Last Goodbyeee

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Sharlena
Such an inspirational woman
She is gettin shit done!
And she is staying true to herself
Love herrr

So
I have a confession friends
Beauchamp & Tex are one and the same
It seemed fitting to me
That they been considered different lovers
Things ended with Beauchamp and it sucked
I was hurt and confused and felt rejected
When it all began again
Neither of us was the same
I think we were both lonely
I think we were both horny
I think we were both hoping
To recreate or rekindle or rewhatever
What we had before
Pick up where we left off
But there was none of that
There couldn't be
Because 'It's Complicated'

Beauchamp was present, even, in his confusion
Thrilled to be exploring & opening
And infatuated with me & my come

I adored the attention & the touch & the champagne

Tex was there but not
I was there but not
His broken heart running the show
I was there to watch & wonder & wait
Things started off crazy and wild and fun
But
Things got 'complicated' fast
I started to retreat
He did the same
No longer coming over with Moet
Hollow
Was the only word he could find to describe his state of being
My feminine ego wondering...
Would he ever desire me like THAT again?
Or was I old hat now?
These thoughts ran through my head for a few days
Until this thought bubbled up:

WHERE IS MY FUCKING CHAMPAGNE?

And I knew it was overrr

I deserve champagne
And it's not about the fucking champagne
The champagne was his lust & his thrill & his joy
Being with me
I deserve a champagne lover
Intoxicating
Sexy
Present N T Swirling

Beauchamp & Tex
Beaux
WAS that
Sometimes
But I'm too fucking young
Too fucking gorgeous
Too fucking horny
To wait around

I'm wasting you
Beaux said
And he was right
And I was letting him
And it was making me miserable

Lesson Learned Universe

SO
Now it's all done and dusted

I feel a bit guilty today
For not really caring that it's over
I thought there would be some tears over it all
Or shudders when remembering his face between my thighs
And pangs when I got into bed alone again tonight
Knowing he was getting into bed alone so close by
But...
Nothing

I'm happyyy
I'm readyyy for the next chapter
I'm doing right by me