockwell and Prince
41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
Nahhh
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
Oh God
Women - My hair, my height
Men - My tits, my game
43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
Yesss! Best invention ever
9 months was nothing!
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
A hot, sexy week in Portugal
Where I'm filled to the brim with fun, sun, and cum
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES?
Girl Options: Gloria, Verna, Pearl, Mona
Boy Options: Sebastian
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Nooope
My dad wanted to called me 'Barbara'
After Barbara Streisand
No, he is not gay
47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
I like a man who says 'no' to me
Doesn't happen often
So...Whatever the opposite
Generous To A Fault...or Weakness
Whatever that files under
48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKE(D) ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
Big fish, small pond
49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
Organic
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yes but am self conscious
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
A tofu version or something
52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Enabling
53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
Yes and I've come to embrace and enjoy this quality
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Ummm Yeah...I think I'm a great friend and I don't generally bullshit
55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS?
I thinks its poss but it's a balance thing
But essentially it should be a relationship based on erotic love
But you like the person enough that you could go to dinner before fucking
Or spend a long weekend together
56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Being healthy matters
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
Writing, Talking, Crying, Jilling
59. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN GOAL IN LIFE?
To change my world
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
Somewhere over the rainbow music box
Frog stuffed animal - sitting next to me
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
Nooo idea
62.WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID?
I'm not THAT young
63. DO YOU USE SARCASIM?
I think it's a little negative sometimes
Sometimes I do
64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
Mac & Cheese
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Nice smile, polite, friendly, sexy, sense of their own style
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
NA
67. FAVORITE SUPER POWER?
Fly OR Morph your body's shape
68. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
Nurse Jackie, for now
69.WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES?
Love
Compassion
Understanding
70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
My dream flavour would be:
A mix of dark chocolate and vanilla bean
With chunks of walnut, caramel and coffee beans
71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
Yes, thank you
72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
Always
73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
It's just after midnight - Bed ASAP
74. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER?
Place in London, NYC, Paris ON - minimum
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
I won't ask anyone to
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
Closer Than Ever
77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
H20
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Nils
79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Face Composition/Height
80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME?
Practice sex, write, photo booth
81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
No thanksss
82. FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEAR?
They are all wonderful and fab for their own reasons
Spring - Chilly Rain and Buds
Summer - Sunshine, Youth and Love
Fall - Change, Colour and Processing
Winter - Reflection, Holidays and Fireplaces
83. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY?
Brick N Broad Chocolates
84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND?
So blessed
85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Now - Blonde
Naturally - Not sure...ashy brunette
86. EYE COLOR?
blue
87. SHOE SIZE?
8
88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
Sushi
89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT?
Anywhere in France
90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
See number 88
91. WATCH TV TODAY?
An episode of Sex And The City with the gays
92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Today
93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
Siiing Siiing Siiing
94. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT?
Canadian
95. KISSES OR HUGS?
I love makin out
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Can I have somewhere in the middle, please?
97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
Baklava and Turkish Delight - Tonight's Dessert
98. WOULD YOU EVER BE A HOUSEWIFE?
Ummm I don't like the connotation...
99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
Breaking Dawn
100. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE
Blossoming
AFTER MY 'BRAVE' PHONE CALL
MARSHALL REACHED OUT
WE HAD A HEALING CONVERSATION
I COULD FEEL HIM OPEN TO ME AGAIN
IT WAS WONDERFUL
SO BLESSED
SO MUCH GOING THROUGH MY MIND
WILL TAKE TOMORROW TO REFLECT
UNDERSTANDING
SO MUCH MORE
THE DIFFERENCES BETWEEN MEN AND WOMEN
MASCULINE AND FEMININE ENERGIES
ETC ETC ETC
PEOPLE ARE COMING INTO MY LIFE
THEY ARE TEACHING ME
REMINDING ME
INSPIRING ME
IT'S SO NICE TO SEND OUT REQUESTS
AND TO SEE YOUR PRAYERS ANSWERED
ALMOST INSTANTLY
I AM OPEN TO YOU WORLD
..........
