MmmMmmMmm

I am drunk on champagne & youth
I am indestructible, and angry...when I am destructible
I am scared

You know how some fish grow as big as their bowl
I feel I've grown as big as my bowl
And I'm scared because I worry that some things/people/places
Aren't big enough for my bowl anymore

I'm probably just worrrying
Sometimes I worry, bad habit
This feels like a state of being I remember
I can't quite pinpoint it
Things are changing rapidly, and I'm trying
To make heart sense of it all
To stay neutral and let things happen
To fill myself with love
I can't help but feel like I've known it all before
Like this is a phase/cycle/state I've known
And it scares me because
Well
I let people go
I can, easily
And that's not as easy for others
As it is for me
But it's my nature
Yes or No
Black or White
Soft or Hard
I don't much like the in between

Ohhh I'm blathering on
While I should be enjoying the champagne bubbles in my brain

Everything is fine
The world is crumbling and rebuilding
The people I meet are wonderful and horrible
The love is obvious and illusive

It's about what company/state/consciousness I keep
I guess that's what's worrying
Sometimes

I feel like I want time alone
But the truth is
I only want time with a lover
I want time where I don't have to speak
I don't have to explain
I just want to move and act like my heart wants
I just want to feel and know another without words
I'm so sick of talking and analyzing and knowing
I just want to be
With someone
I just want to be there

I sent the original photo to Samurai
Bow N Presence
I demanded
Or something like that
My first proper experimentation as a dom
Ooo Lah Lahhh

Thank you Sharlena
For capturing me
N a powerful, sensual & feminine moment
<3
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