Wonderful Womb

So fucking ready
For things to get moving
Seriouslyyy

Last night
To have been a fly on the wall
For the most ridiculous sight
Me
Sobbing
Because my vibrator takes AAA's
And I bought AA
Sobbing
Because I could not come
And all I needed was for that thing to last 30 more seconds
Sobbing
Because I'm sick and tired of masturbating
And I need to be touched all over by some beautiful hands

I would be happy to masturbate only forever
If there was some lovely next to me
Whispering dirty hot little nothings
And tracing a finger along my trembling self

I know it's coming
I know they're coming
I know I'll be coming
BUT
I
FUCKING
WANT
IT
NNNOOOWWW

I want everything now now now

I have so much frustration directed towards Samurai
I don't think he knows
Or he's ignoring it like a gentleman
Because he's not the cause
He's just there
But I'm frustrated because I feel unwanted
I'm starting to feel like another one on the list
I know this is silly
I know this is not true
I knnnooowww
I'm 1000's of miles away
I'm just bored
I'm needing new blood/cock

Nervous
Going to the Dr tomorrow
To get a needle in my vag
Cervix dilated
IUD put in place
Totally worth the lack of additional hormones swimming around in my body
From pills or patches or rings
But it doesn't mean I'm not nervous
It'll be over so fast
By tomorrow night I'll forget

Time to focus
To visualize a very peaceful vulva
A gentle, kind and precise Dr
Happy, healthy & responsive womb