100 Things You Might Not Know About Me...
Answer these questions then tag 10 people to do the same and post it as 100 Things About Me.
1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
My Knee, Was Doing Some Fancy Footwork Down A Flight Of Stairs...Recurring pattern in my life
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Manifestation images, fabrics and white paint
3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
Sometimes, Sometimes, Yes - Sometimes
4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
Ummm I'm kinda in between right now...I have a pattern of choosing 1 or 2 artists and then listening to them and only them, nonstop for 2 - 4 weeks (depends how great they are)...The choices tend to be the kind of music I need to help me manifest certain future moments OR help me to heal
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
2:30 pm approx
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
Touch
7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
Touch
8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
My cunt
9. WHEN YOUR SISTER MAKES COOKIES WHAT DO YOU CALL THEM?
HUH? I don't understand this
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
No. I had my first kiss in a closet. It was great
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Yes. I have to admit, sometimes my imagination rules the moment
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
'Make' me...I have a problem with that wording TBH
No one can make me feel anyway
But I cried yesterday
And am proud of myself for feeling and embracing the emotion
But not letting it rule my evening
13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
The world of Margret Atwoods 'Handmaids Tale'
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Dark hair, dark eyes preferred but I wouldn't snub a gorgeous blonde or ginger
I love longer hair on men
I love to have something to grip on to
As my little hard on fucks their eager face
Sorryyyy - Warning! Super horny, as usual
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?
What?
Marriage
Ummm Alternate Reality
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
I want to be a skilled coffee drinker - I wanna make dem fancy coffees
17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Jalapenos - I love spice spice spice
2nd fav - Goats cheese
18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Cock
19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME?
OYE! I can't decide...
20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
Excuse me?
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED?
An erotic story starring myself and my lover
22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
A fewww in fact!
23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
I prefer, hypermobile
24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Nooo
25. WHO IS YOUR FAV FEMALE/MALE CELEBRITY?
Edie Falco is fucking killer in Nurse Jackie on HBO - I love her right now
26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
*sniff* nooo
27. WHAT KIND IS IT?
Way to rub it in...
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
Sure! Why miss out on the chance for a great time and probably some pretty intense, wild abandon sex
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED.
24
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes
32. FAVORITE QUOTE?
I love and accept myself - Louise L Hay
33. FAVORITE PLACE?
Someones Arms
34. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN OUTSIDE OF THE US?
Yesss...Not spent much time at all in the USA
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Flooding
36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
Always
37. FIRST JOB?
Babysitting
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Gosssh I rarely channel my inner Bart Simpson
39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE?
Many many many
40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Dinner over with Rockwell and Prince
41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
Nahhh
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
Oh God
Women - My hair, my height
Men - My tits, my game
43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
Yesss! Best invention ever
9 months was nothing!
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
A hot, sexy week in Portugal
Where I'm filled to the brim with fun, sun, and cum
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES?
Girl Options: Gloria, Verna, Pearl, Mona
Boy Options: Sebastian
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Nooope
My dad wanted to called me 'Barbara'
After Barbara Streisand
No, he is not gay
47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
I like a man who says 'no' to me
Doesn't happen often
So...Whatever the opposite
Generous To A Fault...or Weakness
Whatever that files under
48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKE(D) ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
Big fish, small pond
49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
Organic
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yes but am self conscious
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
A tofu version or something
52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Enabling
53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
Yes and I've come to embrace and enjoy this quality
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Ummm Yeah...I think I'm a great friend and I don't generally bullshit
55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS?
I thinks its poss but it's a balance thing
But essentially it should be a relationship based on erotic love
But you like the person enough that you could go to dinner before fucking
Or spend a long weekend together
56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Being healthy matters
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
Writing, Talking, Crying, Jilling
59. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN GOAL IN LIFE?
To change my world
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
Somewhere over the rainbow music box
Frog stuffed animal - sitting next to me
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
Nooo idea
62.WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID?
I'm not THAT young
63. DO YOU USE SARCASIM?
I think it's a little negative sometimes
Sometimes I do
64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
Mac & Cheese
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Nice smile, polite, friendly, sexy, sense of their own style
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
NA
67. FAVORITE SUPER POWER?
Fly OR Morph your body's shape
68. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
Nurse Jackie, for now
69.WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES?
