Nobody, No No Nobodyyy

SO MANY THINGS
I WANT TO SAY
WHEN I HEAR RIDICULOUS THINGS
COME OUT OF THE MOUTHS
OF PEOPLE I LOVE
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OF PEOPLE I LOVE
I HAVE A KINDRED SPIRIT WITH THE GAYS
MY MANY FAB FAGGOTS
WHO CONCLUDE:
'RUBY, YOU ARE A GAY MAN'
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YOU ARE A GAY MAN
AND THEREFORE I DON'T PRETEND TO KNOW
OR UNDERSTAND ALL THE PRESSURES YOU FACE
BUT I UNDERSTAND SELF LOATHING
AND I UNDERSTAND THE DISCIPLINE AND WORK INVOLVED
IN CHANGING THOUGHT PATTERNS AND PERSONAL BELIEFS
NOBODY SAID IT WAS EASY
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NOBODY SAID IT WAS EASY
BEING A WOMAN
OR A MAN
OR STRAIGHT
OR GAY
OR BI
OR HUMAN
BUT I CAN TRULY FEEL PURE JOY
WHILE SCRUBBING A DIRTY DISH
TODAY
A BOWL USED LAST NIGHT
I BAKED A PUDDING FROM SCRATCH
IN A LARGE MIXING BOWL
AND AS I SCRUBBED OVER THE CAKED ON CHOCOLATE
AND HARDENED SCRAPINGS
I FELT CONTENT
I FELT FULL OF LOVE
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I FELT FULL OF LOVE
WHEN I WAS 14
AND HE WAS 21
HIS FATHER, CONVICTED OF EMBEZZLEMENT AND MURDER
MADE HIM A WARY AND GUARDED MAN
HE DIDN'T KNOW I WAS SO YOUNG
I DIDN'T KNOW IT WOULD MATTER
I LOVED HIM
MY FIRST 'LOVE'
TALL
DARK
EMOTIONAL BUT PRIVATE
QUITE BUT CONFIDENT
AND ALMOST MYSTERIOUS
ALL THINGS I GRAVITATED TOWARDS
THEN AND STILL
I CAN'T DENY MY 'TYPE'
MY MEDITATION CLASS TODAY WAS RUINED
CAUSE SOME CLARK KENT-ESQUE DUDE
DECIDED TO DROP IN
I KEPT SNEAKING PEAKS OF:
HIS SEXY HANDS
HIS BROAD, TANNED SHOULDERS
HIS OLIVE-Y, BUTTERY SKIN
YOU CAN'T HELP BUT IMAGINE
THE MOST PERFECT COCK ATTACHED TO SUCH A BODY
SERIOUSLY
SERIOUSLY
SERIOUSLY
IT TOOK ALL MY ENERGY
NOT TO STARE AT HIM THE WHOLE OF THE CLASS

TODAY WAS ANOTHER
TRULY BLESSED DAY IN MY LIFE
THANK YOU AGAIN
FOR ANOTHER
AND ANOTHER
AND ANOTHER
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