Cowboy Take Me Away...

TODAY
OR
RATHER
TONIGHT
I FEEL THIN
FRAIL
ENERGETICALLY
I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF
FOR HEALING MY COLD
FOR SAVING MY VOICE
AN IMPORTANT DAY FOR ME
CAAAAAASTINGS DAY
BUT
NOW
IT'S OVER
AND
I WANT SOMEONE TO HOLD ME
I WANT TO SHRINK
AND REWIND
TO 5
I WANT MY FATHER TO HOLD ME
IN HIS STRONG ARMS
I WANT MY MOM TO CUDDLE ME
AND STROKE MY HAIR
I WANT TO GO BACK THREE YEARS
AND
I WANT KERMY TO DRAW ME A BATH
POUR ME A GLASS OF WINE
AND
WATCH ME SOAK AND
SIT IN SILENCE
WITH ME
BE WITH ME
I WANT TO ROLL A HUGE JOINT
AND
WATCH MY WORRIES
SWIRL IN THE SMOKE
MAKE LOVE TO MYSELF IN A RAINBOW HAZE
AND
FEEL THE ENERGY OF UNIVERSE
IN MY ENTIRE SELF
BLAST SIGUR ROS
AND
SIMPLY BECOME THE MUSIC
I'M READY
I'M READY
I'M READY
FOR THE NEXT LEVEL
FOR THE EVOLUTION
I NO LONGER FIND SOCIETY
USEFUL
OUR SYSTEMS
ARE
GENERALLY
COUNTERPRODUCTIVE
ISOLATING
CUMBERSOME
INEFFECTIVE
DAMAGING
DO I HAVE A PLACE IN THIS WORLD?
I WONDER SOMETIMES
I AM
SEEMINGLY
QUITE PUZZLING AND SHOCKING
TO SOME
WHY?
I WONDER
.........
I WANT THE ALIENS TO COME
I STARE UP INTO THE SKY
DEMANDING
WILLING
BEGGING
FOR SOMETHING TO APPEAR
I BELIEVE IN YOU
I WOULD BELIEVE IN YOU
I WOULDN'T BE AFRAID
SHOW ME
REVEAL TO ME
TEACH ME
TAKE ME
ALIENS
ANGELS
SPIRITS
WHATEVER
SAME FUCKING THING
I'M CRAVING CONTACT
.......
ONCE WITH KERMY
ON VALENTINES
WE DID MUSHROOMS
AS MY BON VOYAGE TO CANADA
IT WAS VERY INTENSE
A HUGE ENERGETIC RELEASE
AND
I FELT AFRAID
THAT I'D LET GO TOO MUCH
THAT MY SOUL HAD SPLIT
BEYOND THIS WORLD
AND
IT WASN'T COMING BACK
MY EXISTING ENERGY
SO THIN BUT SO PURE
I WASN'T MADE FOR THIS WORLD
IN THIS STATE
I RELEASED EGO
BEYOND MY COMPREHENSION
I TERRIFIED POOR KERMY
AND
I SOBBED FOR 8 HOURS STRAIGHT
WHILE, ALSO, LAUGHING
ENJOYING THE
GASOLINE IN PUDDLES
RAINBOWS
AND
FEELING MY BONES TURN TO DUST
MY SKIN AND MUSCLES
PAPER THIN AND ALMOST USELESS
I REALIZED I WAS DYING
PART OF ME
PROBABLY IN ANOTHER LIFE/PLANE
I WAS DYING
........
THIS PAST SATURDAY
I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE
LITTLE SIGNS HERE AND THERE
LYRICS
CHOICES OF WORDS
A WILLING
I CAME TO TERMS WITH THESE FEELINGS
AND
WAS PREPARED TO POSSIBLY DIE
BUT
THEN MY MOMS FACE
HER LOVELY AND FORGIVING FACE
WHEN SHE WAS HERE
A FEW DAYS AGO
I HAD A FEW SHIT THINGS HAPPEN
THE DAY SHE ARRIVED
AND
SHE SAID
WELL, NO ONE DIED
THEN LATER IN HER TRIP SHE SAID
EVEN WHEN THINGS GET BAD
AND
SCARY FOR HER
(WORKING IN MICROECONOMIC DEVELOPMENT
IN RURAL THIRD WORLD LOCATIONS)
SHE SAID
IT WOULD ONLY BE DEVASTATING FOR ME
IF I LOST ONE OF MY CHILDREN
I DON'T WANT TO WATCH MY PARENTS DIE
BUT
I WOULD NEVER WANT HER
TO GRIEVE IN THIS WAY
..........
GOSH
I NEED TO LIGHTEN UP
BUT
I'M SCORPIO
AND
THIS IS WHERE I LIVE
THIS IS ALL I KNOW