Love
Compassion
Understanding
70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
My dream flavour would be:
A mix of dark chocolate and vanilla bean
With chunks of walnut, caramel and coffee beans
71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
Yes, thank you
72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
Always
73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
It's just after midnight - Bed ASAP
74. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER?
Place in London, NYC, Paris ON - minimum
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
I won't ask anyone to
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
Closer Than Ever
77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
H20
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Nils
79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Face Composition/Height
80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME?
Practice sex, write, photo booth
81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
No thanksss
82. FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEAR?
They are all wonderful and fab for their own reasons
Spring - Chilly Rain and Buds
Summer - Sunshine, Youth and Love
Fall - Change, Colour and Processing
Winter - Reflection, Holidays and Fireplaces
83. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY?
Brick N Broad Chocolates
84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND?
So blessed
85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Now - Blonde
Naturally - Not sure...ashy brunette
86. EYE COLOR?
blue
87. SHOE SIZE?
8
88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
Sushi
89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT?
Anywhere in France
90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
See number 88
91. WATCH TV TODAY?
An episode of Sex And The City with the gays
92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Today
93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
Siiing Siiing Siiing
94. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT?
Canadian
95. KISSES OR HUGS?
I love makin out
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Can I have somewhere in the middle, please?
97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
Baklava and Turkish Delight - Tonight's Dessert
98. WOULD YOU EVER BE A HOUSEWIFE?
Ummm I don't like the connotation...
99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
Breaking Dawn
100. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE
Blossoming
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Non Je Ne Regrette...
I CALLED MARSHALL TODAY
'I CAME WITH YOU' I SAID
'A LOT'
'AND I WAS TOO IGNORANT ABOUT MY OWN SEX
MY EXPECTATIONS FOR ORGASMS WERE SO HIGH
I CAME WITH YOU'
'OOOKKK' HE SAID
AND LAUGHED
I IMAGINED THE LOOK ON HIS FACE
WHERE HE WAS STANDING IN HIS FATHERS HOUSE
I BREATHED DEEPLY
SAID A FEW THINGS MORE
AND HUNG UP
THE WORLD WORKS IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS
IF YOU DON'T TRUST IT HAS YOUR BEST IN MIND
MY WORLD WORKS IN WONDERFUL, COMPLEX WAYS
A RIDDLE, YES
A MYSTERY, NOT REALLY
A JOY, INDEEED
: x
'I CAME WITH YOU' I SAID
'A LOT'
'AND I WAS TOO IGNORANT ABOUT MY OWN SEX
MY EXPECTATIONS FOR ORGASMS WERE SO HIGH
I CAME WITH YOU'
'OOOKKK' HE SAID
AND LAUGHED
I IMAGINED THE LOOK ON HIS FACE
WHERE HE WAS STANDING IN HIS FATHERS HOUSE
I BREATHED DEEPLY
SAID A FEW THINGS MORE
AND HUNG UP
THE WORLD WORKS IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS
IF YOU DON'T TRUST IT HAS YOUR BEST IN MIND
MY WORLD WORKS IN WONDERFUL, COMPLEX WAYS
A RIDDLE, YES
A MYSTERY, NOT REALLY
A JOY, INDEEED
: x
A Simpering, Whimpering, Child Againnn...
OH MY JESUSDAVID BECKHAM
I HAVE BEEN REFORMED
SURE SURE SURE
HE WAS HOT BEFORE
BUT THIS SHOOT
OOOMMMGGG
ADORE THE HAIR
LUSTING AFTER TATTOOS LATELY
I WANNA TO BE THAT ROPE
OK
OK
OK
RAGING HORMONES ASIDE
INTENSE COUPLE OF WEEKS
FOR LOTS OF REASONS
LOTS OF PROCESSING HAPPENING
LOTS OF EDUCATING, EXPANDING
READING 'ORGASMS FOR TWO'
BY BETTY DODSON
SO EXCITED FOR SEX AGAIN
I FEEL LIKE I'M FINALLY READY
FINALLY OPEN
FINALLY FREE
Thursday, June 04, 2009
Look At The Stars...
THE PUNISHING EGO
SHHH
QUIET DOWN!
I'M TRYYING TO SLEEP
EVEN AFTER A DAY FILLED WITH
SUCCESS
JOY
CONNECTIONS
MY MIND WHIRLS FURIOUSLY
MY MOST RECENT MENTAL POISON?
MARSHALL
I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW
AFTER SO MUCH EMPOWERMENT
AND GROWTH
AND TIIIMMMEEE
I'VE COME FULL CIRCLE
AND REALIZE HE'S EXACTLY THE KIND OF MAN
I WANT IN MY LIFE
I WANT TO LIE NEXT TO SOME NIGHTS
I WANT TO EXPLORE WITH
-NOW-
BUT THEN...
HOW COULD I KNOW?
I HATED MYSELF
HE CERTAINLY DIDN'T LOVE HIMSELF
WE WERE TWO BROKEN PEOPLE
TRYING DESPERATELY TO EXPRESS THINGS FOR EACH OTHER
THAT WE DIDN'T FEEL FOR OURSELVES
'UH UH UHHHH' SAYS MY EGO
MARSHALL LOVED YOU LIKE A QUEEN
AND YOU THREW IT IN HIS FACE
SHHH!
LISTEN EGO!
THE FACT OF THE MATTER IS
HIS FIRST LOVE
HIS FIRST FUCK
HIS FIRST HEARTBREAK
HE WAS HEAD OVER HEELS
WE WERE IN DIFFERENT PLACES
I CAN'T BLAME MYSELF
CAUSE I DON'T -WANT- HIM HERE NOW
I DON'T WANT -HIM-
I WANT A MAN WITH MANY OF HIS LOVELY QUALITIES
AAANNNDDD
HIS OVERSIZED COCK IF I'M LUCKYYY
HAHAHA
CAN'T HELP MYSELF
PSYCHIC BACK IN 2004
TOLD ME MANY THINGS IN A DEEP READING
MARSHALL AND I WEREN'T SOULMATES
THAT MARSHALL AND I WOULDN'T LAST
7 YEARS AT MOST
SHE SAID
BUT 'YOU PROBABLY WON'T LAST THAT LONG'
SHE ALSO SAID I WOULD END UP IN NYC
IN FASHION
AND THAT WHEN I WAS IN NYC
I WOULD 'MAKE IT UP TO HIM'
I WENT HOME TO MARSHALL THAT AFTERNOON
AND SOBBED IN HIS ARMS
SHE WAS WRONG - I THOUGHT
MARSHALL LOVES ME
REALLY LOVES ME!
HIS FEELINGS WERE NEVER THE ONES IN QUESTION
I WAS TERRIFIED TO END IT AND BE ALONE
I WAS OUT OF TOUCH WITH MYSELF
I WAS YOUNG
BUT
FOR MOST OUR TIME TOGETHER
HE WAS MY VERY BEST FRIEND
HE WAS MY CHEERLEADER
HE WAS MY BEAUTIFUL LIGHT IN ALL THOSE DARK DAYS
I ADORED THAT MAN
TOMORROW/TODAY IS HIS BIRTHDAY
HE IS 25
HE FELL IN LOVE WITH ME
WHEN WE WERE 4 OR 5
WE SPENT BETWEEN 4 AND 5 YEARS TOGETHER
AND HE IS SO HURT BY CONTACT WITH ME
THAT I FELT IT BEST NOT TO SEND WISHES THIS YEAR
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARSHALL
YOU ARE SUCH A WONDERFUL YOUNG MAN
SUCH A KIND AND PATIENT HEART
SUCH AN HONEST AND CARING SOUL
I HOPE YOU LOVE YOURSELF TODAY
YOU ARE PERFECT
YOU ARE A DANCING MACHINE
YOU ARE MISSED
: x
SHHH
QUIET DOWN!
I'M TRYYING TO SLEEP
EVEN AFTER A DAY FILLED WITH
SUCCESS
JOY
CONNECTIONS
MY MIND WHIRLS FURIOUSLY
MY MOST RECENT MENTAL POISON?
MARSHALL
I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW
AFTER SO MUCH EMPOWERMENT
AND GROWTH
AND TIIIMMMEEE
I'VE COME FULL CIRCLE
AND REALIZE HE'S EXACTLY THE KIND OF MAN
I WANT IN MY LIFE
I WANT TO LIE NEXT TO SOME NIGHTS
I WANT TO EXPLORE WITH
-NOW-
BUT THEN...
HOW COULD I KNOW?
I HATED MYSELF
HE CERTAINLY DIDN'T LOVE HIMSELF
WE WERE TWO BROKEN PEOPLE
TRYING DESPERATELY TO EXPRESS THINGS FOR EACH OTHER
THAT WE DIDN'T FEEL FOR OURSELVES
'UH UH UHHHH' SAYS MY EGO
MARSHALL LOVED YOU LIKE A QUEEN
AND YOU THREW IT IN HIS FACE
SHHH!
LISTEN EGO!
THE FACT OF THE MATTER IS
HIS FIRST LOVE
HIS FIRST FUCK
HIS FIRST HEARTBREAK
HE WAS HEAD OVER HEELS
WE WERE IN DIFFERENT PLACES
I CAN'T BLAME MYSELF
CAUSE I DON'T -WANT- HIM HERE NOW
I DON'T WANT -HIM-
I WANT A MAN WITH MANY OF HIS LOVELY QUALITIES
AAANNNDDD
HIS OVERSIZED COCK IF I'M LUCKYYY
HAHAHA
CAN'T HELP MYSELF
PSYCHIC BACK IN 2004
TOLD ME MANY THINGS IN A DEEP READING
MARSHALL AND I WEREN'T SOULMATES
THAT MARSHALL AND I WOULDN'T LAST
7 YEARS AT MOST
SHE SAID
BUT 'YOU PROBABLY WON'T LAST THAT LONG'
SHE ALSO SAID I WOULD END UP IN NYC
IN FASHION
AND THAT WHEN I WAS IN NYC
I WOULD 'MAKE IT UP TO HIM'
I WENT HOME TO MARSHALL THAT AFTERNOON
AND SOBBED IN HIS ARMS
SHE WAS WRONG - I THOUGHT
MARSHALL LOVES ME
REALLY LOVES ME!
HIS FEELINGS WERE NEVER THE ONES IN QUESTION
I WAS TERRIFIED TO END IT AND BE ALONE
I WAS OUT OF TOUCH WITH MYSELF
I WAS YOUNG
BUT
FOR MOST OUR TIME TOGETHER
HE WAS MY VERY BEST FRIEND
HE WAS MY CHEERLEADER
HE WAS MY BEAUTIFUL LIGHT IN ALL THOSE DARK DAYS
I ADORED THAT MAN
TOMORROW/TODAY IS HIS BIRTHDAY
HE IS 25
HE FELL IN LOVE WITH ME
WHEN WE WERE 4 OR 5
WE SPENT BETWEEN 4 AND 5 YEARS TOGETHER
AND HE IS SO HURT BY CONTACT WITH ME
THAT I FELT IT BEST NOT TO SEND WISHES THIS YEAR
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARSHALL
YOU ARE SUCH A WONDERFUL YOUNG MAN
SUCH A KIND AND PATIENT HEART
SUCH AN HONEST AND CARING SOUL
I HOPE YOU LOVE YOURSELF TODAY
YOU ARE PERFECT
YOU ARE A DANCING MACHINE
YOU ARE MISSED
: x
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
Beast of Burden
Beast of Burden Lyrics:
I'll never be your beast of burden.
My back is broad, but it's a' hurtin'.
All I want is for you to make love to me.
I'll never be your beast of burden.
I walk for miles, my feet are hurtin'.
All I want is for you to make love to me.
What's the matter with me?
Ain't I hot enough? Ain't I rough enough?
Ain't I rich enough? I'm not too blind to see.
Ohh, ohhh.
I'll never be your beast of burden.
So let's go home and draw the curtains.
Put some music on the radio.
C'mon, baby, make some love to me.
Oh, what's the matter with me?
Ain't I hot enough? Ain't I rough enough?
Ain't I rich enough? I'm not too blind to see.
Ohh, ohhh.
- Rolling Stones
I'll never be your beast of burden.
My back is broad, but it's a' hurtin'.
All I want is for you to make love to me.
I'll never be your beast of burden.
I walk for miles, my feet are hurtin'.
All I want is for you to make love to me.
What's the matter with me?
Ain't I hot enough? Ain't I rough enough?
Ain't I rich enough? I'm not too blind to see.
Ohh, ohhh.
I'll never be your beast of burden.
So let's go home and draw the curtains.
Put some music on the radio.
C'mon, baby, make some love to me.
Oh, what's the matter with me?
Ain't I hot enough? Ain't I rough enough?
Ain't I rich enough? I'm not too blind to see.
Ohh, ohhh.
- Rolling Stones
SO AIN'T I?
DAMN RIGHT
PLUS
I'M FUCKING WORKING ON IT
I'M LOVING THE BURN
THE BREAKING OF SWEAT
THE RACING HEART
ALSO
GETTING IN TOUCH
TALKING TO MY BODY...
WHY ARE HURTING THERE?
WHY ARE HOLDING HERE?
ETC
I HAVEN'T GOT THE ANSWERS YET
BUT I'M DEDICATED
I WILL LISTEN
I AM COMMITTED
SAMURAI'S FB STATUS MADE ME BURN TODAY
WITH JEALOUSY FIRST, AND THEN FIERCE DESIRE
SOMETHING LIKE...
SAMURAI <3>
Monday, June 01, 2009
Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!
NEW CELEB CRUSH
MICK JAGGER
AT ANY AGE REALLY
I'VE BEEN REALLY RESPONDING TO OLDER MEN
MUCH OLDER
AND I WONDER
WHAT CAN THEY OFFER?
THEY WOULD PROBABLY KNOW A THING OR 2 BY NOW
CAN A DIRTY OLD MAN LEARN NEW DIRTY TRICKS?
I GUESS
IN GENERAL
PEOPLE IN THEIR LATER YEARS HAVE ALL BEEN INTRIGUING ME
COULD I FUCK BETTY DODSON?
WHY NOT?
WHAT DO ALL THESE OLDER WOMEN KNOW?
WHAT SHOULD THEY BE TELLING US NOW
EDUCATING US ON
BETTY IS ONE IN MANY MANY MANY OLDER WISE WOMEN
WHERE ARE THE REST OF THEM?
I KNOW A FEW
BUT IT SEEMS TO BE A RICH DEMOGRAPHIC
IN EXPERIENCE, OPINIONS, AND STORIES
WHY DOES IT SEEM TO BE A SHUNNED ONE?
WHITE WITCHES EVERYWHERE
HIDING
JUST BELOW THE SURFACE
WE ALL KNOW ONE
MY GODMOTHER
WHO LIVES ALONE ON HER FAMILY ORCHARDS
IN A COLD HUGE HOME
PROBABLY NEVER BEEN KISSED OR TASTED A DROP OF WINE
KNOWS THE HERBAL REMEDY FOR JUST ABOUT ANYTHING
LIFE TIME VEGETARIAN AND DEVOTED CHRISTIAN
NAME ORIGINS OF BIRDS, ANIMALS, FLOWERS
SHE HAS NO CHILDREN
WHO IS SHE PASSING THIS INFO ALONG TO?
WHAT DOES SHE THINK ABOUT DURING HER DAY TO DAY?
WHEN SHE LIES AWAKE AT NIGHT?
DOES SHE MASTURBATE OR THINK OF MEN/WOMEN?
SHE HAS ALWAYS SEEMED A VERY NON SEXUAL PERSON
WELL ASEXUAL
MY MOM ALWAYS SAYS:
I JUST DON'T THINK IT'S SOMETHING SHE THINKS ABOUT
HUH???
THAT'S ALL I THINK ABOUT
I WANT TO KNOW HER MORE
TO UNDERSTAND HER
TO LEARN FROM HER
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